1 Year & 6 Months Post-Op // Silicone Gel // 450 cc's // 32DD Bra Size // Mod.+ // Sub-Pectoral Placement // Incision in Fold

Hello beautiful people, I am here today because...

Hello beautiful people,

I am here today because boobies, that's why. But in all seriousness, my interest and curiosity in getting a Breast Augmentation has led me to this lovely and informative web community.

I am 24 now, but I have been curious about BA's for several years. I have spent the last six years in the military on active duty, and for a while, I had gained a great deal of weight; weighing in at around 155 lbs at my heaviest point. That is a little heavy for my 5'5" frame. Once I cleaned up my lifestyle some I was able to slowly bring my weight down to 123-127 range over about a year. I feel great! Actually, I have never felt BETTER!

As I have seen many of you ladies mention, what happens when we lose weight? We lose the pretty little twins! Now, my breasts had been about a 34B for most of my younger years. After my weight loss, I am a full A cup to just about a B cup. My lack of breasticles makes me feel somewhat boyish, and deprives me of feeling "sexy" when I wear a bathing suit, or a tank-top for example. When I wear a tank top my breasts are just perky little babies. Sure, I can get away with not wearing a bra, and I can be athletic and do any sport or activity without anything getting in the way. While these are awesome perks, I feel ready to enhance my chest which will have all sorts of lovely benefits.

I really get into my research streak about a year ago. I have spent a lot of time reflecting, soul searching, thinking, researching, and weighing my personal pro's and cons for the surgery. I made lists of questions, I mapped out the financial commitment (not only for first surgery, but all surgeries and MRI's and doctor check-up's, etc.) and scheduled three consultations in the San Francisco East Bay.

I went to the first two consultations and felt dissatisfied and not completely informed after each of them. I felt rushed, and as though I was wasting THEIR time by asking questions. You should never feel rushed or neglected during a consultation for anything, let alone for something that will impact your life so tremendously.

My last consultation was for Dr. Steven Williams at TriValley Plastic Surgery in Dublin, California. He just blew the other doctors out of the water! Everything about his office, the consultation, and the information he gave me was not only insightful, but I felt in my heart almost instantly that he was the one to perform my surgery!
(Information for Dr. Williams can be found here: ****

I left his office with a great feeling. I decided I would take the information home to think about it even more. And I did! I spent more hours reading online, scanning through RealSelf experiences, talking it over with my mom (who also had a BA operation), and really just thinking it over with myself. I knew everything was up to me and what I wanted. That is the most important thing.

I eventually made up my mind to move forward with my BA with Dr. Williams! So, I called them up and booked my surgery date for November 22, 2013. I paid a $2,500 deposit to hold my date. I owe $7,200 for my silicone, moderate profile implants. As far as cc's go, I will be updating you guys after my pre-op where we will discuss actual cc's and make a final decision.

Tomorrow I will post my before photos, and some of my "goal end result" photos as well.

My "Goal Look"

Here is my collection so far of looks that interest me. I love a more natural look with a nice full shape. I am not a big fan of very rounded breasts that project a lot.... Like Victoria Beckham's old BA results, for example.

My Current Body Stats

- Age: 23
- Height: 5'5"
- Weight (lbs.): 123-127
- Bra Size: Full A-32/34B (depending on who makes the bra).

BA Plans:
- D Cup Bra
- (Unsure about exact c.c's right now).
- Silicone Gel Implant
- Moderate Profile
- Sub-pectoral Placement (under the muscle).
- Infra-mammary Incision (2" incision underneath each breast).

Pre-Operation Photos

Here are a few shots of what I'm dealing with! Fabulous little boobies... Soon to become a new and improved version.

The "Nesting" Checklist

Hi beauties!

I prepared a list of things that I have found will be helpful to those of us who are awaiting our BA Operation. It's alp about the nesting before we go in for surgery so that we come home to a nice clean, comfortable area to relax and heal.

- Pillows!
- Heating Pad
- Ice Packs ("Peas Cooling Pack"- CVS)
- Drinks/Warm Teas
- Bendy Straws for Painless Sipping
- Constipation Medication (Anesthesia causes a back-up and so do some prescription medications).
- Gas Medication (Bloat and gas are common side effects as well and can be uncomfortable).
- Snacks: Crackers, Goldfish, Jello, Fruits, Veggies, Popsicles.... Chocolate...)
- Entertainment: Movies, TV Shows, Books, Magazines, etc.
- Shower Caddy (Everything should be around hip-height to avoid reaching for anything).
- Face Wipes/Diaper Wipes
- Pill Case (Child-proof pill cases are painful to open, so I hear).
- Bucket (Face it, we may get sick from medications and post-operation aftermath)... Keep one in car and at home in case.
- Glasses (If you wear contacts).
- Clothing: Button down shirts, Zip Up Bras, Sweatpants, Leggings, Sweatshirts.
- Blankets: You'll be cold coming out of anesthesia.
- Cocoa Butter Lotion.
- Yeast Infection treatment (I personally am extremely prone to getting these when I take antibiotics. The medication swipes out all of the "good" bacteria in the vagina which can sometimes create such an off-balance PH that a yeast infection forms. There are creams and pills we can take to prevent and clear them up. Many doctors prescribe these pills alongside an antibiotic prescription. Just something to think about).

I also read about some bras that have been noted to be VERY helpful during the first week, let alone first few months. They are:
- Coobie Bra: ($22) Order Online
- Genie Bra: (3 for $29.97) Online.

Please message me or comment if you have other recommendations, ideas or questions! I am sure those f you who have gone through surgery can add some things!

Thanks, ladies! Xo

Looking into the Future: The Cost of Having & Maintaining Breast Implants

Ok, girls! I drew up an example of the financial mapping I mentioned earlier in my blog. It's a great way, when considering the cost of having breast implants, to foresee what you may end up spending in your future for as long as you have implants.

So, you have your initial set. Say this costs you $7000. Just remember this isn't the end of it.

As per the FDA, we are required to have an MRI three years after the first operation. The national average for the U.S. is $2,000 for one MRI screening. An MRI is recommended every two years from then on.

To give you a ballpark number, that can average around $45,000 in a lifetime just for MRI screenings.

Also to consider is the fact that implants are not lifetime devices. At one point or another we have to have them replaced, removed, etc. Most implants last around 10-15 years on average, but don't count on anything. Just expect that you may have 4-5 re-operations in your lifetime. These operations are typically MORE expensive than your initial surgery. Your fees depend on if you're having the implant replaced, removed, saline/silicone, or if you're having other operations done at the same time. Just know that money will always be required for your babies- it's just like having a car or a house payment.

An annual doctor visit should be taken into consideration if you want to optimize your maximum health. This averages at around $100 per visit.

Love Yourself in All of Your Forms

My sweet girls,

I just want to remind you the importance of self love throughout our journeys; whichever step we are in today.

I know we are all here to enhance and improve the cards we were dealt... Whether it's our first operation, our second, etc. We want a certain look because those are our own personal preferences for what we find sexy, attractive, appealing, desirable, etc. But undergoing an operation shouldn't be to "fix" anything other than your physical body... It won't mend your relationship with your partner, it won't settle the conflict you had with your girlfriends, it won't make anybody love you, etc. While it may enhance our sex life, sexuality, self-esteem, or whatever have you- please don't make any decisions in the wrong frame of mind.

I personally feel that you should love who you are, flaws and all, no matter what changes occur throughout your life. You should love your breasts even when you feel they are imperfect because they are a part of YOU! Beautiful you! They will always be a part of you and are a part of the great package and gift that you are.

So, sure, get those boobies enhanced, or reduced, or whatever you want! But know in your heart that you are beautiful no matter what changes occur in your physical (& mental, spiritual, etc.) being!

Your body is a temple that deserves your compassion, respect, and endless love.

Don't Forget to Love Yourself!

Supplements to Avoid before BA Sugery

Hi ladies,

I wanted to read into medicines that we should avoid before our surgeries. I take vitamins, fish oil and green tea and wanted to see if these could be harmful leading up to the operation.

I went ahead and did some research and came up with the following:

- First and foremost, ask your PS about any and all drug related questions before you start or stop taking anything.

- Just because something is "herbal" or "natural" doesn't make it safe.

- NO ASPIRIN or non-steroidal anti inflammatory drugs at least 1-2 weeks prior to surgery. These inhibit blood clotting and can cause excessive bleeding during and after surgery.

- Drugs that also increase bleeding risk: Ginko Biloba, Green Tea, Omega-3 Fatty Acids, Vitamin E.

- Please! If you're a smoker, stop smoking within 2-3 weeks of your surgery! This is very important. There are several websites with specific information if you need help quitting.

- Drugs that are safe: Tylenol & prescription drugs ONLY. But ask your Doctor! :)

Can you ladies think of anything else?

Consultation Checklist

Here is a list that I started for things to research and prepare for your consultation(s):

- Compile a list of surgeons that interest you. It is important that they are Board Certified. Try and see at least three PS's.

- Learn about your procedure: insertion, placement, implant type, etc. Understand fully what the surgeon will be doing.

- Write down your questions and thoughts about the operation, your surgeon, risks, complications, future surgeries, etc. Keep a journal or write in your smartphone.

- Learn about your surgeon! Check for malpractice cases or disciplinary actions. Also look up reviews from others! :)

- Credentials to look for in a surgeon: (each holds a Dr to a different standard).

1. American Board of Plastic Surgeons (means your PS has at least 6 years of surgical training with 3 years specializing in plastic surgery).

2. American Society Aesthetic Plastic Surgery

3. American Medical Association

4. American Board of Plastic Surgery (means they have had extensive training and is up-to-date on technologies).

- Some things you can bring to your consultation: fee (if required), list of questions, desired look photos, list of medications that you take, written medical history, notepad and pen to take notes. And your ID! :-)

I did the rice test! Will you give me your advice?


Photos from rise test:

Please let me know what you think! :) This experience made me SO much more excited. I was running and jumping around with the sizers in. Most of my clothes still fit! And my bikini will definitely look better post op ;) xo

More Fun with Rice Sizers

Sports bras and bikinis, oh my!

I can't stop thinking about surgery!

I wish my surgery were sooner! I am so excited for my operation. I see all you ladies posting your success stories and it makes me all the more sure of moving forward! I can't wait to have my boobies and feel like a woman! Meowwwww ow ow! ;)

31 Total Pounds Lost

Today I weighed 123.8, so about 124. Down from 155 lbs at my heaviest in 2012.

I can't believe it! I feel really great, but my figure is definitely a different shape now. My boobies are smaller than they've ever been. I still feel confident and I love & appreciate my body, but it will feel so empowering to have something to hold onto and play with and to fill out my clothes! It's great being a woman!

I'm getting more excited about my surgery date by the minute. I have a hard time focusing at work because I'm constantly randomly thinking about breasticles. Hey, it's not all bad. ;)

I've talked with my mama and loved ones about my decision and I am fully supported in my decision. My extensive research and choice to take my time has made me feel all the more confident in my decision.

I'm more ready than ever!

Have a great day, lady friends! You're all beautiful! Xxoo

Sports Bra (Before)

Heading to the gym! Here's some "before" photos for comparison later! :]

This IPhone app can be hard to navigate!

Sheesh! Well, here are my pics.


Going out to dinner with my 425 cc sizers and my smiling boyfriend.

I'm getting the feel for boobies! Going out on town with these babies in.


These are my dream boobies!

I think I have collected enough photos for my PS!

I couldn't stop, ladies! I became immersed in my search for the perfect dream photos to take to my PS for my operation in November. I think I can seize my hunt, though, as I have found all the photos I could need... I am getting super excited about this operation! And I am so thankful to have met Kimberly_! She and I are going in on the same day.

So thankful for this network of amazing women. You all are the best. Hope you are all happy and well! xo

Checking In

Hi beautifuls!
I haven't written in a little while because I have become so busy! There are many things going on in my world and part of that is the preparation for my surgery in November. I feel like time is just flying by and I will be driving to the hospital before I know it! I am hoping to do some research on the tear-drop shaped implants as Beth brought up to me. I'll post what I find about that as soon as I read up.

I did find out today that it is safe to donate whole blood (Red Cross is coming to my office, and I planned to donate) with about a month before my BA. I was happy to hear that I can still do that and help out in that way.

I went for a run today and I had to ask my boyfriend if he had noticed if my breasts had gotten any smaller? They surely looked and felt smaller in my opinion. He gently agreed that they may have shank even more. It's all good! I feel great and running really lifts my spirits. I was smiling throughout my whole run this afternoon thinking to myself, "Soon I'll have to secure you babies so you're not bouncing out of control!" I laugh now... :) I sure do hope I will enjoy having big boobies and that they don't interfere with my active lifestyle. I am told by countless athletes and sporty women that all it takes is a great sports bra and they are good to go. I'm going to go ahead and maintain a positive attitude about it. I know I am going to love the results! Just as all of you do/have/will!

Sending all the positive energy I can summon for all of you beautiful and incredible women going through your own personal journey. You are all amazing and thanks again for all of your support. This community is such a blessing.


Tear Drop Shaped (Anatomical) Implants

Hi ladies,

I checked into the tear drop shaped implants (vs. Round implants) because it was brought up to me as so.ethibg I may be interested in given the shape of breast I prefer.

Here's what I found!

-These have the actual shape of a natural breast and can appear much more natural than a round implant.

-A skilled surgeon is required to ensure the pocket is created exactly right which allows the shapes of the implant to align properly and evenly. Inexperienced surgeons may not recommend this method due to its more complex placement.

-Teardrop shapes may look a little unnatural when laying down as opposed to a round implant that would lay more flat and naturally.

-They are textured to prevent them from moving around a lot. This can increase the risk of rippling.

-Looks like these are used with more petite patients with breast in the A-Cup zone, and for breast reconstructions.

From what I am gathering, yes, these would probably give me the natural and full shape that I want. They would look most natural when standing upright. However, they could flip/turn/rotate throughout their life and create asymmetry.

Does anybody here have anatomical implants?

Implant Profile Types

Moderate: The "normal" profile. Full, rounded look with lots of volume. May have a wider chest appearance.

Moderate Plus: In between moderate and high profile.

High: These have the most projection, and due to the implant having more height it may increase the likelihood of rippling.

Low: These have the least amount of projection.

Bra Delivery!

Hey beautiful ladies of all shapes & sizes,

Soooooo I am back again after a short break from blogging. I have been busy at work and enjoyi g tgis Halloween season!

Yesterday was my bra delivery day. I now have five post operation Bras. I ordered two Bras (one lace in white, one plain black) from Coobie. I am in love! They are soft, comfortable and I know they will be very supportive and gentle while I am healing. For the two of them I spent around $45 (shipping and handling included). Perfect purchase!

I also ordered from Genie bra online. They come in sets of 3 for $29.97! Total steal! I am actually wearing one now. It's so soft and supportive. Like something you could wear to yoga. I got the set of black, white & nude.

I am so happy with my purchases! So far I highly recommend them. I'll need one zip up bra though. I'm going to check out Ducks sporting Goods for that one.

I'm feeling so excited ladies! I have little bouts of nervousness sometimes, but I think that's normal and expected.

My main worries and concerns right now are:

1. Pain directly after surgery when I'm all groggy and cold and confused. My mom said her pain was unbearable straight out of surgery. I just hope I am not in agony for long.

2. Hoping I go big enough for my taste in the long run and don't settle for a size too small.

3. The risk of "Bottoming out" during healing and the lifetime of the implant.

4. Losing nipple sensation! I had my nipples pierced and it took over a year to regain feeling. I pray my BA doesn't take that sensual feeling away. I would be so sad.

5. Potential complications during breastfeeding in years to come.

6. Just hoping I like them in general and don't regret my decision to start down this road.

I would love support and advice on this - any of it! :) I hope everybody is having a happy hump day and are healthy & well. Lots of love to you all.

Anatomy of the Breast

I am a visual learner and found this diagram to be so helpful in really seeing the anatomy of the breast.


What am I doing?

The phrase "if it ain't broke, don't fix it" has intensely resonated with me after reading a story about implant removal.

I love my body and I love how I feel. I'm light, free, natural and just small in general. I'm feeling silly for looking into this so much. I worry that I am going to ruin a perfectly cute body. Something could go wrong. I may not like them. They might never feel a part of me. And I fear there is so much that may not go how I am imagining! Am I make a bad feeling decision?

My surgery is so soon and I'm nervous. Really nervous. This is a huge choice to make and I've thought about it so much and for so long. I just don't want to look back on this later on and think "What on earth was my 24 year old self even thinking?"

Can anybody relate?

It's a New Day!

I knew I would have a few moments of confusion and fear along the way, and yesterday I did. I realize this is normal and probably a really good thing because it indicates that I'm really putting time into research, thinking it over, and taking my time. Surgery is a big commitment! Just like I've said before, it is a lifelong investment.

I had to realize that I am not what I appear to be on the outside. I am not my clothes, my hair, my skin, my breats! Who I am comes from what's in my heart. Surgery doesn't mean that girl goes away or that I lose my ambitions! It doesn't mean I am any less of a woman in any way. At the end of the day, it's something that will just make that "inner me" shine a little brighter and stand a little taller. I'll get to enjoy my womanly body and the fun of being a woman. But nothing else changes, and everything in my life is still going to carry on with me.

Thank you to you all for being here for me and for the other men and women on this forum. I realize this journey is different for all of us and we are all in different walks of life. I'm glad for the ups and downs because I can value those moments where I realize just how much I do want my BA and how much time I've allowed myself to process that.

You are all amazing and beautiful inside and out. Let's keep sticking together because we all know that not all days are easy!

And a shout out to our Community Manager, Ms. Beth! She's been more than supportive and eager to help all of us through this process. Beth- Thank you for your outstanding support and advice! We are all lucky to have you in this community.

Seeking photos of "not-for-me-boobies" to show my PS...

Hi dolls!

As I am getting my "portfolio" together for my PS that contains my "wish-boobies" photos, I realized that I do not have any "not-for-me boobie" photos. I would like to have a few photos that portray:

- Breasts "too far apart"
- Breasts that are "too round"
- Breasts that are hanging "too wide"

I am having a hard time finding such photos. I know this is a matter of opinion, anyway, but does anybody know of some good blogs or websites in which I may find some photos for my surgeon? Would appreciate this so much.

I hope everybody has a lovely Friday. It is sunny and beautiful in Cali today. Thankful! :)

The Dreams Are Starting!

I had my first dream about boobies the other night. Thankfully it wasn't a bad dream where so.ething goes wrong. More like a, "Hot damn, those look AMAZING!" sort of thing. Clearly my surgery is approaching quickly and it's taking up more and more of my mind. I'm not complaining! ;)

I've been reading as much as I can and realizing that I'll have an array of experiences with healing. I know to expect anything.

Soon I'll have to make my CVS run to get all of my post op necessities. Crikey!

Pre-Op: What to Bring

My pre operation is next week and I'm really looking forward to it! I'm a little nervous, but in a good way.

I've started a list to get organized & help others out with their upcoming appointments. Let me know if I'm missing things! I'm sure I am :

1. Bras for post operation. I'm bring the Coobie and Genie Bras that I ordered online to show my PS.

2. List of all medication or vitamins that I take. Right now I'm on probiotics and green tea pills and fish oil.

3. Medical record. Since I am in the military I have a log of all of my medical history. I'm going to bring it in to help with helping my PS understand my background.

4. WISH PICS! Obviously. :) But also the looks I am not going for.

5. List of questions and concerns that I have. Right now I have a few inquiries about medications and stitches. I'll also want to talk about Bottoming Out and other complications that I fear. I'm sure that will be covered when we discuss my CC choice anyway.

6. Some tops to try on with sizers.

7. Something to take notes with. I like to jot everything down so I'll probably take my own notes for things to pick up and do before surgery time!

What else shall I add?

Before Photos: Exercise Gear

In a sports bra: A cup.

Before BA

Before BA

Why does this site have such a hard time posting?!?! ?:-{

Let's try this again....

Unsuccessful Mobile Uploads

Hi beauties!

I apologize for the spotty posts on here recently! I tried to upload some of my pre-operation photos on here, and had no luck (from my phone at least). It drives me crazy that I can't go back and delete those posts! Oh well. I am now sending photos to my computer to then upload on the site. Am I the only one encountering these issues?

Anyway, in other news.... I have been slowly gathering everything I will be needing for the operation. With my pre-op appointment coming up on Wednesday I am starting to get my questions ready for Dr. Williams. I also need to print my wish pics for him as well so that we can decide on cc's! YAY! Something I found really cool about how Dr. Williams works is that he will have all different sizes and types of implants ON SITE during the surgery. So, if he inserts a 400 cc implant, but decides that the 425 may be better suited for me, he will be able to make that exchange on the spot. There isn't going to be any sort of "you only get one size option" going on. I feel very comfortable that he will give me the results I dream about.

I picked up my peppermint Smooth Move tea yesterday. Lord knows I'll need it! ;) I just have a thing or two to pick up at CVS and my RX that he will fill on Wednesday. Basically, just continuing to read these fab reviews and keep the house tidy! I am really excited and feeling really... calm. Perfect word choice. I am a generally calm person anyway, but I feel even better knowing that I have so many lovely people here to count on and talk to throughout this journey. I feel supported (and organized)! Thank you again to everybody who has helped me out as I prepare for this big change. My heart is full and I feel so thankful.

Happy Veterans Day!


One Last Wish-Pic [Bathing Suit]

Photos from my Pre-Op appointment today

Hi beauties!
Here are photos from my appointment today when I tried on the sizers. I tried on 450 cc's and 550 cc's. They didn't have any sizes in between those two, but this helped give me a great idea of what I would look like with each. More about my appointment to follow.


Deep Breath

First of all, THANK YOU babes for being so sweet and checking in on me today. I have been waiting for this day for a long time now, and it truly was a rush of both nerves, excitement and everything in between. I am really glad that I am home now, and on my countdown for the big day.

So, I brought my dream pictures, post-op bras [http://www.coobiebra.com] [http://www.geniebra.com], list of questions/meds./etc., a few tank tops (one black, one white), and a D-cup bra with me to the appointment. Also my darling boyfriend who has been nothing but a huge support since the beginning. Bless his face.

I was warmly greeted by the staff and was handed a packet of consent forms to sign. As you imagine, they were all filled with things that could go wrong, complication risks, etc. That is just a standard precaution for any surgery. There is and always will be risk. I also consented to the release of my photos on their website only. I didn't mind that as long as they aren't on Facebook or anything and don't show my face.

After signing and initialing papers for what seemed like an hour, we headed back with his assistant Tracy. She briefed us on the medications I would be taking. I have an RX for Diflucan [for yeast infection caused by anti-biotic], Vicodin [for pain], Valium [for spasms], and Keflex [anti-biotic]. Has anybody taken these drugs that can share their experiences (good and bad) with me? I am assuming this anti-biotic will give me a yeast infection- which I will take as it comes, but know it is going to suck. As for the Valium... I am told I shouldn't take it unless I am absolutely in need. I will try to avoid taking this one.

I also paid the rest of my BA Surgery cost balance in FULL. I no longer owe them any funding. Thank God.

I was given a lot of information to take home and read about pre-op (drugs not to take), how to prepare my home for post surgery, things to have readily available (I made a list for this earlier on my blog for anybody who needs it), side effects of drugs and Anesthesia, who to call in case of an emergency, a 15-step post-operation care guide (I will share these more specifically later on for you guys), driving directions to the hospital, and a copy of all of the consent forms that I filled out upon arrival.

I then tried on the sizers underneath my Coobie bra. I attached photos above- let me know what you guys think! I loved the 450 cc's, and felt that the 550 cc's may be a bit too big for my body, so I imagined that 475 cc's would be juuuuuuuuust right. My boyfriend liked them both, but he also loves how I look now. I think if it were up to him he would go with 475 cc's, too, which was awesome.

I then gave her a stack of wish-pics that I prepared. There were 12 photos I believe, and I put my most favorite ones on top. Photos that had beautiful shape and that indicated the size I want. I realize my breasts won't ever be picture perfect, but I think for him to have a visual of what I find beautiful will be really helpful for both of us.

Dr. Williams said that he can certainly meet my desire in terms of the size I was going for. He said that he will have me sitting upright at first, and will insert a saline implant at the onset. He is going to have my wish-pic photos hanging in the OR and will fill the saline implant until they reach the side and shape of the wish pics I gave him. He can add or subtract solution to the implant in order to meet those expectations the best way. He will then make note of the cc's required in the saline implant, and will empty the implant and remove it. Then, he will insert whatever size silicone implant he decides on that meets the look I want to achieve. He said it will be between 450 and 550 cc's. I trust his judgment fully and have talked with him enough to know that he clearly understands what I am hoping for out of this surgery.

Our chat with him was brief since he had previously answered so many of my questions at the onset. I double checked about stitches, and he uses dissolvable ones. I also asked about a band which I may or may not need. It will depend on the anatomy of my breast. That's cool! I did forget to talk about bottoming out and my risk with 450 as opposed to a larger implant. I know it is just something that we all hope doesn't happen, but understand the risk for that and really anything.

We left there feeling very satisfied and excited! I couldn't feel better about choosing my plastic surgeon. His office staff are so kind and I feel respected and cared about in his office. I am really happy, you guys. Nervous, but happy. I am praying to my God that my operation goes well and that I end up with results that I like. Not too big, not too small, but most of all- an operation that leaves me healthy and strong just as I was before surgery... but with bigger boobies. ;)

I came home and showered, and am now ready to play some video games and hang out. Off to work I go tomorrow! But this weekend I will be running to CVS for a few last items, the grocery store, and to Target to fill my RX.

I CANNOT BELIEVE I ONLY HAVE ONE WEEK LEFT WITH MY LITTLE BOOBIES. It is a strange feeling, ladies. It is a very bittersweet feeling. I love it and it also makes me a little sad. You will understand and feel this same feeling, I'll bet. Everybody is different. But for me, I think it is a bit odd to think I will be going through such a change soon. I am mentally stable and prepared for this, and I know I can handle anything that comes my way. We all can. GIRL POWER.

Off to bed with my boys.... my bf and dog! My loves!

Notes from Pre-Op

•Stop eating and drinking midnight before surgery- not even gum, water and breath mints.

•Stop taking aspirin and any other blood thinners now.

•No smoking! (I'm not a a smoker anyway).

•About Anesthesia: expect to feel groggy for 24 hours. If course, at reaction is possible.

•Have prepared foods and snacks at home, and somebody to help you with everything for the first day or two; including getting to the toilet.

•Make sure you have enough pillows!

•Make sure you have a caretaker for any pets.

•No driving for 24 hours at least.

•No lifting anything heavier than 20 pounds.

•Have emergency medical numbers readily available.

Extensive list of medications to avoid:

•Ripped Fuel
•Herbal and Natural Supplements
•Blood Thinners
•Weight Loss Pills
•Anti - inflammatory Drugs
•Vitamin E

?Tylenol is OK!

My 15 Step Post Op Guide

1. Rest for 24 hours. Sleep on back with 3-4 pillows behind neck. Avoid ice. Leave dressings on.

2. Cold compresses are allowed AFTER first 24 hours.

3. If I have pain: Take Meds as prescribed OR take Tylenol.

4. You may want to begin taking a stool softener for constipation.

5. Take antibiotics exactly as prescribed.

6. DRINK FLUIDS.******

7. Swelling and bruising should be expected and is normal. It will subside 4-6 weeks post surgery. (Everyone heals differently).

8. No strenuous activities for at least 2 weeks. Exertion that elevates blood pressure can cause bleeding.

9. Avoid shower and bath until post op appointment. (Yikes!) At post op, we will remove bandages for you and will direct you how and when to shower and bathe.

10. No under wire Bras for 4 weeks. Sports Bras and soft Bras are ok.

11. Avoid all pools, lakes, oceans, hot tubs for next 4 weeks.

12. No pulling,pushing or lifting anything over 25 lbs in first 4 weeks. Getting back to normal activities will take time.

13. You may hear swishing, sloshing, and squeaking in first week or two. This is normal. It is an antibiotic solution that will slowly be absorbed by your body.

14. Avoid all forms of nicotine, etc....

15. Call office with any questions or concerns. If I notice a fever, shakes, chills, severe pain, sudden swelling- call office ASAP.

Checking In

Hi guys!!
Ah! Last night I had a dream that I had my surgery and woke up with breath that stuck out like three feet! Horrible! But I guess comical enough not to get freaked out. But let the dreams and thoughts of my BA are happening frequently at this point. I need a lot of sleep to function so I hope I'm able to get a full nights sleep for the next few days.

I have gotten all of my post - op checklist items and feel 100% prepared for my heal time at home. I just plan to deep clean the house a few times since I am a nest freak. :)

I was talking about my surgery with my mom whom has also undergone multiple surgeries in her life time. She just reminded me of the heaviness I'll feel when I wake up and to know that anesthesia will most likely make me teary and nauseated. I love her. I am blessed to have so much support in my decision.

It's cold and bitter here in Northern Cali. Trying to stay warm and out of the cold and damp air!

I hope you all are having a wonderful day. Sending big hugs and warm vibes to all of you; in all walks of life! Thanks for reading and keeping in touch! ?

The Hospital Called! Eeeek! :)

Sweetest nurse ever! She called and went through the basic rules: no nail polish, no food after midnight Thursday eve, no smoking, Tylenol ONLY, no herbal teas and pills, etc. Everything I listed above, really.

She said to bring a button down shirt which I forgot about! I'll get one from Target.

She mentioned doing 10 foot flexes and 10 deep breaths every hour after surgery to help keep my blood circulating and yo get the anesthesia out of my system.

Aside from going over times and how the morning will go once I arrive, it was a fairly brief phone call.

I'm excited! I'm nervous! I'm a little scared! But mostly just excited!

Question for those who have undergone BA

How hard was it for you to adjust to your new boobies? Were you scared to look at them at first? Was it weird for a while?

Going for my last run with my mini boobies

Putting my heart into it!


I have met some seriously amazing women on this website! Thank you everybody for being such a great support network and really looking out for one and another. Please feel free to message me if you want to link up elsewhere like on FB or anything. But I'll be on here too so no worries!

In other news.... my BA is tomorrow! Holy smokes!

Pre-Op Breasticles

Check these babies out! Little and perky breasts. I hope I don't miss these pretties too much.

b r e a t h e

The house is clean.
Sheets are changed.
I shaved and bathed.
The kitchen is full.
Meds are filled.
Laundry is done.
Pillows are ready.
My partner is ready.
I am ready.

Battling butterflies in my tummy! Trying to go grab a bite to eat now. We are driving near the hospital to double check the route for tomorrow morning. :-)

Repeating mantras in my head and just breathing. Stay with me girls.

Slept Like a Baby

I don't know how, but I got a great nights sleep. We just woke up and are heading to the hospital. Keep sending your warm vibes and thoughtful wishes! You ladies make such a difference. Lots of love to all of you and may everybody find peace & happineds of their own today

Hospital Day

I woke up feeling very rested and was thankful that my bf I both had a great nights sleep. Woke up with a positive attitude about the day and hopped into the shower.

I washed my hair super well and exfoliated my skin, did a mask, touch up shaved, etc. I dried my hair and straightened it out since straight hair as opposed to my crazy amazon woman hair is much easier to work with.

In my go bag I had my prescriptions, zip up hoodie, blanket, crackers, my BA paperwork, chapstick and sock slippers. I also brought my medical record just in case.

We got to the hospital both feeling nervous. We checked in and signed my consent forms. Of course, nothing any of us look forward to doing. I was then immediately called back my pre-op nurse. She was an RN and since that is what I'm getting ready to go to school for- I was super inspired! She was a doll and really just so kind. She took my weight, my vitals, went over my forms, addressed my drug allergy, gave me my bracelets, and then got me changed out I got to wear a super sexy medical gown, socks, undies, and a smokin hot hairnet. ;-)

I'm not one to have issues with needles, but I know many people hate this next part. She administered the IV into the top of my hand. She used a numbing agent first but It definitely still stung. The pain went away though and it was totally manageable. I had some "glorified gatorade" in my drip to keep my hydrated.

Then my partner got to come back with me and I was so happy. :-)

The worst part of the morning was how long we had to WAIT. I laid in that bed for about 3.5 hours waiting for surgery. Dr. Williams had been in his other surgery longer than anticipated and I understood that these things happen. It only meant that he was ensuring perfect results for his other client. But the waiting! I was so damn nervous that I had to use the restroom and I had diarrhea. Twice. The good news is that really helped ease discomfort today. I'm glad I got that out of my system beforehand. Try to go poop if you can before your operation!

I had a few bouts of tears. I was very scared and nervous. It was such a new experience and I was totally fearful of what to expect. I was scared about what could go wrong, the pain I would feel, going under, etc. My sweet boy was there to hold my hand all morning.

Soonafter, Dr. Williams came in. We discussed my goal size and he let me know that because I am more petite and do not have a great deal of breast tissue that he will go as large as he can while still looking natural. The risks for bottoming out and other complications become greater when you go larger. I agreed and trusted him without any hesitation. He marked me up with a purple pen which was a bit saddening just because I felt a little overwhelmed by things starting to become real. But he shook my hand and promised he would take great care of me. I smiled and my partner and I both knew everything was going to turn out great.

After a bit more waiting we met the OR Nurse and the Anesthesiologist. They were both so nice and very comforting. When they came in, though, I couldn't hold back the tears. It was just so much waiting and anticipating laying in that hospital bed and I broke down. So with that, I got three injections into my IV to calm to the nerves. I don't know the drug name, but it sure worked. I had a smile back on my face and was so loopy. Then I was rolled out of my room and into the OR! I remember not wanting to let my partners hand go.

In the OR, I was transferred to a different bed that compressed by calf muscles. And I think it was heated? I'm pretty sure that was for continued circulation. I just remember seeing bright lights above me and feeling good and the nurses being gentle with me while scrambling around. I didn't count down. I didn't really do much of anything but drift away into the abyss.

Then, BOOM! I was awake. The first thing I said was that my throat hurt. I was intubated apparently. Then I felt the pressure which felt like I had weights sitting on my chest. It was hard to get a deep breath, but I certainly did NOT have an issue breathing. It was just tight, sore and swollen. I was in tears again from the anesthesia which is totally normal. I don't recall everything else from that point but I did make it back into my chair and was sitting upright.

I was given ice, cold water and a few more IV injections for the pain. I was feeling about a 6/10 and I have a very high pain threshold. I didn't feel nauseous at that point. Just sore. It was so good to see my baby. The moment he walked back I felt so much better.

I slowly got up and was assisted to the wheelchair. Still drugged up and loopy, I was most concerned with the size of my implants! The nurses giggled and said I had 450 cc's on each breast. Moderate Plus profile. Silicone. Under the muscle. Incision was in the fold. I just smiled and thanked all of the beautiful women who helped me. I was so thankful to have been so cared for. These were some of the sweetest, most gentle nurses I have ever seen. I felt loved.

Once I got in the car I felt a bit nauseated but not awfully so. He was driving very cautiously so as not to hit any bumps. Getting out of the car was very painful and walking to our front door was a bit hard. But we did it! We made it home.

Night 1

I started by slowly shuffling towards the bedroom; being careful not to bounce. My partner assisted me since I was still unstable. I sat on the bed and scooted back, but he had to help me get my legs up. I couldn't use my arms very easily at all, ESPECIALLY those pectoral muscles. We use those muscles so much more than I ever would have realized.

I was in and out of sleep for a while and then became heavily nauseated. I had him sit me up in bed because I was going to vomit. And I did. A lot. It smelled awful; like just pure chemicals. I then got to the potty and was able to urinate. My urine also smelled horrible.

I was up and down a few times. Every time I stood up and moved around, I had to vomit. I threw up three times. It was just the anesthesia and drugs leaving my body. It was definitely uncomfortable though because all the hunching over my peuk pan was hard on my breasts.

It was just a long night with lots of nausea and vomiting. I finally fell asleep after taking my pain pills. I didn't take any of my medication for spasms though and I've been doing great without it.

I slept fairly well. On and off, of course. My bf slept in the other room and came in every 4 hours to give me pain pills and get me to the toilet. Melted my heart!

In the morning I felt sore, but I knew I would be. Getting up and out of bed was tricky but as long as you move slowly and listen to your body, you'll be just fine. I didn't get sick this morning which is LOVELY because I probably got most of that anesthesia out. My urine still smelled, but it felt so good to go! No poops yet, but I haven't gotten much into my stomach that's stayed down.

I am laying in bed now and have gotten two eggs down. My bf made them with some olive oil and balsamic (my fav). I am not nauseous and I've kept the food down! Now I'm focusing on drinking gatorade and water. Lots of it!

I just took my antibiotic. I know I've mentioned this before but I almost always get yeast infections with the antibiotics. I also took a Fluconazole (Diflucan) Pill incase I do develop a YI. So far I dont feel any symptoms. Pray for me that I don't get an infection because they are so awful! :-( I also took my probiotic pill since I got the green light to resume my normal diet and vitamin regimen.

My breasts aren't in pain, only the pectoral muscles surrounding them. I have t.had spasms or any shooting pains. But I did have some sloshing around during the night. It was bizarre! That is just antibiotic fluid and is normal. I feel like a water balloon. Haha!

I'm really sleepy right now, darlings. I'm going to go move around a bit and use the bathroom and come lay back down. I'll update you very soon and I will post photos! :-) Thank you, all of you, for being so amazing and supportive. Xo

Morning of Day 1

All bandaged up!


Lovely Lady Humps!

Smooth Sail on Day 1

Well, ladies, I made it the first day! I woke up the most sore and couldn't lift myself up or move my arms much at all. When I finally got up and out of bed (after I ate something) I was able to walk around and get the blood flowing again. It felt great, but only in brief intervals. Anything in excess of that made me a little lightheaded and nauseous. I know I didn't keep much of anything in my stomach yesterday but I kept all food down today and I'm starting to regain energy. I had eggs, bananas, smoothie, bread, plain turkey sandwich, goldfish, and other light snacks. No coffee yet. :-)

I rested in our Ikea chair for most of the day with my legs propped up. I was in and out of sleep all day and felt more tired than anything. My pain was minimal! I did take my pain meds; just not my Vicodin (not even at all). I'd say my worst pain now is underneath my breasts when I stand up. There is a lot of pressure there. I'm also a little bit itchy underneath my bandages. I have to keep these babies on until Wednesday! I hope I can make it that long! I am so eager to see what these babies look like now. I feel so busty! I cannot wait to see what size I turn out to be. I hope a D!

I'm in bed now and feel a little gassy but took some Gas - X for that. I haven't gone #2 but probably won't for a few days. I have my peuk bowl next to me in case but I think I'm done with that. It's been several hours now.

Love all ya ladies! You make this transition even more fun with all your comments and support. I have loved getting to know you all. Such beautiful people. I hope everybody is feeling well and happy and peaceful whether you are recovering, thinking about a BA, or days before your big day! Just enjoy this moment cause it's all yours. Xo

Still Waiting on Bandage Removal

Photo Time!

I think I will be a full D Cup!

Day 2

Easy peasy! Today was full of minimal movement, lots of resting and sleeping and being cozy. My babe woke me up every 4-6 hours and gave me my pain meds and antibiotics throughout the day and has cooked me meals! So sweet. And when he woke me up this morning I took a sponge bath to clean things up if ya know what I mean. It felt really good to get washed up and I felt good as new. My appetite has also been improving today and I've held everything down. :) Literally I watched anime all day and got up to walk around for a few minutes every hour or so. I am able to sit down to use the potty (no #2 yet), and get back up on my own. I can't sit up on my own and need help getting in and out of bed and probably won't for a few more days.

I've been sleeping alone all perked up in bed and my partner has been staying in our guest bed with the puppy (so he doesn't accidentally tap me in his sleep). We have a chihuahua/Papillion mix and he is an ANGEL. We put a gate up outside my door so he can't get in and jump on the bed. The little babe has been sleeping outside my door with me in perfect sight. I love him.

My breasts are sore on the bottom along my incisiom mostly with occasional tingling... like a tickle almost on the right breast. I'm not having any horrible pains but I'm also on my Meds still. Just want to stay on top of those so I don't start getting really uncomfortable.

I am so excited for my post op on Wednesday. I haven't seen my breasts since Friday!!!! I miss them. Just a few more days!

Time for Walking Dead and Homeland!!! Gotta go!!!! Big hugs to all of you beautiful people xo

Day 3

Today was rough. I woke up with a pounding headache and massive nausea. I was able to get out of bed and to the restroom (still no #2), but felt miserable. I tried laying back down in bed to rest more, but the nausea persisted. My bf made me some breakfast, and I know he tried so hard and the kitchen smelled SOOO good, but it was also making me sick. The sight of the food actually made me more nauseous. I tried eating a few bites (they were cute little pancake bites- adorable). I asked him to help me stand up because I knew I was about to vomit. And I did. I threw up twice and then felt a lot better. I figure it was the Hydroxycodone (pain meds) that I had been taking half doses of. From that point, I said I wouldn't be taking any more of those pills. I took Tylenol for the rest of the day and all was well, though my nausea did persist.

I haven't had pain in my breasts so much as I have pain in y BACK. Ladies, if you can, make sure you have a recliner chair for post-ba. I wish I had one. I think that since I am using so many new muscles now since I can't use my arms that it's causing my back pain. Not to mention I have a heavy chest to get used to now. I have been using lots of pillows to stay perked up in bed, and it does help, but it's not the best. I think a recliner chair would be so dreamy. I am dreaming of cracking my back or getting a rough deep tissue massage... omg...

My breasts feel great! I am so ready to get my bandages taken off on Wednesday! They feel so large and pretty and I have peeked a few times, but haven't seen the full picture yet. Just a few days! I am thankful that I have had minimal breast pain, and that Tylenol has been working perfectly well for the pain I do have.

I have noticed a bit of depression/irritability after coming off those pain meds. I had a few moments of moodiness which isn't really like me. It may be cabin fever, but I think those drugs are just super harsh and am glad to be off them.

I went for a short walk today to get moving and drank some smooth move tea. I hope to get my bowel moving soon. I am incredibly bloated and I need to poop!

I had my Dr. call in some meds for the nausea since it was so harsh today. They have been helping a lot, and have minimal to no side effects.

Soooooo ready for Wednesday!

Day 4

A sigh of relief today was... well, in regards to surgery. I had a bit of a long day otherwise (on personal level).

I had very limited nausea with the worst of it being in the morning. I did have an increased appetite all day... I had some ice cream and a healthy breakfast! And some cheese and crackers, too, during our movie night. It felt so good to eat since I had been so... not hungry this week.

As for a combination of drinking lots of water, gatorade, smooth move tea, stool softeners, AND a laxative pill, I finally went #2. I had a few visits to the bathroom but I honestly feel so much better. Lighter. Healthier. I need to keep drinking water and flush out these yucky remainders of medicine.

I think it's sort of ironic that through all of the planning I did to manage breast pain; my breasts have been the very least minimal. I've combated the worst nausea, upset tummy, loss of appetite, headaches, and back pain than I could ever imagine. My breasts feel great so far and I'm thankful for it!

My blues have gotten better. It helps to get up and move around, but be warned, I was easily tired today after walking around the mall a bit. Give your body time to heal. Nap when it tells you to. Sleep in when you can. Eat quality ingredients. I think most of my blues come from being so restricted. I love to get out and run or dance or clean and since I cannot do those things right now; I think it's hard not to have an outlet for physical exercise. I can't wait to even go on a long walk soon... for now I just move around when I can and breathe through my battles of being antsy.

Tomorrow is the big reveal! Pictures coming... though I cannot guarantee they will look as good as some, all I am hoping for are healthy breasticles that are on the right track!

Lots of love to you dolls. Xo

Post - op Day 5

Post - op Day 5

Still bloated.
Trying to adjust to better posture with these breasts!

Since photo didn't attach to last post.... grrrr

I give up!

I'll try and post again later.

Halllllpppp :(

I was sitting here writing my Grandma a letter and drawing Christmas Trees and BAM.....

My right breast, by the way, is completely numb. I have literally NO feeling whatsoever... makes me really sad. Trying not to think about this right now as things as still new. Right now I am having prickly, shooting pains in what I think is my nipple. They are not exactly painful, but the surprise is what startles me and makes me hunch over.

My left breast is doing slightly better in that it is sensitive just as usual, and only numb near the incision site; with minimal bruising. I have a slight ripple... or lump... bump.. something on my left breast along the side. You will see it in pictures. I think it is because my skin still needs to stretch out to allow the implant to settle more. I swear, if that "ripple" stays, I will be let down. Please let me know what you ladies think about it.

My PS oddly enough said I don't need a band, I don't need to massage (unless I want to), and I don't need to do anything but take it easy. Next post-op is in 7 days.

I just took Tylenol and my last antibiotic.... please pray that I don't suffer from these odd pains much longer!

I just adore each and every one of you and am sending love and light to all of you today and always. Let's stick together.

Loss of Nipple Sensation...


I guess I am getting a little paranoid in this moment about my right breast being so numb. Do you think I am going to regain sensitivity over time? I had my incisions in the fold of my breast; not near nips. Could anybody with similar experience let me know if they have any advice about this? Just needed to vent... KISSES.

Can I ask you guys something?

Today at my post-operation appointment to remove my bandages... my Dr. was not there to see me. I had my appointment with his NP. Does anybody know if this is common practice? I guess we were a bit confused because we paid $7k+ for his expertise and I thought he would want to see this big reveal of his work today... Please advise...

Day 9

Hi friends!

I appologize for my absence these past few days. I've been feeling so much better! Let's see... it's been about 9 days now since I had my breast augmentation. Since about Thursday I have been feeling amazing! I am completely off all medications, having normal bowel movements (I also am weighing 125.8 as of today, so if each 450 cc implant weighs 1 lb. each... that's about right), I still have a bit of tummy bloat but it is subsiding. I am able to get up on my own and lift my body up from bed or the couch with minimal pain. I have resumed chores like folding laundry, wiping up mess, vacuuming, and dusting but am extra careful to go about it slowly. I am dying to run but have a few weeks before I may do that. As far as breast pain I have very little soreness in the morning and sometimes throughout the day time. I have taken one Tylenol as needed when that persists. They are still shaped like torpedos sometimes nd are very round. I need to get you ladies some pics soon! I will upload some soon. I am happy with them overall but have noticed a few uneven spots that I will point out to you all and the doctors later in photographs. I'm trying not to fret too much about shape as it is only 9 days post and they have a lot of settling to do yet. My next post op is next Wednesday.

I hope all of you had a beautiful Thanksgiving and that you created new and wonderful memories with your loves. Did any of you do some Black Friday shopping? Get anything good? We are heading to the movies to see Hunger Games.

I'll check back soon and get in touch with everybody who commented on my page.

Big hugs and mad love + respect to all!

I've missed everybody! Please read this update and let me know what you think...

Hello again, my beautiful friends and to everybody who has been following my story here on Real Self.

I took a few days to hang low and relax over Thanksgiving and was able to enjoy some knitting, great movies, family time, time with the dog, and decorating our Christmas tree. This is such a wonderful time of year... so thankful for everything. I hope all of you had and continue to have a warm holiday; no matter what you believe in or choose to celebrate. I just wish you warmth, love, happiness, contentment, joy, good health...

With my post yesterday, there isn't too much to elaborate on as far as my overall recovery. I will just follow up on everything to make sure I have you all as up to date as possible.

ONE WEEK POST OP (give or take a few days)
- Having normal bowel movements.
- Bloating and gas completely cleared.
- Off all medications; not in any pain nor having nausea.
- Able to get up out of bed on my own, able to gently lift up with my arms, able to sit down easily.
- Able to take a deep breath without any pain at all.
- Chest tightness has greatly subsided.
- Able to clean lightly, reach both arms over head, go about normal activities (GENTLY!)

Breast Specific:
- Breasts are sitting high-up and appear "torpedo" like in their shape.
- Minimal swelling; if any.
- Bruises are turning yellowish-green, which indicates final stages of healing.
- Strips over scars are not causing any trouble and are waterproof which allows for safe showering.
- Breasts feel hard. They do not bounce. They are not squishy.
- Breasts do not hurt to touch. They only are painful for me in the mornings when I have just woken up, but it improves as I move about during the day.
- Nipple on left breast is sore, but I have feeling in it. Areola and breast on left size are still somewhat numb, but that improves each day.
- My right breast and nipples are still 100% numb.
- I am entering the week before my period, so the nipple and breast pain will most likely be heightened.

- Battling the fact that I deeply fear having lost all feeling on right breast. I get very sad about this because I assume it will never come back. I pray that time heals me, but know in my heart that it may not.
- I have a "lumpy" look on the side of my left breast, and I don't know if this will settle down as my breasts D&F, or if this is... a poor breast augmentation.
- Along with that ^^^ I have this totally odd looking and uneven "slant" on the inner side of my other breast that is also causing anxiety. It doesn't look natural. I have been in tears over this because I feel like it could be permanent? My bf and I examined it, and think that maybe because the skin in between each of my breasts is pulling SO TIGHT that it may be causing that slanted look on the inner edge of my breast. \
- Adjusting to having heavy breasts in general. I am happy with them overall, but am feeling a little blue when I look in the mirror and see these rough edges on my breasts. It was my first augmentation, and I guess I was hoping I would have clean, smooth lines like SOOO many of you lovely women on here.
- I am not complaining... I am thankful to have come out of surgery in good health. I realize there are worse things that could have happened. I am allowed to be sad, though.

I sent a question in to the docs here on RealSelf for professional input, and will let you know what they say (about my misshapen breast). I would love to hear about if any of you have experienced something similar or know anybody who has.Don't worry about hurting my feelings by agreeing that something doesn't look right. I already know it doesn't look perfect. I would love any advise, support, encouragement, insight, but mostly just honesty about what may be going on....

Here are my photos....


Thank you to everybody who looked at my photos today. I think what I have going on is a pockey issue. From what I have collected from people on Real Self and the Web, my PS didn't dissect my pocket correctly and I will likely need a revision.

Right now I feel mad. I feel let down. I feel angry that I spent so much money on a PS that I trusted, but whom didn't deliver. And maybe it will get better. Maybe my PS will have uplifting words. But right now it seems quite likely that I'll need a revision to smooth out that ugly slant. I'm just so... UGH! All that money?! My breasts were fine before this. I should have saved that money to travel Europe.


Hello Queens of Realself!

I have been taking it easy for a few and just patiently waiting for my appointment. Can't really do much worrying about my breast since I can't change anything! Just riding the relaxation wave until I can get answers. Overall, I like my results and am trying to focus on the good in this situation. Stress and worry really tear you apart and none of us need that. Thank you for being so understanding everybody! And the support, my goodness! I feel so cared about. Thank you all!

I am feeling AWESOME! I am starting to sleep on my side, even! Without pain! Feels amazing. :) Not too much else has changed since my last real update. Breasts still sitting high and tight.

Random question... do any of you work in retail or food industry?

A response from the Docs on RealSelf regarding my "slanted breast"......


You have a significant irregularity in the curvature of the inframammary portion of your implant pocket; much more significant on one side. This will unlikely improve with time. Now is the time to fix, not later. Massage, or other things like bras, bands, tape, etc.will not make this better. Terribly sorry about this, but at least it can be made better.

Best of luck."

- Gerald Minniti, MD, FACS
Beverly Hills Plastic Surgery

...... REALLY. :(

When I called my PS' office yesterday:

I had emailed them the night prior and requested to be seen sooner because I really needed some answers like... immediately. The next morning I received a call from the office but they didn't leave a voice mail. (I was running errands and didn't see the call until later).

They called back later in the afternoon before close, and I was grocery shopping and didn't see the call. When I got home, I called immediately. She said, "I left you a voicemail telling you to come in anytime today... we were waiting to hear from you." Well you can imagine my deepest frustrations given that I had no voicemail from their office (but yet it worked when my mom called earlier that day). I was shocked. I was told that my original appointment was still open and that the PS would see me then.

I was told that my misshapen breast was nothing to worry about and that things are still early. I felt so... belittled. I have a genuine concern that is gravely worrying me. I really felt like my needs were not only belittled, but just shrugged off! COME ON! DO YOU SEE MY BREASTS. The Docs on the questions forum on RealSelf have even pointed out a very clear mishap that WILL require a revision.

I am frustrated with how I was treated. I would have liked to feel more compassion from the office.


Post Op #2 (2 Weeks Post BA)

Hi everybody!

Just had my appointment. So... I first spoke with the NP whom has been tracking my progression. She took photos and told me to do massages if I would like to try and promote the breasts to settle, but that it isn't required and the breasts will settle on their own either way. When I pointed out the slant she didn't seem concerned. She said my breasts were still swollen, riding his and my skin was still tight. We knew this already, so I nodded in agreement but was still worried about the slant.

Dr. Williams stepped in and he didn't seem alarmed either. I asked specifically about the slant and he said that it's "still early yet," and to "give it a few more weeks to allow the breasts and skin to settle and drop more." He acted like the slant was normal. I asked if it was a pocket issue and he said it wasn't. He assured me that when I was on the operating table and sitting upright that I had no asymmetry and everything was smooth.

That was it! It all happened so fast. I booked my next post op for two weeks out exactly and was on my way.

When I called my mom she said many doctors won't bring the idea of revision up this soon anyway they need to wait for the breasts to heal before reoperation. She said it's a possibility that he will wait a while to see if it improves and then will come about the idea of future surgeries. She also said to trust him. That he is the professional and if he said I need time- I do. I trust him but I am skeptical. I worry about that slant and what will come of it. It for now, I'll focus on healing.

Thoughts? Should I have been more assertuve?

Taking a break to share some inspiration...

Week 2 [14 Days] Post Op Progression Photos

Here they are, ladies. My 14-day post-op photos. As you see, I am starting new trends with my slanted breast. I could say I went in for it to turn out this way... ;)

I wanted to demonstrate the shape of my breast for everybody to see. Pushing the breast in any direction does not change it's shape. The slant remains. I have been told by my PS that this is not permanent. Though still skeptical, I am remaining positive. Time is key as is patience and massive amounts of self love.

I went to a holiday party last night and my girlfriend asked to see my breasts. We went into the bathroom all giggly, and I showed her. I was sort of reserved at first, thinking all she would see is the slant that I have been losing sleep over. BUT NO! She gasped with a huge smile and squealed, " WOW!!!! THOSE LOOK AMAZING! THEY ARE HUGE! WOW!" I sort of stepped back in shock as it was not exactly the response I anticipated. I had to snap out of it! I had to realize that so many other things could have gone wrong and that my breasts were still.... my breasts! They will always be a part of me no matter what happens. I should never let any sort of aesthetic flaw define my confidence. I know that slant is noticeable and it shows, but I need to practice being confident in it... because I refuse to settle for the contrary. I don't want to fall victim to my awkward breast.


Was the surgery worth it?

Worth it.

I really love my breasts. I love the fullness, the size, the perkiness. I feel like they are a part of me now and they make me happy. Though imperfect... I am pleased with them. I know they will improve over time and even then they will not be perfect. I just feel more womanly, more curvy and voluptuous. Coming from a girl who used to be an A-cup... having big breasts feels amazing and I already have gained confidence in myself. Man, I feel like a woman!

My RealSelf friend, SAMPIVA, did an extremely generous thing for me- LOVE TO YA GIRL!

My friend Sampiva, whom many of you may know on RealSelf, reached out to her own doctor regarding my breast with the slant. This is what he said:

"This is not common but I’m sure if you saw a picture of her in 3 or 4 weeks, the noticeability of it will be much less, or gone. Just today I saw a gal I operated on 11 days ago that had some flattening along the outside of one breast right after surgery and by the time she came to her appt today, even she said it is much less noticeable. Dr Williams is a good guy and great surgeon and I am sure he is telling her that it is still early after surgery and most things settle over time.


Eric Mariotti, M.D."

I just think that was the sweetest thing in the world, and it melted my heart. THAT IS WHAT TRUE FRIENDS ARE FOR. Beautiful deed. Thank you again, Sampiva!

Hello my dear friends!

Soooo a few days went by and I just wanted to check in! Things are well. I am in no pain at all- I am surprised how smooth things are going in terms of pain. I thought I was going to be hurting more than this, but no!

I am sleeping so well lately. I do not have to use pillows or extra blankets or anything for support. I can lay completely flat, I can roll onto my left/right sides and sleep for a long while with no breast pains. I can reach above my head completely and can even crack my back now, too. :)

I have been massaging my breasts and I am not sure how much it is helping my situation, but at least I feel like I am doing my part. As far as numbness in my breast, I still have numbness in the lower half of each breast; with the right breast being more numb. The right nipple is still completely numb, but it feels sore to the touch. I get sore nips when I am PMS'ing, so I assume that is the cause. I am due any day now, so that makes sense! I have noticed a slight gain in feeling on both breasts, though, which is just the news I was hoping for. It makes me smile to see and feel positive changes each day.

Every day really does make a difference. Each day gets better and better and just like so many of you have told me- be patient and be kind. You are so right. I remind myself every day just to breathe.

I hope everybody is staying WARM and bundled up tight! We are having some COLLLLLLLLLD weather out in California, and whenever I go outside my breasts ache as my muscles contract from the bitter weather! It actually burns after a while, so I am wearing layers upon layers upon layers. ;)

I AM SOOO EAGER TO EXERCISE! I want to hike and dance and do yoga! I am hoping to do so after a week or so... what do you think?

Lots of love to each of you. May your day be filled with love and happiness! XO

Finally getting that heart rate up!

Hi beauties,

Finally walking at an incline and breaking a sweat. I feel better already, holy smokes! Especially with my period due... I've got major tension build up that I needed to exhaust. Exercise is so good.

Coobie Bra: 5 Stars

Happy Hump day, loves!

I wanted to post a photo or two of my Coobie bra in white lace. This is my favorite post-op bra by FAR. The straps are thin, pretty, and allow for a more delicate and feminine look. The Genie bra, for example, has thick straps that feel matronly and ugly (HOWEVER the Genie bra is VERY cozy and supportive).

The Coobie bra (www.Coobiebra.com) comes in all sorts of different colors and designs. I chose a white lacy one with inserts, and a plain black one with inserts. I have LOVED these bras and have been wearing and washing them since my BA on 22 November. They wash very well (as do Genie bras), and can be tossed into the washer/dryer with your other clothes. You can put the inserts in for added protection or leave them out- whatever your heart desires.

Coobie Bra: 5 stars
Genie Bra (pics to follow): 4 stars

Taking it back to the beginning...

This was taken RIGHT when I had my bandages removed at one week post-operation.

Nearing 3 Weeks Post-Op

And here are my photos at almost three weeks post op (three weeks tomorrow). Time is flying by and they truly feel like a part of me now! Things were hard at first, and I felt really indecisive about my breasts. Time has gone by and they continue to heal each day now, and I am seeing for myself that it truly gets better with each passing day.

I have occasional soreness in my breasts, primarily my right breast, on and off throughout the day, but it is never anything painful. My right nipple is still 100% numb, and the lower half of my breasts of both slightly numb still. Other than this, they are slowly gaining sensitivity (at least on my left side), and are becoming more squishy each day. The slant is still showing on my left side, but I have chosen to ignore it for now.

I am on my period now, so my nips are suuuuper tender and sore to touch. Everything is heightened on my period, so I know things will pass.

Everything is going well, and I am glad to be feeling normal again. I love that my clothes still fit, and all I really need are new bras later on once I can wear under wire. I feel great, and am back on the grind.

I hope everybody is happy and well. We went to see some Christmas lights the other night, and it was so peaceful and soul-warming. This is truly the best time of the year. I hope everybody gets to spend their holiday the way they want to and that it brings you the happiness each of you deserve.

Love to all of you, Soul Birds.

Surprise... my pics didn't post.

Not playing this game today! Will try again later. :)

Have you been naughty or nice?

Week 3 Post- Op Photos

A fabulous question to ask at your consultations with PS:

A great question I would like to point out is regarding revisions! Ask your PS how he would handle a revision surgery if it was needed. Would he or she cover surgery costs? Anesthesia? Ask all the questions you can about this! In talking with my friend LilPeach, we agreed this is an excellent topic to bring up before you make any final decisions. :)

One Month Post-Op Updates! Hi dolls!

So sorry I have been MIA lately! The holidays have kept me SUPER busy and I haven't had much time to sit down and really update everybody.

Lets see, though... one month post-op... how am I feeling? I FEEL GREAT. I cannot believe how quickly time has been FLYING BY! It seems like yesterday that I was waking up sore and in pain; hardly able to move around alone. Those days are over and I am doing a lot better now!

Some things I would like to point out right now are that my breasts are REALLY softening up at this point. I can squeeze them, massage them, and really treat them like normal breasts now without any pain whatsoever. They are not painful to touch, and I do not have morning breast pain. I understand this is a hit or miss depending on who we are and how our bodies heal, but I really have been lucky in that I do not have pain at this point in my recovery.

When I massage my breasts it actually feels good, as though I am working out tension. I have the slant still in the lower quadrant, but I think it softens each day to be honest. It is not as harsh of a line since the beginning of my journey. When massaging, I am careful to be very gentle and not to tug or put too much pressure down towards my incisions. I listen to my body and I stop if I start to feel pain.

I still have zero feeling/sensation in my right nipple and lower quadrant of my breast. I feel pressure, however, but not the sensation that nipples naturally possess. I hope and PRAY that this is not permanent for me, and I am just trying to remain positive in my thinking that the feeling will come back over time. May the nipple Gods be good to me!!!! :)

My left breast has complete feeling now! Not over the top, not lacking; just right! I am glad for this. I call it my "working boobie" and my man knows the other breast is OIC at the moment. *chuckles to self.*

I took my scars off about a week ago on my own. The steri-strips were super yucky. They were discolored, loose, and sticky. I soaked in a hot shower and peeled them off gently; avoiding using any soaps or shaving creams near that area. I dried the incision sites off completely and used some cotton padding from a CPR kit that I had and covered the incisions using tape to secure the pads down. This helped to keep my Coobie bras from rubbing the areas and causing irritation. I did this for a week or so and now they have healed even more (since exposure to Oxygen), and I can wear a bra normally now without them getting irritated. I don't even think the scars are that bad! They were actually a lot better looking than I had imagined, so that is a blessing. They are short and pretty thin and pink right now. I will be trying some scar treatments soon. Does anybody have recommendations?

I went for a jog the other day, and I cannot say that I recommend it. Though my PS did say it was okay, he said not to overdo it. I see why now. The bouncing that you experience naturally from your gate as you run is actually kind of harsh on the implant pockets. I put in about a mile and a half at a slow gate, and then brought it back down to an uphill walk. I was holding my breasts as I ran (I was the only one in the gym), as I was super paranoid to hurt the pockets. It felt amazing to run, but I think doubling up on sports bras, or just not running at all for a while longer is in my best interest.

I LOVE that I can sleep on my sides, stretch, crack my back, reach over my head, and do all of my normal activities just as I did before.

My most recent post-op was yesterday. He said my breasts were looking GREAT. We did photos again, and he directed me to come back in one month. His PA (who saw me first) had said that I will drop more over the next few weeks, and that I am still riding high. I was really happy to hear that. :)

Here are some pictures of my incision sites.


So, here are my promised one month post-op photos!

If anybody has any questions or anything, please let me know! Not much has changed, really, except the overall look and feel of my breasts improving on a day-to-day basis. I am here to help anybody, though, if there is anything you are wondering about that I might be able to help with!

I hope everybody is having a beautiful holiday season! Hug your loved ones and cherish these memories! Love each of you, and the wonderful beings each of you are.

Registering Mentor Implants

Just went to go verify my Mentor Smooth Round Moderate Plus Profile Silicone Gel Implants on Mentor's website. It was super easy! Just needed my serial number for each implant. The confirmation emails are sent to your email account and you're set to go! Don't forget to get yourself registered!


Breast Implant Displacement Massages

Hi beautiful loves,

Here is a YouTube video which demonstrates the types of massages that are great for implant displacement. I thought it was really helpful. But remember to ask your PS first. :)


Slept on my Stomach last night! And the night before!

I woke up this morning drooling on my pillow, and hugging the bed as I used to do before my BA. I had to pause for a moment and let it register in my brain that I was sleeping on my stomach! And in no pain at all... My breasts were soft and not uncomfortable to lay on and I was sleeping like a baby (clearly)! I caught myself doing this for a few nights, and I am totally okay with it. :)

This week I am approaching 5 weeks post-op. Boy, does it feel like more. It would be so awesome if my right nipple decided to wake up! :p Patience, patience, patience... every day brings more and more improvement. I love my breasts very much and always have, always will.

I hope all of you had a beautiful holiday season! It is sunny and beautiful here in California, and I have to admit- I MISS THE SNOW!

I will post photos tomorrow.


Five Weeks!

I cannot believe it has been five weeks since I had surgery! Time has FLOWN by. I hope everybody is recovering from the holiday craziness and that Santa treated your spirits.... and wallets nicely. :) May all beings be happy and healthy and free!

I think I've put on a couple pounds with all the Christmas candies and treats over the holiday. Certainly feeling a bit frumpy at the moment, and am looking forward to potentially getting some more run time in and cleaning up my eating habits now that the holiday excitement is coming to a close. I definitely don't love the sluggish feeling when you know you've indulged in perhaps one beer too many! :p Anybody with me?

Soooo I am finding that things have been very steady and my ability to bring anything really exciting or different to the table since my last update is a bit hard since there haven't been any major changes.

PHYSICALLY: I did go for a run the other day. I doubled up on sports bras and had GREAT protection with that. It felt really good to even get a light jog in, and the extra support was definitely necessary. I am finding that twisting, reaching, stretching, and using my pectoral muscles is not painful in any way at this point. Before I would feel that I had a limit as to how far I could push my body, but now I can move my body in any way with ease. Sleeping on my stomach has been a huge improvement, and am spending more time laying flat on my belly than I had since surgery. It feels amazing to be able to toss and roll around in bed and not have any sudden pains that wake me up when I am sound asleep. I have zero "morning pains" and don't even feel a stiffness at all. I have noticed that when I go to touch my breasts they are often times cold to touch. Maybe it is just harder for blood to circulate through my breasts at a rate which will keep them warm? They are almost always much colder than the rest of my body. It's a bit comical to feel like I have ice packs on my chest! HAHA! My breasts feel a bit squishy lately, and my skin is stretching slowly to allow more wiggle room for the implant. I LOVE feeling like they are FINALLY starting to D&F (drop + fluff). They are still firm, don't get me wrong, but they are less and less torpedo-like in their shape and they bounce a bit too at this point in my recovery (YAYYYY!) My right nipple is still numb. I massage my breast and nipple area to try and make that re-connection with the nerves in my breast, and am just taking that day by day. As far as my left breast I have normal sensation there and all is well with the world. :D The slant that I had in the earlier stages of my recovery seems to smooth out more and more each day, and the changes that I see in photos weekly brings me great optimism that things will fully smooth out by the time I anticipate full final results. I was really scared about that at first; thinking I would need a revision so soon. I want all of you to know that if you are experiencing strange edges or bumps along the pocket-line of your implants that most likely it is temporary. Of course, if you feel something strange about your implants' appearance, TAKE IT UP WITH YOUR PS AND PROFESSIONAL REALM, but know that it most likely will improve over time. I have to remind myself so often that two foreign objects were inserted into my breasts and their normal functionality was invaded. Now they are having to adjust to this change and relearn how to work with these large implants in my chest. I have to be patient, but mostly just kind to myself and my body and understand that these changes won't happen overnight.

CLOTHING: I am still wearing my soft Coobie and Genie bras. I probably would be wearing them even if I didn't have to just because they are so darn comfortable. :) My next post-op is the end of January, so maybe I will inquire about under wire bras at that point. Then I will get to go get sized for new bras and see what cup size I truly am. Not going to lie, I am really excited for that part and am hoping to be a full D!

EMOTIONALLY: I feel great. For a few weeks now my implants have really felt a part of me. At no point have I regretted getting implants, as my results now make me feel more womanly and sexy than ever before. I loved my breasts before, but this is just a very empowering and wonderful change and I am so thankful for a positive healing experience. If anything, I am stressing about gaining a few pounds, but only because I worked so hard to lose weight in the first place. I just need to clean up my eating and all will be well.

Alrighty! Time for some pics.
Love to all of you beautiful creatures. You are all such wonderful people and I thank you for following and supporting my journey!

Scar Healing Process at 5 Weeks Post-Op

No scar treatments used at this point.

5 Weeks Post-Op Front View


I haven't been on here in what feels like FOREVER! Just wanted to check in and get some pictures posted for anybody interested. I hope everybody had a lovely New Years celebration! Does anybody have some cool New Years resolutions or fun stories to share? I had delicious wine and finished up the Dexter series with my man- it was perfect. OK, OK, I'll get to those photos. :)

Side Profile at 6 Weeks out

View of both incision sites at 6 weeks out

No scar treatment has been used so far, but I did just order some Kelocote Scar Treatment (http://www.kelocote.com/) from Amazon.com, and am waiting on it to arrive in mail. Will post about my review of that product later on. :)

Week 6 Post-Op

Nothing too new to update....

Still waiting on my right nipple to come back to me! It is still numb! I am growing impatient, but have to repeat the mantra that it will come in time and to practice patience. Well, it is hard to be patient sometimes! Maybe soon they will start to regain sensitivity. :)

Aside from my slant continuing to soften, I haven't had any major changes at all! My breasts still feel hard and firm but have definitely been slowly softening. For example, in the beginning I couldn't even squeeze my breasts because they were so TIGHT and my skin had to stretch out. My breasts looked "torpedo-like" and they were like rocks. Now that some time has gone by (and it feels longer than it truly has been), they are squeezable now and bounce somewhat. I think they are slowly starting to drop as my skin allows for more and more expansion. I am thankful that I haven't had any stretch marks form so far. :)

Still wearing Coobie bras 24/7 because they are so COMFY! As far as under wire bras, I am going to my next Post-Op on the 10th and will ask about starting to wear real bras. I am sure I will be able to wear them now, but I am being lazy as I don't want to graduate from these Coobie bras. The bras have been in the wash at least 10 times now, and are holding up amazingly in case any body was curious about their quality.

As far as exercise goes... I went to yoga the other day and was able to push up off of ground into Downward Dog, Childs Pose, Cobra, and many twisting poses. My breasts did NOT get in the way of any of my poses, and I was able to go through the entire class with zero pain or weird feelings in my chest. I even used pectoral muscles and was okay! Easeeeeeee into it. The only problem was the fact that my cleavage was very evident, and I had to pull my tank top up a few times, but no women care about cleavage in the class as it's nothing to be ashamed of. Ever.

SOOOOOOOOO that is about it this week! I will be out of town soon, but will be sure to update as soon as I can. Thank you everybody for your continued support and all of that love out there. You are all incredible people, and we are so lucky to have this RealSelf family. Big love to all!

Laying on Implants

I forgot to mention how odd it feels to lay (on hard ground) on your stomach. It's not a bad feeling. It's not painful. It's just different. You can feel the implants and the space between them and the ground. I have bigger implants so it's like having a little balloon between my body and the ground. Hey, it makes doing the superman pose to tone your muscles MUCH easier, haha!

Kelo - cote Advanced Scar Treatment Gel: Day 1

Finally got my Kelo- cote gel in the mail; order fulfilled my Amazon.com ($30). The gel is not liquid-y or runny which I LOVE. It's very thick and has a nice consistency. When applied to the skin it should dry rather quickly (apply thin layer), and it should be applied twice a day for best results. It has no weird odor and is clear. Doesn't rub or flake off nor does it leave marks on clothes. Love it so far!

Permission Granted: UNDERWIRE BRAS

I get to wear under wire bras, HOLY MOLY! So excited. :D

At my post-op appointment today with Dr. Williams he confirmed that everything was looking great and would continue to heal! I inquired about starting to wear an under wire bra, and he said 6-7 weeks was the typical time frame that he gives permission to do so. I am thrilled that I get to be professionally sized and get to wear pretty girl bras. That will be a fun adventure at the mall later on! I have to say though that I think Victorias Secret has really gone downhill. Their merchandise seems a bit like it's trying too hard... too excessive with the frill and hearts and "kiss me" underwear. I know they do have some good bras that are simple and elegant, so I will check there. Does anybody have recommendations for some boutiques and shops for a good quality bra? I would be interested to hear.


Secret Girl Code

So I'm at the gym running, right? I look to the treadmill next to me and there is a pretty older blonde woman walking uphill. I notice her gorgeous cleavage and think, "WOW, those are perfect on her and she looks amazing! I have to tell her!" I'm giggling to myself as I write this because how cool would it be if we had a girl code and could signal to other women something like: "Hey, you! You're totally rocking your BA and you look GORGEOUS." I felt somewhat awkward walking up to her and saying, "Your boobies rock!" Haha just kidding. I didn't say anything to her. But honestly, would any of us really be creeped out if another woman was giving us two thumbs up? Nope. Probably not. It's always a great feeling to get compliments. And it feels good to give them, too.

Week 7 Post- Op: TIME IS FLYING!

Hello Ladies,

Here we are- week seven! Almost two months post op. Cannot believe it! :) Things are very well, and very steady for now. No significant changes in appearance or anything and everything from my post last week still is about the same. I was reading about the loss of sensation in the nipple, and I know it is very common. Many doctors say it can take several months up to even a year for feeling to come back. And it is also possible that the feeling will never return. I am hoping every day that it comes back! That is my big thing right now- wanting the feeling to return. Everything else is great and I am getting ready to take two weeks of break to RELAX! I will check in here when I can, but I can't guarantee anything. I hope everybody is happy and healthy and enjoying their journey! Love ya all!

White Lace Coobie Bra (7 Weeks Post-Op)

Here I am wearing my favorite Coobie bra in white lace. It looks distorted because the inserts are somewhat uneven from moving around a lot. Simple fix.


I got an email from Genie Bra (verified website), and they are having a sale... thought I would share. Here is the link: https://www.unitycart.com/geniebra3/cart/GB1714V7.asp.


I have been using Kelo-cote for two days. No visible progress yet, but I do love the product and am feeling optimistic!

Purple Bra from Target ($9.99) Size: 34D

This bra may be slightly too small. I need to have a professional bra fitting. I had this bra from before I got my operation, and I wanted to see if I fill it out... well, no worries there. :p

Remainder of photos for Week 7 Post- Op

Bra Fitting at Victoria Secret (US Sizing)

My mama and I went into Victoria Secret for a bra fitting. It was the first time that I had ever been fitted, so I'll talk a bit about that. They didn't have me take my bra off or anything so no bare breast was shown. The young lady measured over my clothes and took measurements at the top of my breasts, over top of my breasts and at the base of them. The girl there had measured me to be between a 34D and a 32DD. I tried on a demi cup 34D bra that was lined only, not padded. It fit well and I had a lot of pretty cleavage but the front of the bra in (area between my breasts) was raised off of my skin and it should have been sitting g flat all the way around. The 32DD fit perfectly. I'm smaller around my ribcage and found that this bra fit well when put on the loosest setting. The cup size was great and it was a very comfortable bra. The underwire in between my cleavage area was still raided though. I figured it was just the style of that cut of bra and it wasn't a big deal. I didn't buy any bras yet and will actually go back to try on a few more 32DD Bras and see if I like them.

Bra Fitting at Nordstrom

My fitting here was a bit different. I was measured to be filling out bras between 30/32DDDD (32G) and to me that seemed insane. I'm thinking that since the shape of my breasts are round and unlike a naturally large breast that it threw off accurate results of my fitting. She was bringing me horribly aged bras... like huge tan and plain bras that were in no way attractive or elegant. The straps were 1-2" wide and had up to 4 clasps on the back. Ick! I mean, I would love to have huge boobies like that, and I believe I already do... for my body frame. I don't believe I am a true 32DDDD (or a 32 G in US) cup bra and I absolutely don't think I need to wear bras that look 30 years older than what I should be wearing. I have time to wear older bras as I age throughout my life but for now I want pretty and girly bras. Ladies, let this be a warning that all different bras are sized differently and you will get different results from bra fittings. Everything just depends on where you buy from and who measures you and how the bra is styled. I decided that I'll go back to Victoria Secret where I am between a 32DD and 34 D. I can say that for those of us with implants we are shaped a bit differently and just need to keep that in mind. :-)

11 Weeks on Friday

Hi loves! Wow, sorry for such a long delay in my blog. Life calls! I'm enjoying my breasts every day and am so happy! I fill out my clothes, bathing suits, bras and tops out so much better and it feels fantastic. Every woman and man deserve to feel happy with who they are inside and out. For me, my BA has been the cherry on top. I'm so glad I did this.

I can tell you the one big thing that's been constantly changing are the feel of my breasts. They are easier to squeeze, massage, and look less spherical and more like natural breast. Though they are still somewhat high, the process of settling will take a few months yet. I can certainly see and feel the progress in that department.

My one big concern is the (still) lack of sensitivity in my right nipple. The numbness starts with my nipple and spreads below my breast to the crease. It isn't so much on the side of my breast, but just below. My nipple feels sore almost, like PMS sore, but I feel nothing when I lightly touch it. That really bothers me and I hope my nerve wasn't severed in surgery. I'm hoping that my nerves are just working to reconnect and that time is all I need. I'm just taking that day by day.

My scars are still pink; even more so when I am cold. I'm using scar treatment but haven't seen any noticeable changes thus far.

That's about it! I'm happy with them, I just miss my functioning nips. :-)

I'll be back to post some 11 week photos in a day or two so that you may see changes for yourself.

Love & light to all of you~? Thank you for reading my blog.

Incision Scars at 11 Weeks Post using Kelo-cote serum

Victorias Secret Bras: 32DD // VS Bathing Suit: Small

Photos not posting...


32 DD Victorias Secret Bra

More 32DD Victorias Secret Bras





Victorias Secret Swim Suit

Front View

Growing SO frustrated with this website!

Every time I upload pictures from my computer, this website crashes! I am sorry for the spotty posts.





OH. MY. GOSH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! >:{



Hello, beauties!

My OCD is going crazy with how messy those above posts look. I tried and tried to get the photos neatly updated onto my blog, but to no avail. At least they all made it up. If you would like, I can post the information for the bras I am wearing. They are both from Victorias Secret, and can be purchased online.

I'll check in again soon. Please let me know what you guys think! :D

Have a happy day!

Special Inspirational Video for you!

Have a happy day! Love yourself.

Hello sunshines!!!!!

I am so sorry for being so MIA lately! I feel so bad. I just responded to everybody who has left me a comment below- thank you again for your generous and loving comments. I really love this community of empowering people.

I have been very busy with school and life in general that I've sort of forgotten I even had surgery! HAHAH, who am I kidding... I think about it everyday! But my breasts feel more and more a part of me now that I don't focus so much on the fact that I had an enhancement done, but that I now have the size and shape of breast that I always dreamed of. It has been very worth it.

Since it has been a few months since my last post... I will just fill you in on what comes to mind right now, and later on I will include some photos that I am sure will be improved from the last set that I posted on here. :)

Some things I am LOVING!
- Filling out clothing beautifully.
- Feeling happy about my body proportions.
- Having cleavage in tank tops and sports bras.
- Looking very girly in bathing suits.
- The extra boost of confidence that I have when I am walking around.
- The fact that I can now run without any problems or pains.
- The fact that I at least have one properly functioning nipple.
- The fact that the slant on my breast has faded.
- The way my breasts soften more and more each day.
- They feel a part of my natural body now.

Things I could do without:
- My scars are still very pink/red. At a recent consultation with Dr. Williams, I was offered a complimentary Laser Genesis treatment. I have completed one treatment so far, and am hoping they lighten.
- I stopped using Kelocote scar treatment as it did NOT help my scars lighten. Save your money, honey!
- The fact that my breasts, though still getting "softer" and more "squishy" by the day... still definitely feel like an augmented breast. A breast with implants will never ever feel the same as a normal breast, they will always be more round, and they will never have the squishy/bounce of a natural breast. I am finally seeing this for myself.
- My right nipple is still 100% numb. It feels sore when squeezed or poked, but does not have sensation. This is my #1 concern at the moment.
- Augmented breasts do not fill out bras like a natural breast does. Although I have found some cute bras at Victorias Secret, they don't fit perfectly because my breasts are so round. I do have a website that I found that sells bras specifically for women with augmented breasts and I will post that in a moment.
- During yoga, they sometimes keep me from pursuing certain poses and positions that I was easily able to do when I was petite. Also,
- The use of my pectoral muscles (hopping up and down from the counter to reach something/picking things up/steering/clapping) can feel a bit odd. I worry that going rock climbing or water skiing may cause discomfort. Too soon to know.

A few other things:
- I can sleep in whatever position I want with NO problems. Lovely.
- I haven't had any issues getting into old clothes. Blouses, dresses and tops all fit perfectly well now.

Bras Designed for Women with Implants

Here are the websites for two stores that sell bras made just for women with implants (and those who do not have implants, too :-} )

Tonserio: http://www.tonserio.com/.

Le Mystere: http://www.lemystere.com/.

5 Months Post-Op

Wearing Victoria's Secret hook-front bra, size 32DD.

5 Months Post- Op

At five months since surgery, these babies are softening by the day. They are squeezable, somewhat "jiggly" and bouncy.

5 Months Post-Op

Here are the classic side and front views.

I was released from Dr. Williams yesterday! *(And my review of Laser Genesis treatments)*

Hello all of you wonderful people out there,

After being away for many months, I wanted to update everybody with some good photos! I know I promised them a long time ago, so I apologize for the delay, loves.

I saw Dr. Williams yesterday for my final post-op appointment. I am not in my 5-month-threshold since I had my initial BA surgery in November, 2013. The appointment went very well. They took front and side-view photos of me as they have been doing from the start. There haven't been any drastic changes over the past few months, so there wasn't anything really new to report on either end.

You may notice, however, that my scars are still very visible. I guess I am just one of those patients with stubborn skin. I actually have super sensitive skin, and any scars from previous piercings, cuts, burns, etc. have always been pretty pink/red/purple for much longer than average. That is just how my body likes to operate, I guess. I have been undergoing monthly laser treatments called Laser Genesis. My experiences have been really easy and painless. I am receiving the laser treatments through Dr. Williams' office for free which is a really generous and courteous service for them to offer me. I just signed the waiver of consent to receive treatments, and was on my way to start laser treatment! Treatments are averaging around 5-10 minutes at max. You just pop on some UV protection glasses, unhook your bra to expose the scars, and lay back in the chair. I personally do not find Laser Genesis treatments to be painful, or even uncomfortable. I would most closely describe it as a hot, deep-underneath-the-skin pulse. I just feel a very warm to hot sensation in my scar areas that does not cause any pain, but more of just a noticeable warmth. The treatment is in segments, so the laser isn't constantly hitting the scars, but are given in pulses. For example, a few seconds on one breast, then the other, etc. It is brief, and over with before you know it. I have had two treatments so far and have not had any problems. I read about some adverse affects that some patients have gotten such as bumps or blisters. I haven't had anything like that at all. I am not sure if I have noticed a huge difference in the coloration of my scars, but they are gradually lightening up for one reason or another, so I am happy. I will continue to receive the treatments until they tell me I am good to go. I would definitely recommend getting these treatments if you have deep purple/pink scars like myself because I believe that if it is a safe treatment and does not pose a threat to your health that trying anything to relieve the visibility of those stubborn scars is always totally worth it.

The only complaint I have is my numb nipple. Same old story, right!? I know. From my nipple straight down to the crease of my breast is numb; sort of in a triangle shape. I have noticed that slowly and let me emphasize SLOWLY, I am gaining slight feeling in my breast towards the crease and slowly making it's way up. I can feel my fingers running across my breast slightly. By no means, however, is it 100% the way it was before surgery. I am hoping desperately for improvement in the coming months.

In other news... everything else is going beautifully. I am very happy with the size, shape and type of implant that I got. I love the way my clothes are filling out, and how I can wear clothes without a bra and feel girly and feminine. It has really been a worthwhile journey, despite my sad numb nipple.

If anybody has ANY questions, concerns, comments, anything you may want to message me privately- whatever- I am here for you to help however I am able. I am happy to answer your questions and offer the best advice possible. Give me a shout if there is anything anybody needs! Thank you so much for reading and being awesome supporters. RealSelf: you are a fantastic and beautiful community and I am so thankful to have shared with such smart, talented, wonderful people over the past year! I'll be back soon. Wishing you all nothing but the best! Lots of Love!

7 Month Post-Op Update!

Hello everybody!

WOW has it been a while. I apologize to leave any of you hanging if you were following my page. I wanted to give a quick update and just let you know what is going on. I am LOVING my breasts! That's what's up! Love! Not much has changed since my last update believe it or not. My right nipple is still numb HOWEVER I have absolutely starting to slowly-but-surely gain slight feeling in the lower quadrant of that breast which absolutely blows my mind. It's healing! I am staying optimistic that the sensitivity in the nipple will come back, so I am hanging in there! I have posted some photos for you here at seven months post procedure. Some of these bathing suits are new, and i was so excited to get to try them on and really fill them out! I feel great. I am happy. I truly and sincerely hope everybody out there, male or female, are feeling this same happiness. I hope everybody is happy and healthy! Thanks for checking in. If you have any questions, as always, I'm here for you.

Am I really approaching my 10 month mark? HOLY SMOKES.

Hey there, my friends!

It is so nice to get a moment to check in with everybody. It's crazy how life takes you away from the whole world of breast-blogging post-op! :) Before the surgery I would sit and write all the time but now I am out there living and loving my life!

I hope everybody is doing well. I would LOVE to hear from my friends on here and see how everybody has been doing! Message me or leave a comment or something so we can link up, ok?

So, with my one year point coming up in the very near future, I can say with 100% confidence that I am so happy that I got this surgery. Sure, there have been moments where I realize that having small breasts or these large ones really doesn't matter in the end. I was always happy with the body I had; even when I was heavier or had a bad hair day or something. That's the beauty of it all. Being happy and feeling blessed with whatever body you were born with. It serves you, loves you, forgives you and takes care of you day in and day out, so to not care for it just as it is would be silly! That being said, I love my body this way too! It feels great walking confidently and knowing that my choice to get a breast augmentation was my choice alone and I feel beautiful! It is an empowering moment when you realize that you can be confident in the woman you are no matter what you look like throughout your life. Nobody can take that away from you!

My scars are still visible, but I just assume now that I have tough skin that just wants to take it's time to heal, and it is ALL good. I have been continuing to receive laser treatments. They become less and less uncomfortable, and I actually look forward to them. They really are just warm little "dusting" feelings and are nothing to fret over at all. Does laser treatment work? Who knows. Who knows if my progression is due to my own body healing itself or the help from laser. I don't care, really. It gets better all the time, and that is what matters.

I have NO weird edges or unevenness, so all of that drama from the beginning is over, baby! My worries are out the door. My breasts are much more squishy now; like a natural breast, but keep in mind they are NOT identical to a naturally fatty breast. They are definitely more hard, but in a still very appeasing and sexy way. My cleavage is smooth and round but not so apparent that I look "fake." I notice men and women sometimes checking me out, and I don't care what it is they are thinking- I feel great. And if they are admiring them, then bonus.

My right nipple is starting to come back to me! The numbness in the lower quadrant of my breast is very much improved now, and I can feel my finger when I drag it across the surface of my skin. My nipple has slight feeling in it, but not so much a sensational as it was before surgery. I believe in that nipple, though, and I know she will keep getting better! And one day I will say, "Well, hello! I see you've come back to play!" I am just thankful that the nerve wasn't severed during surgery because this is a very important part of my intimate life and having any sensation in that nipple at all eliminates the worry of a permanent loss of any feeling.

Sometimes when I lean over, and look at my breasts in the side of the mirror, there is a slight ripple. I am assuming it is just the muscle over my breasts. Since I have larger implants, and my skin is stretched thin, those ripples are probably always going to be there, and it doesn't bother me. You can't have everything.

Bathing suits can be hard to shop for. I have found that tube-top style tops work best in that they don't look too skimpy, and still keep a little mystery in the picture. It can be hard to adjust, but you'll find what works best for you in time. Same thing with bras. It takes a while to figure out what works best. Right now I am in a Victoria's Secret under wire in size 32DD, but have a few 32D for more cleavage.

My now FIANCE loves my breasts (WE GOT ENGAGED THIS SUMMA)! He thinks they are smokin' hot and is just as excited as I am about them. Lingerie gets a little more interesting now if you know what I mean. Hehehehehe!

What else? Am I missing stuff?

I will post pics soon, I promise.


Sent a THANK YOU card to my surgeon and his staff

Just a little idea that I had...

I wanted my PS and his team to know how much I have appreciated their services from the very beginning. I just wrote a brief note about how happy I am with how things are going, and thanked everybody for all that they have done. If you are one to send old fashioned snail mail, or have a few extra minutes to spare- I am sure your PS would love to hear from you. :)


My one-year mark is in... well... less than one month now! I am going to take lots of pictures and post whatever else there is to say. If anybody has any requests or if I can do anything, please let me know!

15 Months Post-Op! :)

Wearing a Victorias Secret bra in a 32DD. These photos were taken today- one year and three months from my surgery date.

15 Months Post-Op

Day-to-day black bra.

15 Months Post-Op

My nipples are not even (I couldn't tell if they were looking uneven or not). My arms were raised sort of awkwardly to hold my camera. So here you go! Things are looking pretty good! My breasts are completely healed!

15 Months Post-Op!

Here are some of my newer bathing suits. All of them are from Victorias Secret (size Medium on top).

Hi everybody!

I just wanted to say thank you again to everybody who has been keeping up with my review! I have been on a vacation I guess you can say. My fiance and I have set our date to be married! We are getting married in May THIS YEAR! I am so happy! We are having a small, simple wedding with close family, and are really just looking forward to togetherness: with each other but also with our loved ones (and our pup!) I have been keeping really busy with work in the Coast Guard and also going to two separate colleges! I AM EXHAUSTED! :) I am just in a nice period of my life right now where things are just flowing beautifully. I feel full of life and gratitude and I am just happy to be here!

How is everybody doing? I tried to answer some of the questions that were posted here, so if anybody needs anything else or has any other kind of question- I am here! I will check back again this week just to make sure. If I have the ability to help anybody... I will do whatever it takes. Don't be shy!

So, I posted some pictures. Sorry, so overdue, I know. I took them all today. I was in sort of a hurry, so I just wanted to say that if anybody wants me to try a certain thing on like a dress, sports bra, tank top, etc. please let me know. I should probably take a few more nude-top ones just so you can see the scars and maybe a side angle. I can post wedding dress pictures too if anybody out there is interested. Maybe there are other future brides who want an idea of how the new breasticles might fill out a gown? Just let me know.

Not too much has changed. I am still very happy with my breasts, and they have become so much a part of me now that I don't really think about the fact that I have implants. The absolute BEST part is that BOTH of my nipples are 100% back to normal. I have the same sensation in both of them that I did before the operation. SO TO ANYBODY OUT THERE THAT IS NERVOUS BECAUSE THEY CANNOT FEEL THEIR NIPPLE(S): DON'T WORRY! MINE TOOK A WHOLE YEAR TO BOUNCE BACK! Give it time, let your body do it's thing. It has been so amazing seeing what the human body is capable of in terms of healing. It really has blown my mind.

I have been getting a monthly session of Laser Genesis compliments of Dr. Williams. I go in for about 1000 pulses on each breast. The laser doesn't hurt. If anything, it tends to get hot; much like a hot pan is touching your skin. I have to be honest. I don't think the laser treatments do anything. I wouldn't spend a penny to have them done, but because Dr. Williams and his team are being so gracious and offering it to me for free- I am taking advantage. I really have to warn everybody, though, that I don't think the progression of my healing (scars) has been much because of the laser treatments but because my body is healing itself. So to each their own. Go at your own will.

I don't really have much to add other than that I am here to answer questions, post any additional photos/angles that anybody wants to see, and whatever else! Please let me know if you need anything.

Thanks again for reading and sharing with me! I hope you all feel beautiful and empowered no matter what path you take in your BA journey. You are strong. You are capable. You are WOMAN!
San Francisco Plastic Surgeon

TriValley Plastic Surgery Center is located in beautiful Dublin, California. The center is very clean and everybody working there seem very pleasant and friendly. Just a great facility to begin with! Dr. Williams' office is equally as warm and welcoming. Upon walking in for my initial consultation, the receptionists greeted us warmly and were very professional (I went with my partner to all of my appointments). We were handing some forms to fill out and information to read over. After signing my forms and filling out my information, we were sent back to speak with Tracy, Dr. Williams' assistant. Tracy is such a great person, and has really been a joy to work with. She is very personable and fun to talk with. She really made the experience much less stressful and scary because she addressed our questions fully and ensured that all of our needs were met. We talked about my desired look in a breast augmentation, and we were able to look at and feel the different kinds of implants. Shortly after, we were introduced to Dr. Williams! Our first impression of Dr. Williams was that he was very put together and had a very professional presence. He allowed us plenty of time to ask our questions and address our concerns. His responses were thorough, and I felt that I was receiving great professional advice and immediately grew to like him. Dr. Williams, unlike other Plastic Surgeons that I had previously seen, did not make me feel rushed at my consultation. I was given plenty of time and opportunities to chat about everything from A-Z about getting a breast augmentation. I was given an estimate for the BA, and plenty of information to take home and read. After our consultation, I took a few weeks to decide on my surgeon and to book an appointment. In the end, I chose Dr. Williams, but honestly there wasn't much competition with the other surgeons we had previously seen. When I scheduled my surgery date everything was processed with ease, and I thought it was incredibly sweet that they sent me a Starbucks gift card and a card to congratulate me on securing my special day. My pre-op appointment was equally as pleasant. We went over my goal outcomes, and I was asked to bring in photos of what looks appealed to me. I gave my photos to Tracy and she put them aside for Dr. Williams. I brought in different tank tops, bras, and shirts to the pre-op, and Tracy helped me try on different implant sizers to see what looks I felt the best with. It was another great experience and I was excited to get in for my surgery. Surgery day went better than I anticipated. My nurses were BEYOND amazing. I met some incredible women and they were so much fun to talk to while I was waiting in the hospital for my procedure. Of course, any human being would be nervous before surgery, but I felt that the comfort I received from the nursing staff was out of this world. I really appreciated everything the staff did to make my experience go as smoothly as possible. The only downfall to the surgery day was the wait time. I was almost beyond two hours late getting my surgery. That extra time in the waiting room was horrible. My nerves were already all over the place, and having to wait beyond my scheduled appointment time was something I hope I never have to experience again. Of course, everything turned out JUST FINE in the end, but if I could have changed anything about my experience that would be it. I had a smooth recovery, and appreciated the follow-up phone calls that I received from Tracy to make sure I was alright and that I didn't have any issues with my medications. Dr. Williams' nurse was even able to call in some last minute anti-nausea medications. My post-op follow ups since my initial surgery have been going well. At first, I was having some concerns about the appearance of my results soon after the initial surgery. When I went in to be seen, I felt that maybe we could have talked more about why things were looking the way they were. Some of the answers to my questions seemed vague, however, I realize that I was in great hands of professionally trained and educated medical staff and that I needed to trust them. I find that each passing day brings even better and improved results. I am so thankful that everything went well on my surgery day, and that my body is healing well. I am very happy with my results now, and know that things will only continue to improve over time. I highly recommend Dr. Williams for a breast augmentation not only because he is a great human being and plastic surgeon, but his staff are also wonderful and really made my journey a pleasant one.

5 out of 5 stars Overall rating
5 out of 5 stars Doctor's bedside manner
5 out of 5 stars Answered my questions
5 out of 5 stars After care follow-up
5 out of 5 stars Time spent with me
5 out of 5 stars Phone or email responsiveness
5 out of 5 stars Staff professionalism & courtesy
5 out of 5 stars Payment process
3 out of 5 stars Wait times
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