What a Stupid Mistake I've Made!! I Want These Implants out Yesterday! - Ontario, CA

I am 3 months post-op breast augmentation and I...

I am 3 months post-op breast augmentation and I have scheduled my appointment for this Friday with a different PS to arrange to have them removed. I originally went for a breast lift but the PS convinced me that I would be happy with a breast augmentation to fill loss of volume instead of the lift. I stressed that I did not want to be large, that I merely wanted to fill my existing bra with the padding removed. I was a 32C/D but deflated. I am 42 years old. I should have gone with my gut from the beginning and not listened to the PS ( or my husband, who trusted that the PS must know what he is talking about) I received 421ccs and came out of surgery a 32F. They are way too big and way too wide for my 5'3, 118 lbs frame. They hurt constantly and are super heavy. I can only sleep on my side for a little while and then I have to turn to the other side, because I am literally laying on implants that extend onto my sides. The right side feels like it is starting to bottom out as the implant is already somewhat below my scar and is palpable and visible. I used to be self conscious about my breasts before surgery because they weren't what they used to be and now I'm super self conscious because they are so large and matronly. I only wear very baggy clothing to hide them and can't imagine ever wearing a bathing suit in public again. I can't believe that I have done this to my body and would love to just punch myself in the face for being so damn stupid! I have a tentative date for July if everything goes well with the consult. I am soooo grateful that here in ontario my removal with capsulectomy is covered by ohip with a note from my GP. My husband is having a VERY difficult time about how much money we have spent and he is enjoying my large breasts despite how I feel about them and regardless that they cause me so much discomfort. He keeps saying to give it more time although I have now travelled extensively to 3 different revision specialists who mutually agree that the implants are too large and too wide for my frame. I would have to have extensive pocket work to make the pockets smaller to accommodate a smaller implant. Forget that! I have already spent way too much time and money on my boobs. I just want them out and begin my healing so I can get back to living. So very Sorry about the rant but aside from my husband and sister, I have no one to talk to about this as no one else knows. For that, I am grateful for. I don't need anyone else knowing about my seriously expensive and disturbing mistake. I will let you know when my surgery is schedule. Thank you soooo much to this forum for the support. I honestly feel like I am doing the right thing after reading all the stories here.

What a relief! I found my PS!!

My husband and I met with Dr. Christopher Assad in Burlington this morning. We were there for an hour and half. We went over every possible scenario. Removal with replacement and major pocket work- BIG NO! , removal with full capsulectomy- kinda what I was leaning for, removal with partial capsulectomy, removal with lift and so on. In the end, I am getting a removal with partial capsulectomy and no lift, for now. I will let the dust settle so to speak, and see about a lift in 6 months to a year. He looked at my before pics and was a little frustrated that I was convinced that an augmentation was my solution. He said I had plenty of tissue and that a lollipop lift would have been perfect to lift the mild sagging I had as well as correct the nipple position. It makes me so angry with myself for not looking into things as I should have before I had surgery. At least this time around, I don't have a nagging doubt about whether or not I am doing the right thing. I have gotten second and third opinions and have settled with a PS that didn't try to sell me on something that I didn't need. The office staff will be calling me on Monday to confirm a surgery date. The earliest possibility may be mid July. The worst case scenario being mid august. They know how badly I want this done and are going to see what they can do for me to get me in as soon as possible. I'm praying super hard that it is July! Fingers crossed. My husband was especially supportive today and seems to be moving past having wasted so much money. He really liked the doctor and was impressed by his explanations and thoroughness. ( and we've been to a few so far, so that's saying a lot. ) I've also had a chance to talk to my daughter about my plans and she completely understands. She also completely agrees that large breasts do not suit my body or my personality. Phew, that wasn't such a hard conversation. My 17 year old son might be a different scenario. He was opposed to my first surgery for a few reasons, but the main one being, that I was putting my life at risk having an unnecessary surgery. I will take things as they come, he's pretty easy going and really just doesn't want to have to talk about his mothers boobs anymore. Poor kid. I am sooo grateful that I stumbled on this site. You women are all wonderful and so supportive. It feels good to know that I am not alone. I will post some more updated before pics when I find out the date of my surgery, and I will update after as well. It has been all your updates that have really helped me so far,and I want to do the same for others! Thanks again! Here's hoping I can maybe get a little sleep tonight!

Surgery date scheduled :)

My surgery has officially been scheduled for July 30th thanks to a lady that did not mind moving her surgery date. I am off in the summer and the office has been so wonderful in accommodating me and I am so grateful, I could cry from happiness! I have been so unsettled not knowing if I would be able to have my surgery sooner or later, but now I can finally move forward with getting the things done around the house and yard before the big day. Let me stress, I CAN'T WAIT to get these heavy hard balloons off of my chest! I toss and turn all night because I can only stay on my side for a little while before it starts hurting. My back starts killing me between the shoulder blades right around 3 every day and burns by the time the day is done. I am having a hard time disguising them since I only own a few baggy t-shirts and I feel awful lying as to why I'm not wearing a bathing suit or going in the water. We have a pool and a boat, and we are known for entertaining during the summer, and so far I have been dreading and stressing over the whole idea. I realize that I won't be going swimming after surgery, but I do not care one bit, because all I will be thinking about is how fricken happy I am that I can wear my normal bikini tops and tank tops again. I am hoping that since it will only be 4 months with these implants, that I will get back to what I had before, but even if I don't, I am OK with that, just as long as they are all mine, and they will be! No more feeling self conscious, no more discomfort, no more hiding, no more stressing about my boobs! I will post some pics as soon as I get hubby to take some updated ones right before surgery!

Post-op today! 2 weeks to go! The countdown is on!

Here is an updated photo at 4 months post op breast augmentation that I promised to put up before I explant in a couple of weeks. I went for my pre-op today and I now feel completely ready for my surgery. The staff at the hospital were all fantastic and quite a few of the nurses commented that I am in great hands with doctor Assad since he is known to be very meticulous. That made me feel so much better. They were very thorough and went over the entire process with me including what to expect afterwards. Since the hospital is 3 hours away, I will be spending the night with my husband locally and going for a post op visit with the surgeon the next day before coming back home. I have some medical background so as long as there are no complications, I will be taking my own stitches out. If I'm to be completely honest, I am getting a little worried as to how my breasts will look after surgery and I pray so hard that since it hasn't been very long, my breasts will at least look like they did before implants once the healing is all done. I am not second guessing removing my implants at all, they drive me crazy! They are so heavy, hot, and cause so much discomfort at night. The right side hurts all the time where it's starting to bottom out and I worry that if I wait much longer to get the implant out, it will do permanent damage to my fold. I have begun looking at old pictures of myself with smaller breasts to remind myself what I looked like. God, I looked so much better! I can't wait to wear all the clothes I haven't been wearing and I can't wait to shelf the baggy t-shirts that I have been wearing! I will never go against my gut and do something that I'm not comfortable with ever again. It's just too bad that it took all this time and money to come to this revelation. I'm done beating myself up over it and look so forward to moving on sans implants!

On the other side!

I just had my implants removed at 2:00pm this afternoon and apart from being a little light headed, I feel pretty good. I never asked for any painkillers other than the extra strength Tylenol and Advil. They did give me an anti inflammatory to take as well. The girls look pretty sad and deflated but thanks to this site, I knew what to expect and I'm not feeling overly worried about it. I instantly feel so much lighter! I had bottoming out on the right side but the surgeon said he fixed the inframammary fold by stitching everything up inside again to correct it. He feels confident that my crease should heal properly. I sure hope so. I am staying in town tonight at a local hotel and go for my post op in the morning before heading home. I will post pics as soon as I get brave enough to take one. So glad it's over! I've been pretty moody the last couple of weeks. This has been stressing me out more than I was admitting to even myself. So glad it's over. Let the healing begin!!

One day post op

Made it home all in one piece after my post op appointment this morning. Surgeon said everything went well. He did say that with the extra work he did on the right side (fixing the crease from bottoming out) it would leave me with some extra healing and tenderness. He's right about that. I am definitely sore on that side but nothing Advil and Tylenol aren't taking care of. I am also pretty tired today but at least my head is clear now, lol! As you can see from the pics I took, the girls are pretty deflated and droopy right now but I can work with I've got for sure. Once I took a good look at them, it wasn't so bad, just took some getting used to after having balloons on my chest for the last 4 months. I'm actually wearing a shirt I haven't worn since before my implants, ohh that makes me sooo happy! I look in the mirror every time I get up and I LOVE how small I look again! Even the surgeon said I looked 10lbs lighter! I can actually see my sides again, no more awful side boobs!

5 days post-op

Day 2 was definitely the worse day for pain and even that wasn't that bad, nothing Advil and Tylenol couldn't take care of. I would say the girls look a tad bit more deflated once the minor swelling went down, leaving me with quite a significant scoop, especially on the left side, which was the smaller breast and therefore stretched more than the right side. I am hoping that my tissues soon realize that they have room to breath now and fluff up a bit. It took me a couple of days to get rid of the brain fog and to regain my strength (I hate that shaky feeling), but as of day 4, I would say that I felt almost a 100%, other than some discomfort with the incisions. I even went out on the boat yesterday and wore a bikini top (with a wider band), for the first time this summer! I used some padding from my pre-implant bras to push and hold up the girls, just like old times, and I felt like my old self. It was wonderful! Emotionally, I am a little worried that I feel so good! I I am just so darn happy and relieved to have the implants out, that the appearance of my boobs really doesn't bother me what so ever. In fact, I absolutely love how small I am!
Doctor Christopher Assad

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Badjudgement - you look really great! It's nice to read how relatively easy the healing process has been for you. I'm encouraged by your story!
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It is so encouraging to read how well you are doing! I'm a day behind you in the healing process though not feeling as great as you, I know I will soon. Thank you for sharing your journey with us. :-)
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"I am a little worried that I feel so good!"........ love it! xx
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That's great that you're recovering so well!!
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Congratulations on your results @badjudgment, you look terrific. I was terrified after asking to be one cup size bigger and going from a C to an H with 350ccs that when I had my implants removed I would be concave! I also trusted my doctor, he was the president of the British Association of plastic surgeons, why wouldn't I trust his 25years and impeccable reputation? Even on explant I trusted the second surgeon with the decision whether to exchange and lift. I decided to do both but the exchange was through fear and vanity. With a 175 implant and a lift I have terrific boobs but if I could do it again knowing what I know now one year on, I would have explanted all together. In the beginning what I needed was a lift and it has taken 3 breast operations to realise that. I will go under the knife again and have them explanted at some stage but not just yet, I will wait for my lift scars to fully heal. It's been 12 months and though they are really only now beginning to fade entirely I don't regret my decision for a second. That said I still think your boobs look great and your nipples are pointing upwards, so it's all good, just to let you know I loved my lift and want to share my experience with other explant / explant exchange girlies :) xxxxx
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Thanks for the positive comment. Right now, mine have a pretty significant "scoop" and are completely empty except for some tissue at the bottom. Where does all the tissue go? Weird. I'm hoping that my tissues realize they now have room to breathe and come back to life soon! I had no upper pole left before implants so I'm not expecting miracles but I'm hoping since I only had them for 4 months, the damage from implants isn't permanent. I will see how things go in the many months to come and then decide if I want the lift. I just love, love love not being embarrassed about my boobs anymore :)
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Hi Badjudgement. When I had my in plants done a year and a half ago I was a skin sagging size 10b. I wanted a nice firm C. I had a lift with it and he ended up giving me a DD. I was in shock and totally upset at the time and continued to hate them. I get mine out in September and am hoping that the lift I had will be fine. Fingers crossed. I will post pictures of before and after for you. Other wise I do not care if I have to tuck some skin into my bra. LOL. I love your sense of humour.
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they problem was not you got implants but the size of them. You were already a C cup and you received 400 something cc's, amazing. Didn't you know they would end up being huge. Personally I think they looked good on you. The heavy feeling and the hardness would take much more time to get better. You did not wait long enough to see. I had to wait for more than 4 months to feel them soft and not as heavy. I used to take my bra off and thought they would fall. Now, I do not even feel I have implants in, except of course for the left one that did not get the way it was supposed to. I hope you feel better with your decision to get a lift instead. We should get many opinions before we decide on such serious operation. Most of us want to have had something different after surgery. We are so complicated !
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I am a little confused by your comment. I just read your full profile and I am confused why you are commenting on breast implant removal journeys when you haven't done so yourself and don't intend to, by the sound of it. While I appreciate that you THINK you know what you are talking about, in reality you do not. I, like many women on this forum, was duped into trusting a professional and his knowledge about breasts. I was assured because I was so deflated, that The implant would merely fill in the lack of volume, not increase my size by 3 sizes! Also,because of my age and the breast tissue I already had, I didn't have to wait long at all for my breasts to soften and settle, I would say about 4 weeks. I could go on and on explaining myself to someone who is obviously pro-implants, but I'm sure it would fall on deaf ears. I appreciate that you are happy with your implants and that is wonderful for you.. May I suggest that you stick to the breast augmentation forums to give your "support" as I'm sure it would best be served there. This forum is for women supporting other women in their quest for implant removal, not to make them feel worse than they already do☺️
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Perfect answer! You rock, Badjudgement! Continue your healing with positive energy flowing to you...
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Thanks!
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Well said!!!!!
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Thanks!
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Great answer. My surgeon and I discussed in full that a lift and small size C was what we were looking for in the end result. I came out with DD. It has been a year and a half now. They are heavy and totally uncomfortable. I am sorry to say this women has no idea. Am booked for surgery in September to have them removed. Can't wait. Will do before and afters and post for you.
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Look. I reply on the comments that I get on my email, I did not know this is a different forum. I did not mean to make you feel bad. Remember, it is not my native language and it can come across as aggressive sometimes. And I am not happy with my implants. I trusted my surgeon too. I did not try anything on, no rice testing, nothing. He just showed me a small implant and told me that it will be very high at first. He told me he was going to see in surgery what size is better for me. I showed him pictures of my old self and told him I wanted the same size. What I do not like about them is the big gap and also that the cancer breast is not fixed right. When other doctors ask me who my plastic surgeon was and i mentioned his name, they comment on how good he is. Even my oncologist congratulated him after he saw my breasts, very soon after surgery when they were huge, hard and heavy and also with the distorted shape that my left one had. We pay attention to other things than what doctors. You did a good thing to have them out if you did not feel comfortable with them. At first I regretted my decision on having them too. Even now, I feel the implant on my left one, it also hurts , it is still hard etc but I had a big operation done on it, the tumor was big and had a lot of branches inside. The doctor told me it was very hard to take it out and also make sure the surrounding area is cleaned well.The tumor was removed by my plastic surgeon at the same time with the implants. Sorry for the misunderstanding.
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Yes, perfect answer to unnecessary comments. And congratulations to your explant! I cannot wait to have mine. Good luck with your healing process. X
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I do not understand you ladies. You want to have implants and you will snap at anybody telling you otherwise. You want to explant and you do the same thing. I am sorry that you want to hear what is convenient for you at the time. You have all come on to me so strong for telling you my opinion because it was not what you wanted to hear. Once, I told a young lady with beautiful breasts that I would not do it if I were her and she went on and on about how wrong I was, telling me off actually. Has anybody heard me when I suggest going over the muscle? That is my doctor's way of doing it and there is a reason for it, but no. When most women talk about having problems because they messed with their muscle, does anybody pay attention? No, they do whatever their doctor tells them to do until he is proven wrong. Why don't you do some research, a medical one to get more info before you decide. Doctors are doctors, they want their money, they won't try to talk you out of it or telling you about all the bad things that can happen to you. I am getting off this site. It is not for me.
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@ vannatoo why would you comment to a lady that just had an explant? On a page discussing implant removal. It is stressful enough to have to through it,without your opinions. I think,we who want or had explants are fully aware that we have made mistakes. You comments are on a page were someone just explanted... Why do you feel the need to do that? Do you think made anyone feel better? I don't think so. I wish you luck.
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To vannatoo. You have no idea whatsover on what you are saying. Us so called ladies are doing medical research and do come on to web sites like this wonderful one to get further understandings off lovely ladies that are willing to share their experiences and knowledge with others. I thank them all for this. You however are a sarcastic and nasty women who shouldn't even have come onto this web site. This web site is for nice ladies only. You are NOT. So yes take your own suggestion and get off.
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Hear hear...... unbelievable.
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Vannatoo, Heres the big thing you are missing. This EXPLANT part of the forum is for us women, who want our implants (toxic bags or whatever someone chooses to call them) out or who have already had them out, or someone who is unsure sure and want to hear what others have experienced. It is not however an area to debate and argue with us. Seriously we have already experienced that with either doctors or our friends who think we are nuts for our belief and experience. I believe that implants are toxic, whether places over or under the muscle, makes no difference. Yes, i feel i made a huge stupid mistake and i didn't research implants enough. I also believe that the surgeons who place them do truely know the health problems they cause but still do the surgery for the money. Its very corrupt in my opinion. You may feel im being harsh or im crazy for my thoughts, if so, you'll find support on the implant side of the forum.
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Vannatoo I honestly believe you are sincere and trying to offer constructive help. I think because of the cultural difference you are being somewhat misunderstood. Woman that want to explant are just done, they want them out. They don't want to hear about how over verses under muscle might have been better. We just want them out, that's all. I'm so sorry you went through breast cancer, and I'm so sorry your implant is giving you problems. So many women here can relate to that. I believe breast cancer is, especially at a young age a very reasonable reason to consider a breast implant or fat transfer if that is an option. Sometimes fat transfer isn't an option because you have minimal fat. Anyway, I'm an explanter and very pleased about it. I pray blessing over you and that the cancer never returns and you have a wonderful life and enjoy it to the fullest.
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Looking good. You should fill out nicely. Are you wearing a good sports bra to hold them up while they heal?
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You bet! I have a surgical compression bra that I wear at night. The band goes a little lower than my incisions so it's a bit more comfortable than the one I had on yesterday, during the day. I slept OK, but my right side kept reminding me that it had a little more work done. The bra I have for during the day is also a compression bra but not as tight and I found the band was rubbing a little too much on the incisions. I think I'm gonna stick with the surgical bra for the first couple of weeks at least. If you look at my before implant pics, you'll see I was pretty droopy to begin with, so I'm trying not to kid myself that I will magically perk up. If I can fill out a bit or fluff up a bit, I would be happy with that. The rest will get taken care of with a good bra! Even though I'm small now, I can't explain how great it feels to walk with my chest out ( well as much as I can considering it's only 2 days post op) and no longer try to hide!! Yay!
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