Revision Rhinoplasty - Fleming Island, FL
August of 2012 I had a rhinoplasty that looked...
I love the simulation and I can't wait to get rid of this awkward nose.
Unsure, untrusting & indecisive.
I like the doctor I've seen so far a lot. And I don't necessarily doubt his capabilities ....but I'm having major issues with this surgery idea. I know my nose needs to be dealt with and the only way it will change is through another operation. But I am very untrusting due to my first experience. The doctor I'm considering now is definitely more qualified and a better surgeon than my first. However, that doesn't mean this will turn out to be a great surgery/nose. What if it looks even worse the second time? What then? More pain and suffering and an outrageous healing process (1 year or more), another loss of thousands of dollars, and now a worse nose? Sounds like a shitty time to me. I would not be able to pay for or go through a third surgery either. So is it worth it to possibly have another bad experience? What if my nose collapses and I can no longer even breathe decently? Revision surgery is even harder than primary rhino and rhinoplasty is the hardest cosmetic surgery of all. The morph pictures look good but that's never a promise.
I am wishing over and over again that I had just gone to this surgeon for my primary and not made the mistake of picking Dr. Schalit (1st guy). Then I wouldn't be in this mess. But wishing does nothing and you can't turn back time so why bother wasting energy on it? I need to focus my energy into decision making for the future instead of agonizing over things I can't change.
Also this surgery would be planned at a changing point in my life. It might be too much at once. I would be changing from a state college to a university, I would be moving in with my dad because he got a house closer to my new school, and my fiance is also moving out and into his friends house or getting his own apartment (he has been living with me). I would consider getting my nose done NEXT winter break instead of this one....but then again I hate this nose and do I really want to live with it an entire extra year? No...and waiting a year won't mean my surgery will turn out perfect or that anything will go better. But I am a difficult person when it comes to huge changes all at once. Change is ok...but I do better in smaller increments. I mean for god's sake I cut 3.5 inches off my hair recently, put layers in it, and am going blonde and I was in a state of shock the first day because it was a huge change. Now, a week later, I love it. But still, that gives me an insight as to what I might be feeling if I do too many things at once....I don't want to have a huge break down.
I'm just wondering if I should even bother fixing it...I'm just so afraid of the possibility of a bad outcome. And I feel incredibly selfish even thinking of having a rhinoplasty. It just sounds ridiculous. There are people who can't feed themselves yet I'm about to spend a lot of money on my "looks". For a second time.