40 Yr Old Divorced Mother of 2 Committing to a Better Self -Manhattan, NY
For years I have been desiring bigger breasts. I...
My stats and query
Desiring a full C
I have been reading about pre op vitamins to speed up recovery. Is there such a thing? A speedy recovery?
I know my PS told me I can have my surgery on a Thursday and return to work on Monday...however, I am taking off a week from work after surgery to ensure proper healing and get used to them. Has anyone been able to return to work a few days after surgery? And has anyone taken or heard of the "pre op vitamins?" For example I.B. Secret or VitaMedica Plastic Surgery Pre & Post Op?
Dense breast tissue
Anyhoo, my question is...what in bloody hell does dense breast tissue mean? Do any of you know? Hate to sound this ignorant at my age.
What caught me by surprise was that I never thought I'd go thru such a powerful emotional ride. I tell you that I spontaneously woke up one morning in January and decided IT IS MY TIME, NO EXCUSES!
The 1st thing I thought was to take care of me. Yes, I focused on everyone in my life and neglected myself emotionally, physically, mentally and spiritually. Did my best to help and make everyone's life easier in their chaos while betraying myself and creating turmoil in my life. Unfortunately, I learned this as a very young child. I will not bore you w my story.
After that evening when I openly described without any reservations to my PS and my daughters what I wanted and why I wanted this surgery, I've been on an emotional train ride, tapping inside myself connecting with my "REAL SELF" and committing to it wholeheartedly allowing myself to be exactly who I am. Hmmm...matching my outside with my inside. No, I have never let anyone in -
Since then, I've dropped this heavy bag I've carried for so long (I carried other ppl's bags as well) setting myself free.
I have two beautiful daughters (21 & 12) full of inner confidence, self love & lovable. They are so happy, creative and inspired.I don't know how I did it, living in that self destructive inner pain. What I wanted and gave to them was what I've always wanted for me and now know I can give to me.
Well, needless to say, what I thought was just an outside renovation stirred me to my own inner major transformation.
Thank you my lovely goddesses!
10 more sleeps
Work has kept me ridiculously occupied! I am a one man show in my department...ugh! I have to do everything from actively engaging to just simply remaining still, just listening...gosh I think I love these fools!
I have to clean my apartment, it is not filthy BUT it needs a nice scrub. Specially after the call I received a few minutes ago from my Mum. "I'm flying in on Sunday and decided to stay w u for 10 days to care for u" WAIT A MINUTE...whhaatt!!?? Don't get me wrong, I love my mum! Aarrggh I must confess I fear her as she is my biggest critic!! The things she says, no filter. The way her eyes give the "I am disappointed/I do not approve" stare and the "pff!" rolling of her eyes. Sometimes she doesn't even look at u or says one word. U just know. Omg I'm 40 yrs old wth? I'm breathing in & out slowly on the A train as I digest this news, my mum in town, with me, in my small NY apartment for TEN days. TeN DaYs!
I will take a pix of my weary boobs this weekend after I wax. Yes, no I haven't waxed in a month. (TMI?) I'm leaving it for this weekend b4 the surgery. Trust me I don't like it, BUT thankfully it is still cold in NYC - still wear long sleeve shirts w blazers for work. Sweaters on the weekends (my little one asked me to "sort out that situation"under my arms) lol
Taking my vitamins & will start juicing (carrots, beets, pineapple) in the mornings only, fasting...for three days on then off three days then three days on then off on surgery day then three days on after surgery. To detox my liver. Anesthesia does a number on me. When I was going for my c-section 12 years ago, my doc told me to detox my liver that way.
Hmm what else? Oh, going to my pre-op appt on Wednesday after work. Concerned about a cough I've had for two days. Not sure if allergies or just a cough. I get horrible allergies! Really bad...I still don't really know how many cc's. I try not to compare myself to anyone bc I learned cc's work different on everyone. Playing w the rice sizers at home I like the 400cc's look - it is almost like the make believe boobs I sport now
I don't post comments on many reviews anymore bc my daughters told me I was a bit "freakish" BuuuT I sly my way in to I follow so many of you! Always want to know how u r doing, what's happening w the tattas, r u happy, how u progress. I wish it was like Pinterest, I could pin U :-D
Thanks for all your supportive comments!! You ladies ROCK - I don't feel alone in my journey. Thank you again...
Be well lovelies...
God willing, I'll update u Thursday after surgery. I have to be in at 7:15a! I'm excited and very nervous at the same time. Very anxious :-/
I'm an legal citizen of boobiland :-D 350cc silicone. mod +
Oh ladies I am so genuinely greatful for all of u, for all your shared experiences,it was so good to have a very close idea as to what to expect! Nothing like women supporting each other. Thanks!!! My daughters & my mum are taking very good care of me. Lots of pressure at the moment. Keeping up w my pain meds, hydrating & will start icing soon.
I like my size so far, I'm sure they will F&D in due time...I'll be patiently waiting :-)
Hoping all of u r doing well
Oh nipples, jeezzz so sensitive....
Have an entire day scheduled w my 12 year old, hair, nails, pedicure, facial. I told work I was on vacation and right now I look like like I just got back from the valley of death! My little one goes back to skl Monday...she was a great nurse along w my oldest and my Mum. Mum flew back home last evening. She actually behaved!!! She didn't feel too much like a stranger + she complimented how my daughters and I love each other and said "you've done well"...you see, I have siblings and we haven't spoken in years. My Mum & I speak every so often during the year & both her & one of my sisters come to NYC to shop...we r very different! I fight hard to deep root sisterhood, acceptance, respect, forgiveness, compassion and tolerance in my girls...
Aaaanyhoo...you all know more about me than the ppl i've worked w for more than 10 years! I thank you everyday!!
Ok so i'll update everyweek for now...to show u how these babies start dropping.
14 Days Post-Op
4 weeks yesterday! Wow
Still riding high, square boobs, sensitive and low nipples...ugh! I feel my muscles throbbing @ times??? I don't know what else to call it ;-) I don't think I've started to drop. There is too much upper fullness, I want the lower pole fullness and my nipples to be centered already! I've learned this is when lots of patience must come in and I must allow my pec muscles to do what they need to do with their new 350cc alien silicone friends.
Last week was my 3rd week post, she said my incisions are too dark and ordered a scar cream compounded "specially" for me from some pharmacy in Florida. I've been discharged until August and given the green light to wear any bra I want. She doesn't believe in massages. I still don't love my new boobies yet I am happy with my decision to have this surgery. It has been transforming! An undeniable work in progress in and out...LITERALLY! I've been up and I've been DooOowwwwN. No regrets. I was emotional the past two weeks. After reading redglory's experiencing the same, I'll embrace the changes within and just be there for me, as I now understand this is how my body is coping to surgery and the implants.
One thing that makes me grin, is the thought of not having to use the bra inserts this summer...wooohooo!!! YES!!! THANNNK YOUUUU GOD! There were times I had been so worried the inserts would come out of place and will show by the sides if I was wearing a tank top or a dress in the summer or that they'd fall out of my bra. Once, many years ago, at a friend's bday party, one fell on the floor while I was dancing, I kicked it far and someone shouted "someone lost a breast!" I knew I'd been the one yet I laughed w the rest of the crowd "ha hahhaha" and continued dancing...jeez. So grateful I know for sure it will not happen again.
Can't say enough about Doctor Giese. She is down to earth and interested in how I wanted to look. Attentive and communicated with me. I trusted her. And her staff, a group of females showing genuine concern about making women fell and look good! It all started a call to body cosmetica, met Trina (an angel) who highly recommended one of her PS when I told her I wasn't looking for attention, wanted to my breast to look like they were meant to look...then met Christine, the Patient Coordinator, a doll! Then my artist, Doctor Giese...ha! Took her time with me, never rushed me, was never late, answered all my questions...I trusted her! Wait, can't forget Melanie, the Surgical Coordinator, drove her insane and she always greeted me as if I was the only nut she dealt with, smiling and welcoming. The nurses and anesthesiologist, also fascinating! Brilliant group of women sculpting the beauty hidden under!