Putting All my Hope in Dr Pontell - Media, PA
Well - I have suffered almost an entire year since...
I have taken the leap - and booked my revision surgery with Dr. Pontell for March 4th. It is coming so close and as the day approaches I am filled with mixed emotions. I get surges of hope and excitement and then overwhelming flashbacks of the horrors from my initial surgery. It is definitely scary - but I want so badly to get back to my life and feel confident again - I want to put last year behind me and move forward and enjoy life! I've been such a recluse this past year.
I first met with Pontell in November. He seemed really nice and I liked the simulations we did. I then met with another doctor and also scheduled and cancelled consults with other doctors over the months - I was lucky to have friends here on realself also consulting and sharing their experiences with me about certain doctors and so was able to have even more insight and info. I met with one particular doctor several times and was leaning towards him - but I just had a nagging feeling that he would be too aggressive. He didn't really do simulations very well which I understand doesn't really mean anything as far as his actual surgical skills but the things he kept saying about what he would recommend doing didn't make sense to me. He was going to use rib for sure to rebuild my nose and that freaked me out a bit. But the main thing was - I just didn't feel he was the right fit. I felt I wanted to meet with Pontell again - I did like him when I first consulted with him and also I was impressed with the positive results that others have posted here on realself.
My second consult in January with Pontell went well. He was able to show me photos of people who had similar issues as mine and what he was able to accomplish was really amazing. He said he wouldn't use rib, but would likely use ear cartilage. (In fact he told me that using rib would have been crazy.)
I have a pre-op appointment on Feb 6th. I want to bring photos of noses I definitely don't like to show him just in case - and also want to just review again what I want and make sure we are on the same page. I only have this chance to make things right and that's a lot of pressure and stress! ugh!
I am mustering the courage to post a few pix - stay tuned. I will likely post them and not keep them up long. But, if my nose turns out really great I will definitely post tons of happy pix!
Only 33 days away now!!!! Yikes and yay!
Had my Pre-op appointment yesterday
I am excited - almost euphoric at moments yet, also on edge. I know first hand how devastating it is when things don't go well and it makes the risk feel even more monumental. I have a good feeling about it this time though - something that was lacking last time so - I am taking comfort in that.
Anyway - this time I have a much better idea of what to expect after the surgery. I know I will likely be very nauseated and will want ginger ale and crackers once I can eat.
Here's my basic list of necessities immediately post op day one and two.
juice - probably something with pineapple in it
lip balm (my lips get so dry from mouth breathing)
stool softener (don't learn this the hard way - no pun intended hahaha)
pre-moistened facial cleansing cloths
big head rest pillow with arms and a contoured travel pillow for my neck
My next steps are getting my blood work done and PAYING. Gaaah!! So crazy to be spending such a huge chunk of change again but it must be done. Last time I had all the money upfront and this time I am having to finance it and pay off over time. I guess I am just grateful that my revision isn't as expensive as my first surgery (I am still processing and mourning the loss of all that hard earned money my first surgeon gouged me for.)
OK now I am rambling hahaha long story short: EXCITED SCARED HAPPY NERVOUS :)
thanks for all your support guys!!!!
Single Digits!!! Is this really happening? :)
I do have a good feeling about this and want to just stay positive - most times I am positive that things will be great. And so I try to focus on that. I believe Dr. Pontell will do a fabulous job!
I am so fortunate and blessed - and I have learned and grown so much this past year. I have to believe it has all been a necessary "mistake" that has made me even stronger.
Anyway, my blood work is done. Everyone is paid. Now all I have to do is gather my supplies and pick up my meds and then surgery. :) only 8 more dayzzzzzzz!!!!!!!!! :)
Tomorrow is the day!!!!
Oh, here's something that happened on Friday. The surgery center called me and we were going over all the necessary details and then towards the end of the conversation the lady told me that I needed to have an EKG. That came as a surprise for several reasons (one being that I just had a surgery on my shoulder in December and didn't need a pre-op EKG) but either way they said it had to be done (I guess I am officially an old lady now that I just turned 40 - yikes!). Luckily they called me Friday instead of today to tell me this. Anyway so I rushed around and thankfully it went pretty smoothly and it is all taken care of now. Dr. Pontell's patient coordinator Kay was on the ball and really helped by getting the script for the EKG faxed over to the hospital very quickly.
Anyway, I am glad we didn't get as much snow as they were expecting today. That will make our drive less stressful.
I will post again soon.. thanks to you all for your well wishes and support!!!!