I'm here, and it's time to share my journey. Reading everyone else's reviews have been so crucial in making this decision and keeping my sanity and I look forward to returning the favour.
I am 23, 24 by the time I have the surgery, and a size 34DD (on a good day). The deal-breaker is that I am 5 feet tall and 123lb, so I am almost all boob and people like to point it out.
Since making the decision to have surgery I have become more aware of passing comments, but less sensitive to them. For example, if I were obese then no one would feel the need to tell me- so why is it everyone's right to make a comment about my breast size?! I am now more open to telling people how their comments make me feel as I know I'll only have to put up with them for a few more months. Light at the end of the tunnel!
It would be fine if I was just "big" - and in fact, after surgery, I wouldn't mind if they were still "big" which for my frame would take me to a C cup I think. I would be perfectly happy. I just don't like when people use the term 'gigantic' or 'massive' to describe me, or my personal favourite 'huge rack' (that was just last weekend, from one of my good friends' husband).
I digress... A bit more about me, I guess. I was a late bloomer. Going into college (age 12-13) I was still flat chested and teased about it. Oh, what I wouldn't give to go back to that. I was also slim and undeveloped in other physical ways as any pre-teen girl is. I have attached a picture(s) of me from age 14 onwards to show how over a period of 3 years I went from being a chubby teen with a regular sized bust to a late teen with more than I knew how to cope with.
I was always in denial about my size so I cannot say for sure how big I was. I hit a new low in my last year of high school, age 17, with probably E+ breasts and the dress sense to show them off... not ideal. I grew into them a bit after that, learned to dress around them, and my weight and relationship with my breasts both fluctuated regularly.
Like most people on here, I imagine, I never really realised how BIG I was until I saw it in photos. And I think I will have that realisation again when they're gone and I look back. Certain photos made me cringe, and my mum (who is also big but not massive) could see it in my every day life. I had terrible posture, despite doing ballet and other dance for 10+ years, and was always trying to hide them even if I had to make myself look fatter in the process.
Through 3 years of university they didn't both me too much, I don't re-call any incidents where I was terribly upset because of them but shopping was (and still is) a disheartening experience. I definitely got a lot of attention because of them, and the clothes I chose to wear, but as a young single woman it didn't bother me.
After university I started working at a health insurance company. I noticed how many people were having a reduction and claiming it through insurance and I grew green with envy that these woman had the money and determination to go through with it. I need to add now, the NZ government used to fund breast reductions commonly but the funding got cut and now it can be a 5-10 year wait and the criteria is stricter. Insurance companies will often subsidise but not pay the full amount. Mine is likely to be NZ$9500 but they can be up to NZ$16000.
By this stage in my life my weight has fluctuated even more. From 110lb with a 32DD bust to 145lb with a 36F bust. My poor body couldn't keep up and neither could my mind. I wasn't looking after myself and it was taking its toll on my poor boobies.
It wasn't until this year that I considered a reduction as a viable option for me. Again, I don't remember one specific moment but I can tell you that it has been VERY quick for me. It's only March now and I have my consult with my PS at the end of May which suits me fine because I can't have the surgery until after June due to health insurance requirements. I have had numerous discussions with my partner, one particularly supportive friend and my mum and worked out my finances but no matter what I had the drive and determination to DO THIS THING!
More about my partner's reaction. I think I threw it on him a bit fast, not realising that even though it had been going through my mind half-heartedly for years now and more seriously for a few weeks. His reaction upset me, and we argued, but after 3-4 weeks we resolved any issues there may have been. I wrongly assumed that he was concerned about the financial aspect but actually he was concerned that I wanted it because he didn't make me feel beautiful enough! Of course he didn't tell me that, it wasn't until I read some reviews on here and thought to tell him "Hey, it's not you, it's me" that he warmed up to the idea. His mum has had it done and I think I put 2+2 together and got 7 and wrongly assumed that he understood the physical and mental aspects of the procedure.
I don't think he ever really understood why his mum did it, but what male would? I explained to him how miserable I was, explained that the constant back pain I have will be gone (or minimised) and explained how much more confident I would be. Long story short, we're all go!
A bit more about me, physically. I have a desk job, so I sit down all day. I have terrible posture and constant knots in my upper back and shoulders. I exercise 5 times a week and have done for the last 2 years since I decided to take my body back and from this I get pain in my thoracic (middle) spine. I am a healthy weight for my height, my BMI is 24 thought I would like to be smaller but that is one thing I will work on changing myself (having already lost and kept off 22lb in the last 2 years. I take pride in my appearance, do my hair and makeup every day and love to dress up in dresses and heels.
Which takes me back to my shopping experiences..
Can I please add right now that if you are still reading, you are doing very well! I didn't realise how much information was going to pour out of my fingertips!
Since losing 22lb shopping has actually gotten worse. I have a figure that I would love to show off but can't as I feel so self-conscious in fitting clothes. Previously I had a bust to almost match my over-weight body but of those 22lb I lost, I'd be lucky if 2 of them came from my bust. Very disproportionate.
So I have a 2 month wait to see my PS and it can't come quick enough. Hoping to have my surgery within 6 weeks after my consult. I doubt that there is anything he can say that will change my mind. My friend, mum and partner have all expressed any concerns (or just questions) that they have, and nothing bothers me.
As far as I am concerned, this is a done deal. My work has prematurely approved two weeks off, though I think this might not be enough.. But I am going into this with a positive mind-set and a can-do attitude so that hopefully I can be back at work after that. I have only been in my job 4 months so they are very nice to give me any at all.
I am keeping myself healthy, both exercising and eating well as I have read a few reviews from people who have expressed how well they heal potentially due to their overall health and this is something I am working towards. I am still actively researching and reading reviews on here as nothing is set in stone until I am under than anaesthesia!
Lastly, I am hoping to go down to a C cup but going to let my PS make the final decision on that.
If you have read down to here, thank you, and I hope some of you can point me in the direction of your review or leave a comment :)
I'm here, and it's time to share my journey....
I'm here, and it's time to share my journey. Reading everyone else's reviews have been so crucial in making this decision and keeping my sanity and I look forward to returning the favour.
Just added a photo of me in my underwear, and will...
On a side note, I just went to the gym and had my...
I have a huge list of questions to ask my surgeon...
- How does he determine my nipple placement?
- I have IBS, how to prevent constipation, and am made easily nauseous so would like some antinauseants via IV and also for at home. What is the reason for everyone experiencing lack of bowel movements?
- When can I drive?
- If I feel up to it, can I walk around the block? If not, do I need to wear compression stockings for a few days?
- Are my breasts mainly fat or mainly tissue? I have lost 10kg, none of it from my breasts, and suspect it is tissue. So if I gain weight, or get pregnant, how much bigger will they get? I have never experience a large change in size with weight gain either.
- When can I shower, and when can I have water directly onto my incisions?
- Do I tape the scars? Does he recommend vitamin E cream, bio oil, rosehip oil or anything else?
- What are the viable sizes for my body type? What does he recommend? Am I better off going bigger, because I like having boobies I just don't like them holding me back and hurting me. Am I better off going smaller, incase they increase during pregnancy?
- My underarm fat - is that flow-over breast fat, or because I just have fat armpits? (I am not getting liposuction)
- Will a high-protein, fruit and veg diet help me recover better?
- Post-op bras... does he supply one? Is the one I bought okay? How long until it is okay to go bra-less, and wear underwire?
- If I breast feed, will they sag? (I know this is no different than for non-reduced breasts but I am interested to know). If I breast feed for less than 6 weeks, are they more likely to bounce back? This, of course, is assuming I can breast feed.
- Is 2 weeks, or 2 1/2 weeks off work, enough? it's all I can get.
- Does he recommend arnica cream, or liquid, or rescue remedy?
- Risks of sleeping on my side - is this just to reduce pain/blood flow?
- Will i have internal and external stitching? How do dog-ears occur, and will he fix it for no charge if I get one?
- What do I do if an incision opens up in the few weeks after my surgery
- What can I do for itching? Anti-histamines?
- Can I clean the incisions with normal soap, or do I need natural/fragrance free/pH balanced soap?
- Will the nipple scab?
- What can I do to reduce bruising?
- Will I have drains?
- Will I have a tube in my throat/nose AFTER I wake up?
- Will I need antibiotics? (I HATE them, they wreak havoc with my bowels)
- How many BRs does he do a week?
Whew! I am a little bit OCD when it comes to this, because I am so flipping excited for my consultation, and hopefully my surgery a month after that and I just want to KNOW EVERYTHING and I want to have a definitive date so I can write it big and bold in my diary!
I hope he can fit me in late June. On June 20th-23rd I am going to the South Island for my besties 21st, and would love to be in the week after. Cross your fingers for me ladies! As soon as I have a date, I will have the courage to upload some more pics.
What did you ladies wear to the hospital? I will...
Maybe I should just wear a zip up sweatshirt?
My surgeon is really young, I would say mid 40s. He has quoted me about $8000-$9000 which is SO CHEAP for NZ and just as well, because my insurance only pays $5k so I am funding the rest. That's how bad I want this. This may be the only time in my life when I am in the position financially to be able to do it.
I asked him all my questions, i won't go in to them all in detail but there is definitely some that are blog-worthy.
Firstly, my procedure will be a day-stay at the private hospital about 10 mins from home. The surgery itself will only take an hour to 1.5hours (didn't most of you ladies say yours took 4+ hours!?) which I queried but he reiterated that I am a simple, low risk case. So low risk, in fact, that I am almost not a candidate at all. He will be able to take out 400g per breast and my insurance requires 350g. He asked which size I wanted, and we discussed it but he said that he's not familiar with bra shopping, so not too familiar with sizes! That makes sense! He said he could take 600g and leave me with next to nothing, and I said NO! I LIKE THEM! I just don't want them to be this big. I said I want to leave a bit of room for growth during pregnancy, so a C/D would be great. D for me is fine as I'm a band size 32 so a D is still very small.
He said that ideally women should wait until after they've finished having kids but he understands that it is not always an option. He will use the anchor technique, which I was expecting. He said that my breasts are tissue, not fat, as I suspected due to them not getting smaller with weight loss. The pure weight of them growing when I was so young has made them very saggy and the fact the bulk of the content is sitting at the very bottom of them is what is causing my back pain.
So a few more topics due to my reduction being alot smaller than some other ladies, is that I do not need liposuction anywhere and there will be no residual fat under my arms as (and this was VERY good for my self-esteem!) he said that there is no fat on the rest of me, just large breasts! (Yes, yes, please keep the compliments coming, thanks doctor!)
I will have disolving stitches around the nipple and staples on the vertical scar. This is for cost, they are alot cheaper and he is aware that this is going to cost me a fair bit as is. He has recommended no bra (!!) for the first 1-2 weeks, as I will be bandaged, and he recommends taping the scars and not using ice or scar creams. He will give me a dose of antibiotics in my IV and I will be taking paracetamol and ibuprofen (most of you will know this as Advil) and I am staying away from codeine as my poor IBS doesn't like it very much. He is positive that I will not need much pain relief, will be back at work (I have a desk job) in a week if I want to be (I am taking 10 days off) and if I can walk around the block every day then that would be fantastic.
I bought a cute little zip-front (high impact) sports bra that he said will be good for after 2 weeks post-op, so I'll probably wear it to work because it doesn't look out of place.
Some of this definitely sounded weird to me after reading reviews from all of you, but I trust him too. He performs a BR every fortnight (for NZ that is HUGE, these things don't happen often over here) and has very rarely had complications. A 1 in 50 chance of a post-op bleed and the next most common problem is for the stitches not to dissolve and my body tries to reject them. I've had dissolving stitches before, and they were fine.
Sorry ladies, I just realised that I came on to write a brief update and have again ended up pouring out my life story.
Summary: I am SO excited, SO relieved and my partner is in Europe so noone to share my excitement with. Now I am comfortable uploading more photos, so I will do that in the morning.
THIS IS HAPPENING!!
A bit more information...
I also read this.. "Do not wear a bra for the first week after breast lift or breast reduction surgery. This will reduce your postoperative pain and reduce the risk of shifting the position of the implants after breast enlargement surgery. You may wear any type of undergarment you choose after the first week provided it does not give you pain. It is not necessary to wear a bra at all times" which makes me feel better about not wearing a bra for the first few weeks. Then on to my zip front sports bra for some extra support.
Whew! Breath a sigh of relief.
I have a not-for-profit insurance company here, and I know that I will be accepted within policy limits. Every person is entitled to the same thing, so they don't find ways to decline people for treatment that they are entitled to. So i have no need to worry, it's just scary knowing that I don't have my prior approval number yet!
Starting the insurance process
My surgeon wrote a really fantastic letter, ticked all the boxes, and if he had called me 'thin' one more time my head wouldn't have been able to fit through the door tonight ;)
The only thing I am worried about is how not worried I am! I could not be more ready for this.
Less than a week...
And now, after dropping my hospital forms off (WOW what a flash hospital) I am suddenly very nervous. It doesn't help that my 6 month old kitten is really sick and has been having seizures (toxoplasmosis) so I have been so worried about him, and am still worried though he is on the mend. So I'm feeling stressed, and run down, and taking a tonne of vitamin C and eating kiwi fruits and even the odd cold & flu tablet just to make sure I don't get sick. I cannot be sick right now. I know these nerves are normal, but they're a shock considering how okay I have been up until now.
I got sick...
1 more sleep!
The bad news is, we had to have our kitten put to sleep yesterday morning which has really given me an emotional knock. My cold is gone, I just have a chesty cough that the anaesthetist might not be too keen on. I just need to get a good night's sleep tonight and know that I have the best chance of recovery if I relax.
Bye bye bras!
I AM SO EXCITED!
I made it!
Came home from hospital about 8.30pm, got some McDonald's on the way home and came to bed.
I'm bandaged up because when I went to the bathroom in hospital I bled a fair but but nothing since. I love them! 300g removed from each side, no idea what size I might be but I don't really care because 1) they're smaller 2) they look great and 3) nothing I can do about it now!
So far the itch is definitely the worst part and it's almost the entire length of the bottom incisions. I just lightly tap the itchy bit with my finger and it seems to do the trick.
I have zero regrets. I feel amazing, I can go without pain medication (though I will take something when I remember, just so it doesn't get really bad really fast) and for the first time in I don't know how long, it isn't uncomfortable to be without a bra!
I am window-shopping online, it feels amazing to know that now I will fit into the clothes I want, and if they don't fit they just don't fit my body, and that's that. My body has been through enough now, and I shall love it unconditionally
I'm looking forward to them dropping a little, at the moment they're very up-and-out like Barbie's breasts!
My surgeon expressed his delight at being able to perform the procedure with only a very short horizontal scar, and after having a look this morning I can see what he means. the scar is only about 13cm long which I am very pleased about.
I had my first shower last night and wish I hadn't, I should have sticked to bathing which I have been doing since Day 1, I am fortunate that I have full arm movement and there has been nothing that I can't do for myself though my partner tells me off if I do too much i.e. try to pick the pizza up off the bench at the pizza store.
I am allowed to get my tape wet as long as I blow dry it, so I had a gentle shower but I freaked out a little when I saw blood but it was just blood washing out of my tape, so now it looks even worse than it did before my shower!
I have my follow up on Thursday, so 8 days after surgery, and I'm not sure if my staples will come out then or not. I'm not bothered either way. I will probably go back to work on Wednesday as I am leaving my job on July 19th and I have a lot of work to get done before then!
Just uploaded a picture of a sports bra that I bought months ago in anticipation of this, tried it on at the time and laughed at all the bulges out the sides! Now it fits perfectly and while it is FAR too compressing for me at this point it will be fab for working out in when the time comes :)
I will be going back to work tomorrow, I went out shopping today so I figure if I can do that, then I can go to work!
1 week post-op
The good news is I CAN ITCH MYSELF NOW! My poor skin is taking a bit of a hammering from being under the tape and now being scratched, so I will use a gentle pH balanced moisturiser tonight and hopefully that will sooth a little.
Surgeon was pleased with my healing, and my all round lack of pain, and impressed that I had gone back to work so no hassles with me over-doing myself.
Oh, so here's what I actually came on here to post - my surgeon's invoice isn't ready yet, but it was quoted at $3500 so won't be any more than that. So assuming that it is exactly that amount, my surgery comes to a total of... wait for it.. $7200! (NZD). That means I only have to pay $2200 and insurance pays the rest! I budgeted $4500 so I am really thrilled, and cried a little because I was so excited.
So here is something I'm sure all you post-op ladies can relate to. I went shopping today, and tried some clothes on not to buy but just so I would be happy that they fit! And it did, it was a flowy little black chiffon dress for work, and it looked amazing. I was really thrilled! DIdn't get it, because I'm silly like that, I just want to shop around and see what other styles suit me first and possibly do some shopping on ASOS.com
Tried on a 10D non-underwire bra and while one fit, and one didn't, I didn't like the way it looked - it flattened out my boobs! Which will be great for those dresses where I want to look tiny but at the same time I am excited to join all those millions of women who go out shopping for push-up bras on a regular occasion! Bring on the 6 week mark and some proper bra shopping :)
Today I window shopped for bras, I don't know why I torture myself. I really feel like I cold NEVER fit into a 10D (I have to remind myself that I did, when i tried one on the other day) and am having that TYPICAL post-op craziness of THEY'RE NOT SMALL ENOUGH! Which, of course, they are, you've all seen the photos. They're amazing.
However, I am hoping they just get about 1/2 a size smaller in coming weeks. Did you all experience shrinkage afterwards, or did your surgeon advise that they will get smaller? Would really love some feedback. My surgeon said I'l still a bit swollen so presumably will get a bit smaller. Also, about 1.5-2 inches around my incisions is REALLY hard so I am looking forward to that softening. If it is hard, is that swelling?
Of course I'll ask my surgeon when I see him again on Friday. Can't wait!
Something MAJOR that I forgot to add is that my partner really loves them. I am thrilled!
2 weeks post-op
All part of healing!
3 weeks post-op
So I did some (more) online shopping and am really pleased with how everything is fitting, I still have a large breasts for my size which suits me perfectly, I just feel like now I am more enviable rather than people thinking "WHOA, GINORMOUS!" or something similar.
Tonight I removed my tape and was pleased that the majority of the stitches came off with the tape, then picked a few more stitches off and took a photo or two. The incisions aren't as red as the flash made them appear, but then after I had a shower and gently cleaned them the hot water made them REALLY red. So now I'm just letting them get some fresh air before I tape them back up again.
They have already started to drop, which feels really natural, I love the way they feel. Righty had an internal bleed which is the reason it is SO hard, even still, so in a few more days I will start massaging them. Does anyone have any recommendations for this? The internal bleed explains the intense yellow bruising I noticed even though I KNEW I hadn't been externally bruised.
All the incision junctions have healed which I am stoked about, and the bottom incision is completely closed. My poor skin has taken a real hammering, it's all flaky and dry but I don't want to moisturise it just yet as I read another review where someone moisturised and it softened up the incisions too much and they went a bit yuk. So I better wait another week, maybe two.
Still no idea of size.. I tried on an old 34DD bra tonight just to test whether I felt like my ribcage was swollen more than anything and I have ascertained that yes, it is. But the 34DD is miles too big which is GREAT! I don't even want to be a 34D, just a 32D/34C.
One of the dresses I bought online is a very firm fit and I can JUST zip it up, and even then it gives me uni-boob (a term I use to describe that unattractive bulge you get at the chest where you can't actually see defined breasts) so I'm hoping there's a bit of swelling there that will go away so the dress fits! Surgeon thought there was still some swelling to go away and some women have reported sizing changes up until 6 months so I'm just being patient (but I really wanna wear that dress!!!)
OH! And lastly, tonight I bought a bikini. Not a huge deal, really, but this bikini CAME STRAIGHT OFF THE RACK! In the same size, top and bottom, not an underwire bra-style bikini bought online from the UK. I was so happy, I almost cried, and it was down from $110 to $35! Simple pleasures.
5 weeks post-op
Righty is gradually getting smaller and dropping as the haematoma shrinks/dissolves so I'm not worried about it at all. I went and tried on bras and I am DEFINITELY a larger size than I would have liked to be, but wouldn't change them for anything. I have still had a few emotional moments when some clothes don't fit as well as I would like but everyone has that, regardless or shape or size, because life isn't perfect!!
I can't wear underwire for another week because apparently week 6 is when the body does a huge amount of healing and I am warned that though the scars look flat and pale right now, in another week they could be raised, red and angry looking and its nothing to be concerned about. I'm glad he told me that! However I am wearing underwire right now and wore one last night when I went out to dinner just to see how it feels. I've also removed the tape from around my nipples because I'm not worried about that scarring (as it'll barely be noticeable anyway because of the colour difference of my nipple vs my skin) but left the tape on the vertical and horizontal incisions.
Not much else to say!
Pre-op, when I ran, I felt like what was stopping me was my fitness. I now realise that what was stopping me was a terrible combination of embarrassment, chest pain and fitness. I can now get on a treadmill and run, and while my lungs may be burning I am not puffing, sweating or dying of embarrassment. This is the way forward, ladies, being able to run without risking giving myself a black eye! Hooray!
6 weeks post-op
righty is still higher than lefty because of the haematoma which prevented it dropping as quickly. Scarring is red, but not inflamed (though it looks it) I just have such a pale skin tone, scarring always looks really nasty on me for a wee while. Usually purple in fact so I think red is better.
Not taping my nipples anymore, the right nipple is a bit lop-sided and puckered which I'm sure will even out. They are both a bit... I can't remember the word the surgeon used... pudgy, I guess I would say, and it was embarrassing at the gym because my top was clingy and you could see my nipples through my top and my bra!! Oh no!!! So I'm looking forward to them settling down a bit.
I can feel everything, I have no pain, I am back to normal! But am aware that my body probably still has some healing to do so I'm not judging my poor lopsided boobies and puckered nipple just yet ;)
How quickly we forget
I am so much happier now, more confident, dressing my age, dressing the way I want to not the way my boobs allow me too. My confidence shows, my partner has noticed, I stand up tall, wear high heels without fear of thrusting my bust into someone's face.
I am aware that I am probably still of a size that I will attract attention, especially if I wear something tight, and many other (smaller) women will consider me large busted but you know what? I DON'T CARE! They are perky, lifted, the nipples don't point to the floor, I can go bra-less.... Gosh, all the things I didn't realise I needed so bad to make me a happier person in day to day life! I love my new boobies, and I seriously am having trouble not telling the world I WAS A G CUP, AND NOW I'M A D! WOOHOO!
Hope everyone else is as happy :)
3 months already!
I am definitely a bit lop-sided still, but firstly I want to say that it doesn't bother me in the slightest. but also, in another 3 months, they might have settled even more. even though my healing has been so easy, I think I overlook certain healing facts, like the fact I might still be healing, adjusting and changing.
I have all feeling, though in some places less than others. My horizontal scar on righty, on the outer side, get's itchy if I am exercising from the underwire rubbing. My scars are very purple, but I expected that as I scar easily and I think after 12 months they will be very different.
My nipples are still pudgy, but it doesn't bother me. I don't really intend to go braless in public, and at least now I can wear those funny little stick on bras without a care in the world if I need to!
I haven't seen my surgeon, as I haven't needed to. I considered emailing him about recommendations for scarring and then I thought hey, why waste his time. We all know that time is of the essence, and I could probably get some cocoa butter or vitamin E cream which will aid with scarring but it's very low on my priority list right now!
Exercising is very easy, I enjoy working out, I enjoy seeing myself in the mirror both clothed and unclothed. In fact, alot of time I prefer looking at myself unclothed, as it really alerts me to the changes I have been through. My body looks proportioned, and I like to see it!
It is odd to me that none of my new workmates (I'm not sure if I mentioned that I started a new job 2 weeks post-op...) know about my surgery. When i had interviews, pre-op, I was very careful to not draw attention to the girls because I knew then that it would be somewhat apparent when I actually started. Strangely, the topic of breast surgery and particularly reductions has come up at work and I do my best to seem knowledgeable (and justified by having worked in health insurance) but not TOO knowledgeable. I haven't told anyone at work, though I have not kept it at secret at all. In saying that, my in-laws still don't know and probably won't ever.
Sleeping is alot more comfortable, I don't have to sleep in a bra, can wear cute nighties and lingerie, and my breasts don't flop over to the side. it's brilliant. I can get changed at the gym infront of other ladies and I don't want to cry with shame.
I stand tall, I don't pull my blazer tight across my chest, I wear heels with pride and don't feel like I'm promoting the girls.
I can't count the ways in which I am happier. I'm sure it's obvious to my partner, though we don't talk about it. Last time we spoke, he was happy with how happy I was, happy with how much more confident I am and happy that it hasn't made me more shallow in other ways, presumably!
I might take an updated photo in coming days, though i doubt much has changed... Can't be sure though, unless i compare photos!
5 months update
However, sometimes when I try on clothes I am still disappointed by how they fit. But no one is perfect, and most women dislike something about themselves, and no one fits all clothes perfectly so I'm willing to accept it!
Here are a few pics of the girls almost 5 months post-op. Scarring is good, soft, definitely fading quickly. The girls are the same size, but just slightly different in positioning that doesn't bother me at all.
So it's been 11 months since my surgery, how time flies!
Bra shopping is still.. a mission. i won't say depressing, because no matter how unsuccessful I still don't leave the store in tears like I did pre-op. I can try on 8 bras and only fit 1, and I am a 12D or 10DD but sometimes even they are too small. If they are, it's because it's a stupid brand that runs smaller than usual so I just ignore it.
I am more open with people now about my surgery, it's easier to tell people who did not know me pre-op, like my workmates, since I started my current job two weeks post-op. They don't know what I looked like before so it doesn't phase them, even the boys!
Sometimes I find I have to tell people, because I am 25 and I am dressing my age, or even younger, because I have never been able to! So it's easier to say to people "I had my boobs done, and I am bloody making the most of it!".
I got married in April and in 90% of the photos I love my shape, but I have to admit there are a few that make me wish I had gone smaller. But that's life!
The other day I bought a lot of dresses online from tobi.com for a big work conference in the USA and I was showing my workmate, who knows about my surgery. He says "Yeah, you're not going to be able to wear that, your boobs are too big". And that was a trigger. He knows how I feel about them, and the back story, and has thus far been really understanding. I was like ya know what, if I had tiny boobs you wouldn't say "You can't wear that, your boobs are too small". If I was overweight, you wouldn't say "You're too fat to wear that"... so what gives you the right to make that comment about my body!?!?!
So yes, I am still a little bit sensitive about having big boobs I guess. But people don't stare any more, unless I'm wearing a dress that shows them off. Attached a couple of pictures of dresses I have worn this year for special occasions, with no bra. One dress was for my hens night and one for a big work party. Also attached pictures of my wedding day- was going to go braless but ended up wearing a strapless bra at the dressmakers recommendation- WOW! Who'd have thought!? It was comfortable enough, didn't slip down, and more importantly, I was able to find one in my size!
What An amazing surgeon, he did a great job in such a short surgery and really made me feel relaxed and confident with my choice