Dear Ladies,I can't thank you all enough for all your stories. I have been following many of you since Sept 2012. This site has helped reasure me at times when I've felt really anxious.
My story... I started to grow quite early but underdeveloped during my teenage and early adult life. With family directly and indirectly saying awful things about small and flat chests, I no doubt developed a huge complex. I felt inadequete, inferior, and undesirable. I wanted to wear certain clothes but I felt I couldn't because I felt so flat. I think I was an A cup. I was never measured as I was too embarrassed. I got 290cc subglandular, high profile round implants in 2007 when I was 21, making me a C cup. Although I was happy with the size, I've never been happy with having implants in me. I would love real ones, ones that wobble.
In 2009, I approached the clinic who put them in, explaining I would like them removed. They really scared me saying how awful I'd look with sagging skin etc. On and off since then, I have bouts where I feel I can't cope with them in. So, in dec 2011, I said to my husband, after I finish breastfeeding our little boy, I would like to look into getting them removed. My hubby has been great, so supportive. Then came jan 2012 and I discover I have pip implants. The stress was immense. Thankfully, I had scans and all was ok. So, I finished breastfeeding jan 2013 after 16 months.
My first appt with consultant was last Tues 12th Feb and it was awful. He grabbed and pinched the skin around the nipple and said that's all I have and I will be very flat and if I can cope/live with that then fine. I didn't understand as I'm bigger than before pregnancy and according to nurse when I was getting implants in 2007, she said I had enough tissue there for them. He tried to get me to agree to more implants too. I said I would just like removal. He said well if you can deal with a smooth silhouette! It was all too quick my time with him. He said right then, a capsulectomy needed, drains in over night, here's the price, here's the date we can do, and here's the door! That's how I felt it went. I was only in ther 10-15mins! I thought, but I've had scans, I may not need a capsulectomy. It was all too quick. It felt so inhumane. I've managed to dust myself off. Its so hard at times having this hanging over me.
I've managed to book another consultant for 7 March. His profile looks good. He does reconstruction amongst many other things. Does work for the nhs and specialises in wounds and scar tissue. The hospital have been very nice so that's a good start and they had a price on record for a removal only (£2900) so it sounds like they do do removals. I will let you all know how I get on and hope all you ladies are all doing well.
I will post a photo soon. X