Laser Hair Removal Disaster

I'm male 29yrs old and fairly good looking.

Once upon a time, My arms were very hairy (thick black) which I was actually proud of but what bothered me was that my hands and my fingers were extremely hairy too. People would stare at my hands all the time. My skin color is somewhere between white and brown but my hands looked black due to my hairy issue. I used to be very uncomfortable and very self conscious about it. I always tried to 'hide' my hands. And I always said to myself that how nice it would be if my hands were not this much hairy.

Then I decided to do something about it. The waxing never ever clicked my mind and you have no idea how much I kick my ass over this now! The reason I picked Laser Hair Removal because I had experience with it! Yes I had done it before on my cheeks. But this was in another country though and the 'technician' was actually a doctor. My cheeks had a lot of long hair all the way upto my eyes. That laser hair removal worked wonders. I did 5 treatments and now I have nice 'clean' smooth cheeks. This is why I thought laser is the way to go.

Now dont get me wrong I did not want to kill the hair on my hands but just reduction beacuse I HATE the hairless look. Anyhow I decided that I would go with laser, I decided to do full arms and full hands becuase otherwise it was going to look very very bad if I only did my hands. OK that ideas wasn't too bad but wait...then out of my freaking mind, I decided to do the same with my chest and stomach too becasue I wanted to look the 'same' and then I also ended up including my legs too.

So I decided with my full arms, chest/stomach, and legs because I wanted my whole body to look the same otherwise I was going to be more self conscious. long story short, I picked this one laser place in my city, they just 'assured' me that I would only get reduction and not destruction. I clearly told them I do not like hairless look and they again assured me that I was a perfect candidate for hair reduction.

I did 3 treatments over 1 year period and it cost me $3k. I stopped after that because I could see that I had ruined myself. 3 years after, I'm now patchy all over my arms, hands, chest, stomach, and legs and it's the worst thing that ever happened to me. My arms look so ridiculous that its not even funny. On some areas, hair are gone for good and on other areas, hair are coming back LONGER, thicker, twisted, and uglier than before. Hair on hands have been destroyed pretty good but my fingers are still as hairy as before. Imagine how bad that looks?

I have to even look at my t-shirts, let alone wear them. Now people look at my arms and hands more than ever. I had no hair on my upper arms and now I get long thick hair there. My legs hair are way LONGER, thicker, and patchy and look awefully ugly. Now I have been axing my arms/hands and chest/stomach to mask this problem. It has destroyed my confidence.

There is not a second of life I dont think about it. My social life has become a joke now. I'm so depressed over this that I can't explain and it's mostly becsuse I regret my decision so much. I wanted to be 'care-less' about my hair issue and now I have to think about it every second. I have to wear long sleeve in summer all the time because my arms are so very patchy, and ugly. My soul has destryoed. I literally dont go out anymore. I hate to look at my body in the mirror. I dont even know what to say anymore.