33, No Kids, over 100 Lbs Weight Loss - Ottawa, ON

Well since my last post things have not been going very well. One financial catostrophy after another and we had to face the fact that my first few loan payments would be impossible to make. Last week with only 48 to spare we had to cancel my medical loan and call off the surgery. At this point I don't see much hope of being able to reschedule in less than a year. I'm heartbroken. My husband couldn't understand why I was so devestated at the idea of waiting just one more after waiting this long. The best I can explain it is that I'd already mentally transformed to the person I would be after my surgery. Having that taken away from me has been like being sent back in time to the fat, insecure person I was 10 years ago. It's been a huge blow to my self esteem. I haven't had the heart to tell many people yet that the surgery's off. I just don't have the enegry to listen to anyone else say "oh well what's another year?" or " it just wasn't meant to be".
Thank you all for your kind words and support here. Good luck and happy healing all. Hopefully one day I'll be back here with some after pictures of my own.

Well so far I've really surprised myself in how many people I've told about my tt. I think that's a good sign that I've made the right decision for me. Almost all positive and supportive reactions. Noone's been really negative, just maybe not understanding because they think I'm just doing it to do better at figure competitions.... "sigh" Anyhow I'm gradually accumulating a nice little pile of recovery goodies. I found a recliner on kijiji for only $20, a client has loaned me her walker from when she had a motorcycle accident and I found some awesome heat packs that heat up at the push of a button so I don't have to get up to warm them up. I booked a full 2 weeks off of work and then will go back for half days for another week (only for clients who are capable of lifting and racking their own weight etc) My morning clients are all bodybuilders/fitness competitors so they'll be the lucky buggers to get me back first. In the afternoon/evenings I do mainly rehab work with people with severe back injuries and scoliosis so I will have to pass these ones off to another trainer for at least a month until I'm able to pick light equipment up again.
In terms of challenges so far, I've been painfully aware of the impending loan payments starting a week before my surgery. Of course that means that right now my computer is dead, my car is falling apart and my phone keeps freezing. I also just remembered that little occasion less than 2 months after my surgery called Christmas. At least I'm not nervous about the surgery itself.... yet.

So I finally got around to taking some very unflattering before pictures of my current tummy. I'm currently maintaining my weight at 149 lbs. That's 14 lbs above my "stage weight" in the competition photos I posted earlier. I can't wait to be able to see my belly button while standing normally (note the massive arch in back in my comp pictures, nobody can stand like that all day at the beach, ouch!) and the pouch of empty skin above my belly button is the bane of my existence.
I better news I scored a gently used recliner off kijiji for 20 bucks last weekend! Woohoo!