BBL by Schulman. New York, NY

Hey guys....this process has been super emotional for me. I go from loving my butt to hating it every other day. Idk if anybody else has ever dealt with this but I think it's too big! I'm afraid it won't go down and I definitely didn't want a stripper booty so now I'm freaking out! I've lost almost all of my water weight that I gained after the surgery so I'm super worried that this is my final size...it doesn't look natural at all. I feel like a whiner because so many ladies on here wished they were bigger. Aye dios...I'm freaking out.

I'll take some better pictures this weekend to show my progress

As I believe is normal I began having second thoughts right before my surgery date. Like why am I doing this? Is my ass really that bad? Am I crazy? Yea all those questions plus more. I resolved my nerves by just psyching myself up to finish everything that I start.
My surgery was scheduled for 730am I got there at 7am. The nurse was super nice and did her best to make me feel comfortable. She explained my mess and started me on an if antibiotic. I then met the anesthesiologist and then dr Schulman came in to do his drawings on me. Then boom I'm in the OR and I'm knocked out. I woke up on my back in immense pain and delusional and shaking like a crackhead. The nurse was right by my side . I asked her to turn me over because I guess I figured that would b less painful lol...not. She gave me crackers and juice as is procedure. I mean the shaking was crazy and I was getting nervous about that. She said its normal and it's the anesthesia leaving my body. I was like I need to get out of here I can't just lay here shaking and in pain so I asked to leave. The nurse got me dressed and walked me out to the waiting area...I was clearly not ready because I immediately felt nauseous and needed to throw up. She walked me to the bathroom and I threw up which made me feel better. I called and uber and my mom and I left.
I laid on my stomach in the back of the cab for the 20min ride home which was horrible. I was in so much pain and the nurse said I couldn't take an oxy til I got home because it would make me delirious. I got home took my dress off and popped an oxy....laid there in pain for 45 mins and nothing took another one waited 30mins and nothing I took a third one and finally I felt some relief. My hips were on fire I was so upset at myself for doing this. Le sigh.
Also one of my incisions drained heavily that day...like running down my leg I got scared and called dr Schulman he let me know that it was normal which calmed me down a bit and it stopped by day 2. That night I woke up every hour on the dot to pee...getting out of bed was a feat and I woke my mom up every hour to help me to the bathroom. This happened for the first 3 days post surgery. Again I questioned why I did this to myself. Thank god for the female urinal tho ????????

Then there was day 5...I finally get to take this damn garment off and take a shower. My entire upper body is numb but that shower felt amazing. Then it was time to put the garment back on. By the time o got it back on and zipped up I felt just as bad as I did the day before. That joint is tightttt.
Day 6 was my first bowel movement. I took my garment off and I had to sit on the toilet...hovering and squatting was not working for me so I put my hands on the toilet seat in front of me and say which took some of the pressure off my butt. The energy I exerted to get that bad boy out was draining lol...I came out of that bathroom sweating but I was relieved to finally do it.