28 year old went from 36M to 36D - La Mesa, CA
Surgery is tomorrow. I'm excited/nervous/anxious,...
Days 2 & 3
It's already been a month!
Time has flown by and so far the recovery has been nice and easy. At the one week point I was able to stop taking pain meds and felt I could take care of myself for the most part, but I still needed help taking care of the kids to avoid lifting although this wouldn't be a problem with older children I suppose. I was delighted to get the drains taken out one week post-op, much more comfortable without those! They gave me a shot on each side before removing them and I didn't feel a thing, not bad at all. I looked a little more normal in clothing too, which gave me a little self esteem boost.
At my two week checkup they removed most of the gauze/padding, checked on the progress, and let me know everything was looking good and healing well. That was the first real glimpse I had at my new breasts (at least the bottom half), but I opted not to glance for too long when passing by their mirror because I know everything was still healing and didn't look too appealing. I had some bruising still and the incisions were scabbed over (itchy!) but everything looked good overall. My left breast was shaped a little oddly, but I think that was just from the positioning of the padding within the compression bra, everything will settle into shape with time. Finally starting to look normal in clothes without all the stuffing coming out from the compression bra, a little definition goes a long way!
I have my one month follow up appointment later today and am anxious to see how everything is coming along. I noticed yesterday that speed bumps/dips on the road aren't painful anymore, so that's great! I've also had some success sleeping on my side with support from blankets/pillows within the past week or so. I just know that if it hurts, I shouldn't be doing it! I'm really looking forward to laying on my stomach and getting a nice professional massage to work out all the built up muscle tension from the years of strain my breasts put on my back/shoulders/neck.
I'm still getting used to my new body and I struggle at times with negative thoughts. Sometimes I think they're way too small, or that my stomach is more noticeable and I don't want anyone to mistake me for being pregnant, or that my husband is going to find the scars unattractive, and I haven't compared my breasts to anyone else's so much in my life. I never noticed the breast size of other women until now, before it was a given that mine were bigger and it was nothing I ever gave much thought to, but now I can't help myself from noticing how much bigger everyone's boobs are and comparing! I haven't seen my nipples/areolas without tape yet so I worry about what they're going to look like and what's going on under the tape. I feel the need to tell anyone I see for the first time since the surgery that I'm still wearing a compression bra and that I think they're so tiny, so they won't say it to me. I try my best to keep the negative thoughts out of my head because they aren't doing me any good and most of the time I know I'm being irrational. I try to focus on the positive, and there are so many more positive things going for me now.
I dressed up for Halloween last week and had my face painted, went to a party and was able to walk past 5 or 6 friends without anyone stopping me to say hi....because I was unrecognizable! I sent my mom a picture of me in my getup from that night, she showed my dad, he said "Who's that?" not a clue! Everyone thinks I look great and I do too, just anxious for everything to heal and to start working out so the rest of me is as perky as my new boobies. I've gone to the gym a couple times and used the stationary bike, but I'm waiting a couple more weeks before doing anything more strenuous. Gotta get the go ahead from the doc!
Dr. Pousti is great, really nice, all that fun stuff. Made me feel comfortable and I know he's going to do a great job!