500 cc, Silicone Gel, Unders, Mod Plus

So, my anxiety has pretty much been ruling my life since I got implants. I don't even know what to do about it. I've tried meds which kind of help but still don't offer much peace of mind. I was researching about my birth control the other day which is paragard ( an IUD) and many women said they've experienced crazy anxiety after having it in. I was having anxiety before the implants but nothing like it's been since having them. Most of the time I just want them out, I like the way they look but hate the way I've felt. I don't look forward to working out like I used to, sometimes working out will even give me anxiety. I can't stand it anymore, I just want to feel normal and not have to worry every single day if I'm going to freak out and have a panic attack. I worry that I'll be very unhappy with how they look if I get them taken out but if I felt better it would be completely worth it, but what if I still have crazy anxiety still?! I was reading the explant board about others experiencing side effects and the whole silicon toxicity thing. I don't know what to believe anymore but at this point I'm just wanting all foreign objects out of my body. Anyone else have an experience like this?

4 weeks

4 weeks post now, things are going pretty well. I usually only have pain when I wake up but occasionally my boobs will just be sore out of nowhere. The anxiety is slowly getting better, it helps that they're not feeling as foreign. I'm kind of worried about my left boob however, that side has the larger implant and to me it is noticeably bigger, my nipples are still crazy off and that pisses me off because I never had that problem before. Also my boobs were never noticeably bigger than the other. I know they're still changing but I really think the left will always look way bigger. I wish I would have just gotten the same size implant on both sides!! Since I still can't buy a decent bra I've been wearing these thin little sports bra things, which I like and they're comfy but I constantly have to readjust my boobs so my nipples look even, ugh I really can't stand it. I hope they'll even out as time goes on. I'm starting to regain some sensation on the left so that's really nice. Hope everyone is doing well!!