I have a preforated septum with a hole too large...
Everyday is better - finally.
Scalp: The worst right now. It hurts and pulls in my temple when I open my mouth. The initial scab has mostly flaked off, but the red area is tender, raised and lumpy and for about 2 inches around it feels bruised.
Nose: Though I know it's still a little swollen, particularly on one side, I have to point it out to anyone else. My pores are horribly clogged, but it's still a "no touch", so I wash it gently, apply masque and "rinse" with a soft paintbrush. Rinsing takes forever, but I bumped it slightly bringing water up, so paintbrush it is. I still keep my glasses tied up off my nose. It is tender to touch and sometimes when my face is animated I can feel it move, but I can't help that. It runs a lot and the mucus stretches like thin rubber cement, so I go through a lot of tissue gently dabbing wishing I could blow for Pete's sake! I've trained myself to use saline when it itches or feels tight or I feel like touching. I'm wondering if I can be addicted to saline rinse. It's really bothering me that my nostrils are asymmetrical and a completely different shape than my real ones. I keep telling myself that 18 days isn't enough time to judge, but asymmetry is not something I will settle for if it doesn't resolve itself. At this point it's easy to forget that I had this done - the routines and rules are my new normal. I have to remind myself that I'm still healing, to slow down, get some rest and say no to climbing Mt. Everest.
"Better" is relative and it's not all pretty.
My scalp got really, really irritated when I went back to school 2 weeks ago - probably because I was brushing my hair. :) I tried to introduce painkilling Neosporin as a new hair gel. It didn't work so I had goopy hair. It itches once in awhile and is ugly!!!!, but what can I do?
Rib scar is looking good, but for as good as it looks it can still be sensitive. Today was hot and humid and after PE class, it hurt for 2 - 3 hours. I was surprised!
Because I had so little cartilage in my nose, it was pretty flimsy and "light", so it's very strange to have a hard nose. It feels heavy and doesn't seem like it's part of me, as if someone put a hard blob where my nose used to be. It's very strange.
Of course it looks 90% the same and I am the only one who sees the 10%. But I do! My nostrils are skinny and one is more skinny, and getting skinnier, than the other. When I move my nose when I talk, the skin between my nostrils turns white. Someone else actually noticed this!! Aaah!
I keep telling myself "still healing, still healing".
Right under the skin (septum?) between my nostrils there is a hard bony extension (projection?) towards my lips. Can anyone else see it? No. It hurt when I touched so I don't touch. but my nose ended at my nostrils before and it's bugging me that part of it, albeit tiny, goes beyond.
Here's the bad part. When I smile I get an obvious crease between my upper lip and my nose. It mirrors my smile and erases my upper lip - which was thin to begin with. I've tried tiny smiles - still there. I've tried barely turning the corners of my mouth up - not easy, my smile muscles shake, but the crease is still there. I've stopped smiling in photos. In my birthday party pictures I look like a mug shot. I can't help spontaneous smiles, but I'm self conscious about smiling at cute strangers. First my mouth is shaking because I'm trying to barely smile and second I have a crease like Jack Nicholson as The Joker's smile above my mouth. Maybe that's an exaggeration, but it's how I feel. I know my doctor will see me, but what will I do if he tells me that the crease will be there for the rest of my life?
I'm going to keep reminding myself "still healing, still healing" and hope it's just a bump/crease in the road.
Hair loss no myth
I cannot gush more. Ridiculously accredited, confident without conceit, calm demeanor in face of semi-hysterical patient (me), answered lists and 3 page emails of questions about everything from hair loss to nostril size in millimeters, a couple of forgivable issues with office staff, but quickly cleared up with appropriate explanations.