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Well I am feeling like myself again. Finally!!! I am running again which totally helps everything and every one! Haha.

I'm not going to lie. That recovery was tough. I think what made it tough was the fact that I have young kids. It was more emotional than physical in some ways, but the physical pain was no joke for me! Especially the nerve pain I got 2 weeks after. All the muscle pain was gone but the nerve pain was crazy!!! Like shards of glass stuck in my skin around my ribcage. So awful. But that is pretty much gone now.

I had a lift on my left side. I'm not too happy with the way my areola looks right now. Hopefully things will fade and I won't notice how uneven it is around the nipple. But I do appreciate that my nipples line up with each other. My left breast is definitely bigger than the other. When I breast fed my babies my left was always bigger hence the need for the lift so I'm guessing I had more breast tissue. I don't notice in clothing thankgoodness! But taking these after pictures tonight there is such a glaring difference. I wish my body was normal to begin with! I will NOT put myself through surgery again until it's necessary.

I keep going back and forth. Sometimes I love the size. Other times I just feel like they are too big. I wish I would have known to ask about low profile. I didn't even think I wanted them though. So hindsight is 20/20 I guess! My swimsuits all fit but just barely! Which I didn't fill any of them out before. I'm so so so glad I didn't go bigger. It just wouldn't have been me. My workout tops from Lululemon also just barely fit. I would have been so mad if they didn't fit anymore!! Haha

I think I am a 34b but not sure! Anyway, I really hesitated to put pics up, but I appreciate everyone else's so here they are. I just hope none of my friends see this!! Haha

Holy cow! Pain is way better today. But, I can't believe how scary my incision site looks. I will try and post a photo later. My stomach looks like I'm 20 weeks pregnant and I can't suck it in. I don't even recognize the girl in the mirror. Haha. I still regret this and I can't believe I chose to put my body through this, but we had a great christmas and that was my biggest stress through this whole thing.

Today I am regretting this decision! Sorry I just have to be honest. I am feeling so sad that I can't hold my baby or take care of my family. My husband has been absolutely wonderful and keeps reminding me that this is only temporary but man alive I just feel so useless!

I went to my post op today. I was soooo swollen and the nurse scared me when she said i might need another surgery because it looked like I had a hematoma in my left side. The doctor took a look and felt it and didn't think I would need surgery thank goodness!!!! But I have to massage the left one because it is less than a centimeter higher than the other one. Not a huge difference but it won't be even if I don't do the massages. And he reiterated how important it was to take it easy. I have been feeling pretty good today and was able to help get kids off to school but now I'm back to trying to take it easy. This is tough!!!