44 Years Old, Implants in for 18 Years 32A -34D, Double bubble - La Mesa, CA

18 years ago I finally got the courage to get my...

18 years ago I finally got the courage to get my implants. I thought my world would change. I would be more "acceptable" as a women. I was tired of people making comments about my flat breasts. Family, friends, even my boss! When I asked my then fiance (we're divorced now!) if I could get the procedure done, his response was "I'm so glad you asked, I didn't know how to to tell you to get it done." At the time I was excited about that response. Now I know the correct response should have been, "I love you just the way you are." But I felt that nobody accepted me the way I was, and I felt that my small breasts defined me as who I was, and who I was, wasn't good enough. After the procedure I did feel great about myself. Then I had my son and my right implant moved.... way north! I looked like I had an elephant trunk on my chest. I had a PS move it back down, but it was right back up within days. A few years later I went to Dr. Pousti. He told me my capsule had been enlarged during my pregnancy and I need to put larger implants in place. It didn't fix it completely, but they looked much better! Now, however, I feel they are too large! Now people look at me and comment on how huge my chest is. They look much bigger in clothes, then when naked. I am now tired of hiding in my clothes once again. First, when they were too small, now that they are too big. I just want to be me, all natural, small and all! :)
I am schedule to have my implants removed on June 10.
You were beautiful before and you'll be beautiful after your explant!!
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Thank you! I am so nervous to see what I look like afterwards. I'm thinking positive though. :)
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Hi there and thanks of sharing your story...good luck with your upcoming surgery.....sending hugs and good wishes xxxx
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Implant Type

I just pulled out my card that has my implant info on it. I have Mentor smooth saline over the muscle. I saw that my left implant is a 375 and and my right is a 425. I'm guessing the right one is larger due to the movement of the implant after I nursed my son. I'm now wondering what this is going to do to my symmetry after they're removed.
Good luck! You look like me pre BA. I hope everything goes fantastic for you! Happy healing!
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I know what you are talking about. I've just recently come to the realization that I've been trying to be someone else for years! When I was younger I tanned (even though I was very pale) in order to be tanned. I've been drying my hair strait for so long that I actually didn't know I had wavy/curly hair. And I got breast implants because I thought I was to small and my hips were too big. "I'm just trying to get the right proportion," I would tell myself. I stopped tanning years ago, decided to get my implants out (still working on that part) and recently started wearing my hair the natural way (and it rocks). It's so nice to stop pretending to be something you aren't. And the funny thing is that I feel more beautiful already, with just the small changes I've made (wearing skirts with my bare white legs and no pantyhose, natural hair). I can't wait to get these dick magnets out of my chest and start to be the me that I was meant to be all along! Whew! Sorry, your story touched me because it rang true for me obviously. Good luck and I hope all goes well with your story. Thank you so much for sharing your story.
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"dick magnets" ;-P
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Question for you all who have children and have explanted

I'm explanting in 10 more days. I haven't told my kids, ages 10 and 13 who are going to ask why Mom is having surgery. They don't know I have implants either. Anybody know how I can explain it to them, without it getting to personal? My son (13) isn't very confidential and I don't want my personal stuff all over the neighborhood.
I don't know.... I would probably say that I am going to the doctor for personal reasons that can be explained "when you get older." I don't think my 15yo would ask and I don't think my 5yo would notice---maybe not at first anyway. I imagine that your 13yo probably doesn't want to even know. He may be curious but regret asking after he finds out! haha. I would have been mortified to know something like that but every kid is different and they way you raise them is different. I think only you can really be the judge of how much they should know. I personally wouldn't like to lie but I would skirt around the truth if I didn't want other people to know.
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Good Luck to you, having my explant this Friday. My kids are young....5 & 3. Glad they won't remember this. Whatever you choose to tell them, it will be behind you soon enough:)) Wishing you a quick and easy recovery!
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Good luck on Friday, keep us posted on how it goes. :)
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They're out!

I had my explant this morning. I went into surgery at 7 and was home by 9:30. It went very smooth! I will post pictures in a few days when the bandages come off.
Hope you are feeling OK. Happy healing!
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Congrats and happy healing xx
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I just had my surgery on June 9th and I have 3 kids who were too young to remember when I had my BA 10 yrs ago. I wasn't sure what I would tell them since my husband and I didn't want them to know that I had it done. So I told them that I had pulled my back and my upper body was sore. Thankfully, it worked! ;) Congrats on your explant! Heal well!
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8 days out

I had my drains removed 4 days after explanation. Today I had my bandages removed. The tops of my breasts look scooped out and my right breast still gas that double bubble look. Hopefully with a lot of massage it will bounce back.
Did yo have capsules removed too??
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To my knowledge the capsules are still in. The PS said he would only remove them if he saw a problem.
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Excuse my dumb question but what do you mean by 'capsules', they are still in?
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Mentor implant

My doctor returned my implants to me. The 425 had to be deflated to get it out and the 375 is still filled. I weighed the 375 -- 1 pound!

The camera does add 10 pounds!

I can see a little difference in how I look in clothes, but I'm not as big as I look in the pictures.
I think you look great! I'm actually going in to have my implants remove in two weeks time. I can only hope mine look as good as yours after.
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Thank you! They change every day. I look forward to seeing the little changes every day.
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1 month

I've been feeling really down. If both my breasts looked like my left one, I'd be happy. I can't find a bra that fits due to the right breast sitting up high and isn't as wide ad a normal breast. My left breast call fit in a B cup, but my right can't even fill out a AA due to the odd shape and they're the same size! I've been massaging them trying to break down the scare tissue. Some days I can see it drop and I get excited, then the next day it moves back up. I'm just sad and frustrated knowing thT I did this to myself. I was never told by any PS that this could happen to me and the internet didn't exists back then. It shocks me that there are women who have access to all these stories and photos and they are still getting them! I hate that we live in a boob obsessed society and we are made to feel less attractive if we don't gave big boobs.
Hi! You have to give your breast time to heal. I had my implants out 2 years ago after having them for 30 years. My ps said you need to give them at least 6 months to heal before you decide to do another procedure. I waited 8 months and then had fat transfer to the breast done. Had good results and then lost 21 pounds and was back to square 1. I had a second fat transfer on Friday July 11th, so I am now 3 days post fat transfer. It is amazing what they can correct using fat from your own body. This might be something you may way to do some research on. Good luck with your healing.
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I thought about fat transfer, but I have a high metabolism, so I'm afraid I'd just burn it all off. I have heard that when you fat transfer to your boobs, its the first place you gain weight! That would be awesome!
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That was true for me, I gained weight in my stomach and my boobs at the same time. When I started to change the way I ate the boobs were the 1st to start loosing. They say you loose weight from the head down, so true. My 1st transfer the fat came from hips and stomach, the stomach is the 1st place I can loose it from. This time it came from the stubborn thigh fat, that I can never loose, so maybe this time it will all stay. One can only hope.
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5 weeks

I had an appointment with my PS yesterday. He explain that my right breast wasn't a double bubble, but my original breast taking back it's original shape. That's also why my left breast hS a crease in it. It too is trying to go back to its original shape. The insidious lines are where my original PS created a larger pocket to accommodate the implant. My doc thinks thT my left breast will change and look like my right one. He said if I'm not happy with the shape or symmetry he will do a revision, but I have to wait at least 6 months. Today when I woke up I noticed that the "bubble" under my right breast was almost gone. Weird how my doc said just yesterday, that's what would happen!
Hi, thanks for the update - its always interesting to read what different surgeons say regarding the healing process and the stages they go through. Did he say how he would go about a revision should you need one after 6 months? (hopefully you wont!)
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He said he would do an in office revision using a local. I told him I would like for my breasts to both look like the fuller left one. He said I had to wait to see how everything settles, as he expects some changes. He told me he could make the right one look closer to the left one.
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Not sure what to think

My PS said that my right breast wasn't a double bubble but trying to get its original shape back. I'm beginning to think he was just trying to appease me. I found a box of old clothes from before I had my BA done. The old bras and bathing suits all sit on the crease of my left breast. So the left is my normal breast line, not the right. So I guess its just a hurry up and wait thing now until I can get my next surgery done. As much as I didn't like my implants, I dislike the new me even more!

2 months

Yesterday's Ps visit was good. He said my cosmetic issues are possibly scar tissue, which is what I have been thinking all along. I have to go back in two months to see if my body corrects the problem.

Is this normal?

I'm 9 weeks post explant and my chest is caving in! The dark arches in the pics are dents in my chest wall. Thus just showed up in the last week. Has anybody else experienced this?
Any updates????
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Do you have any updates???
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I went and saw my PS on Monday. Everything is the same. He wants to continue waiting to see if it will change on its own over the course of 6 months to a year. When I asked about getting them fixed, I got the same response as last visit. He seems to want to fix my good one to look like my bad one. I guess he feels it would be easier. He said its easier to take away then to add. I asked if I had the same amount of breast tissue on both sides and he said I should. So I would think it shouldn't be too difficult to drop a boob down, right? My guess is its probably a lot more difficult than I think. When all this first happened, he said, "No problem, little in office procedure." I think he was trying to keep me calm and there's a lot more to it. My next visit is in January.
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