36 Years Old 1 18 Year Old Son - Dominican Republic, DO

I didn't lose nothing last week. At first I got a little upset.. Then I thought time to dig in deep.. I guess it's true what they say. The older you get the harder it is to shift the weight.. I have stated something called advocare, I absolutely need to shed as much as possible for the best results! Sometimes your mind can trick you into thinking that the weight is not going to come off.. But I have found out the the brain is the hardest thing to train... So I guess it's time to go to war with my mind! This is something I have to do.. I swear I think of this girl who is inside of me DAILY!!! She is a BAD CHICK TOO.. Let me tell you.. I look at myself in the mirror and coach myself saying.." Let's go.. Got to get there"" just can't wait to finally aboard that plain coming home from the DR!!! SOOO READY!

This morning was so hard to get up and get to that gym! But got to do what we got to do! So Dra yily responded.. But I was hoping that Dra Duran would say something by now!! I know eventually she will though. Sooo I put them ear phones in my ear pumped up the music and started beasting! I think I zone out and keep the prize in my mind when it starts to hurt! DOMINICAN REPUBLIC here I come baby....

I hope I am doing this right!!! Anyways here it goes! Hello, I am starting my journey hoping to be a Duran doll! And this is my story. Back when I was a little girl around 5 years old I was horribly molested by my own sibling! This went on for years. Then I tried to reach out for help, to my surprise.. my own father started to touch me, I was so confused!! But I would always pray for them, that God would forgive them because they were sick! I remember going down to my friends house to play and then while waiting on the porch for my friends to come out, their grandfather came out.. And YOU GUESSED it, he tried it too!! my first time ever meeting that man. At this point I was only around 11. I started to be very confused as to why this kept happening. There were many more attempts by others, woman babysitters included! However I got older and was able to start to physically fight back. Then the abuse just stopped!! Then I got real close to The Lord! Although the abuse stopped.. I would always remember how people would say I had a pretty face. So to assure that nobody would want to touch me again I started to pack on the pounds! I never wanted the attention! All these people are now in church and married and have children of their own, so I hold their secrets tucked away inside my emotions. Once I became grown, I would notice that Guys would be interested because of my face, I could never really inner channel that sexier side of me because of the weight gain. I see so many women on here who are married and have significant others, that pleases me so much, because I haven't found that special someone who accept me for me! I can recall me and my son father and I taking a shower together and I was hiding my body and he looked at me and told me.. " if you don't lose weight I'm leaving you" HAA!! And he did!! That was the best thing that ever happened to me!! Lol! Now that I'm a even more mature and well rounded grown woman and have now took my life back! It's time to get ALL THE WAY back! I have a son who is going into the navy this year! And I'm going to be child free!!!!! YAY!! I'm moving to a different city.. It will be a new chapter in my life!! A new city!! A new life!! A new me!! I appreciate all of you ladies.. I feel like I can be myself on here and that is sooooo liberating! It took tremendous courage to Tell my story, but it's many women like me.. And maybe they are not ready to tell theirs and I will reach them in some way silently! I wish I had that many years ago!! I now weigh 270.. I'm going to fight like hell to get down to 180 by surgery time ! I will post every chance I get my weight loss and journey!! Good luck dolls!! Keep me in your prayers!! I can't weight for us all to fuckn sock it em with our new bodies!!!