Hi & hello! My name is Jenna, I'm 24, 5'4 and 153...
I already went to a consultation that did NOT go well! The doctor never introduced himself, just popped his head in and told me to take my shirt off, briefly looked me over and told me to put my shirt back on and closed the door. When he came back in he showed me a piece of paper and said "This is how much you'll pay" and showed me two pictures, one of which I did not like the results. When I told him so, he just shrugged and asked if I had any questions. When I started asking him questions, like whether he thought my Crohn's would effect anything (7 diff medications, 22 pills a day), he shrugged and said I would get a packet before preop, asked if I had any more questions and when I said no, he said, "So do you want to pay now?". I have never left a doctors office so fast!!!! He left me feeling uncomfortable, not confident in my decision, and even kind of violated. It took me a few weeks - and a lot of story reading on this site! - to decide whether this was right for me or not, and I know now more than ever that I want to look like the woman I feel I am!!! A big thank you to all of those who have shared their stories!!
I have found another doctor closer to home that comes highly recommended and I like his work. I have an appointment on the 16th and I am so nervous that I will have a similar experience as last time that I am making a friend go with me!!! I am still deep-down excited and hopeful! I will, of course, keep you all updated!
Only you gals will get it!
One week until my appointment, I'm trying not to get too excited and get my hopes up, but seeing all of you girls beautiful results... well it's hard not to!!!
I'm not doing this because I have a bad selfbody image, I'm really quite happy with the rest of me, but I have never disliked my boobs as much as I do now... did anyone else feel this way after deciding to get a BA?
We agreed on 300cc to 325cc High Profile (due to being narrow) Silicone implants to bring me to the full C I desire. He said I am a great canidate for a BA and thinks I will have "beautiful results". Yay!!!!!!!
My measurements were:
From throat to nipple:
L - 21 inches
R - 21.5 inches
L - 13 inches
R - 13.5 inches
Crease to nipple:.
L - 7"
R - 7"
I am sooooooo happy and can't wait, I feel completely confident with my choice for PS and have set my surgery date for November 20th. The reason I went so far out is because I want to miss out on as little riding as possible. With Nov. 20th I figure I will naturally be riding less with the holidays and the colder weather. He said I will most likely be able to return to light riding within 4 to 5 weeks, which is perfect. I'm still going to have my trainer come out so he isn't just sitting, though!
I hope everyone who has recently had their surgeries are happy & well!
Anyway, when this comes up in conversation in a group with someone you are talking to and potentially interested in seeing, it does get a bit awkward... while I can understand a guy getting excited (it's BOOBS, I get it), and while no one has been vulgar, I don't want a guy to be interested purely for the curiosity of the "before and after". One guy even seems LESS interested knowing what I am doing! It's just an interesting position to be in and I am curious to see what you other ladies have experienced!
Saline vs Silicone
Pre-Op Appointment is set!
I have my trusty-dusty Bubba all ready to go, a very comfy, plush couch with pillows, a very "hands-on" boyfriend at the ready, and such an amazingly supportive group of friends and family. I have been a fast healer in the past and have always bounced back quickly from much more invasive and serious surgeries, so I'm really hoping it will be the same this time around - still nervous about Thanksgiving being only 8 days later. And honestly... I'm kind of looking forward to being a little constipated since (with having had over 7 ft. of intestine removed & Crohn's issues in general) I generally go about 10 times a day. TMI, I know, I'm sorry!!! But the thought of NOT having to go so often while I'm recovering is so relieving. I'm not going to want to go back to normal!
Just feeling so high and happy right now, I hope it lasts throughout! I'm sure once the date gets closer that nervousness will start to creep back in, but for right now I just want to live in my oh-so-happy booby thoughts. =)
Officially 1 Week Out!
We went over sizing and profile again and I himmed & hawed between 325cc and 350cc. They just don't look big enough now that I've looked at so many pictures of what other girls have gotten, but I know it will be very different once I live with them and they are a literal part of me. And I know that I really don't want to be that big or busty, I feel like I can always wear a push-up bra if I'm looking for a little extra "va-va-voom". I just want to feel more shapely and like my body is proportionate and I think 325cc gives me that, and my PS seems to be very confident in that decision as well. When I told him I was struggling with the decision, he just smiled and said he thinks 325cc will give me the results I'm looking for. But, really... 350cc isn't THAT much more... oh the dilemma! I will sleep on it and if I wake up in the morning still thinking 350cc I will call them and hopefully they won't have put the order through yet. What do you girls think that got a similar size??
Other than that the appointment was pretty typical. I will be the first surgery at 8 am next Wednesday. I'll arrive at 630, surgery should take about an hour and a half, will stay in recovery for an hour, then away to home I will go! I'll be all bandaged up until Saturday when I can then take it off and shower. He then instructed me to immediately go out and buy a few sports bras - any kind that I like as long as they are supportive, and wear them 24/7 for the next 6 weeks. I can sleep on my back or my side, just not on my tummy. I'm allowed to lift my arms over my head, and I can do light stretching, but nothing crazy. No lifting anything over 10lbs for 6 weeks, only light cardio for 6 weeks, and no sex for 4 weeks. 4 weeks seems like a long time to me, though... how long did you guys wait??
I just found out my boyfriend will be going up North for hunting that weekend, the weekend of the 22nd, so I'll only see him for a short time Wednesday night. I was pretty bummed about that, but it's not like I'll be doing anything real exciting anyway. And hopefully he'll get a nice buck. That should give me some quality time to relax and hang out with some friends.
Now that I've had the appointment and gone over everything I'm just ready for it to be here and to get this process started. Like, I wish it was tomorrow... and even though I know this weekend will fly by and I'll feel like it got here fast, I'm just plain ready!
Thanks for hanging in there with me, I know this was a long post!!
(Why do I feel so cool saying that? Lol.)
Day of Update!
So I got to the hospital at 630 this morning, checked in right away and went over to the surgery center. I only waited about 5 minutes before they took me back to my prep room. My nurses were so nice! Sweet and cheery and friendly. We were all chatting like old friends and they all told me how much they love Dr. Paresi which is so awesome to hear!
The anesthesiologist came in and talked with me for a bit before the main nurse and Doc came in to mark me up. He was very sweet and attentive and was telling me funny stories, it was such a lovely experience! About a minute after he left the nurses came back to take me to the surgery room! The bed was heated and I got a "warm vac" plugges in to my gown so I was sooooo toasty and comfortable! Before I knew it I was being woken up!
I wasn't in much pain at all, my left boob was definitely super tender and I was having trouble moving that arm. I came about pretty quickly and they got me set up in a heated chair with warm blankets which just made me sleepy again. They set me up with a few ice packs and gave me some pain meds through my IV after I ate, drank, and pottied. Once my pain went away they helped me get dressed and home I went around 1 o'clock!
The car ride was easy, didn't feel sick or anything. Got home, took care of my pups,took my oxycodone and muscle relaxer and settled in! I can do just about everything, including lift my arms over my head. I'm sore, but still no pain! I hope it stays this way!!!
I'm all wrapped up and can't really see how they're looking. I'm just watching some TV, waiting for my boyfriend to come home (who surprised me by going down to the barn and taking care of the horses so I would relax when I got home - soooo sweet!!) and about to eat a ham & cheesey and take some more meds!
Overall I am REALLY pleased with my experience! Although I am itchy all over so I think I might be having a reaction to something. =/ I don't have a rash, but if it continues tomorrow I'll bring it up to the nurse when she calls.
I hope all you ladies healing and all you ladies with surgeries coming up are doing well!!!
I've only taken 2 oxy and 2 muscle relaxers - this morning I was pretty stiff and my boobs felt REALLY tight and high, but once the meds kicked in and I iced them for a while I felt pretty normal until this evening they were starting to feel like they did this morning.
I still don't think it's hit me yet that I have boobs and they still seem small even with the wrap. I wonder if that's just an illusion? I can't wait to get this wrap off to see what I'm working with and ITCH! Oh to scratch those itches sounds like heaven right now!
I hope all you ladies are doing wondefully that had surgery recently and I'm so excited for all of you with surgery coming up!
"The Big Reveal"
They're still riding high, but I'm happy with the size so far. I'm hoping I won't lose too much since they don't seem very swollen right now. They're still really numb, so I don't think I'm quite aware that they're there yet. I went shopping to pick up sports bras and between the cold and taking bras on & off I could feel them creeping up and getting super tight so I had to take a muscle relaxer, but I haven't taken any Oxy since yesterday.
Sorry about the emotional rollercoaster I've been on. I got my period and I think that just added to the "booby blues" of not seeing them and sitting around all day!
Not all the pictures uploaded...
Should I be worried?
1 week Post-Op Today
He said he could see a definite difference in my breasts, but said they both looked good and normal, and that my left muscle is pushing the implant down (causing the bulge [it literally feels like someone has their palm against my breast and is pushing with all their weight and everything is popping out the bottom]) and my right muscle is pushing the implant up -- causing the difference in appearance. He did some squishing to see if he could feel anything unusual and I just about wanted to cry!!! They don't hurt normally, but my goodness that was not fun! He didn't instruct me to do any massages at home, though. It's just so weird that I feel so much pressure on my left and next to none on my right! He told to keep taking my muscle relaxers to help alleviate some of the pressure I'm feeling.
My left incision is soooooo itchy!!!!!! And again, my right is perfectly fine. I guess I'd rather just deal with one unbearable itch than two! I go back to see him next week to get my steri-strips taken off. I was also cleared to do low-impact cardio, and lower body workouts -yay!!! I need to keep my muscles strong so when I get back to riding I'm not a limp fish up in the saddle!
My boyfriend got to see them for the last time last night. It was so cute because he was so nervous and soooooo gentle! My boobs felt big to me, much more than a handful, but once he put his big 'ol hands on 'em they just looked dwarfed!!! He said he wouldn't have wanted me to go any bigger though, and I think they look really proportionate to my body - at least in clothes (I'll have to play dress up and take some pics!). I'm still getting used to the way they look nakey... but I think it's just going to be that way until they start to look like "real boobs". Lol.
I hope all of you ladies in recovery are doing great and good luck to all you ladies with surgeries coming up!
I've got feeling in my nipples (thankfully!), but around my boob seems to have "muted" feeling. Not in any pain, though! Sometimes if I move a certain way or try to push on something I get a searing pain, so I just avoid doing it. Lol. Pulling the car door closed from the inside (especially since it's my left) has proven interesting!
I might go out with some friends tonight, I'm both excited and nervous!
I hope all you wonderful ladies have a great Thanksgiving!
2 Week Post-Op Appt.
The good news is that righty is looking great, settling well, and he thinks I should get a really natural result on that side. He wants me to wear a strap every night, and as much during the day as I can. He said if I want to go out I can take it off, but the more the better. I've been wearing it for about 4 hours and my lefty is has some tingling sensations going on... not quite sure what that means, but it's interesting! He also wants me to start wearing silicone strips on my scars, so I will be ordering those today or tomorrow -- the New Gel Plus brand. A 4 month supply will run me about $50, but he says he gets the best results with them.
Overall I'm not SUPER bummed... I know it's fixable and all, but it's just... eh. Nobody wants complications, ya know? He didn't say there was much else I could do to help it along, so at this point I'm just going to cross my fingers, wear this band, keep up with the 24/7 sports bra, and look at them as little as possible in order to keep my sanity. Lol.
I hope everyone else in recovery is doing well - thank you to all of you who have been so wonderful and supportive. =)
I'm still wearing the band as much as possible, and so far I have not seen a difference. Fingers crossed that I will wake up one day and see even the slightest difference.
I have decided to go with Dr. Paresi who serves the Lake Geneva, Woodstock, Milwaukee, and Jainesville areas of WI. He has GREAT bedside manner, was very professional while still being personal, and was very open and willing to discuss anything I had questions about in my consultation.