I want my body back!! I'm even willing to pay for...
I want my body back!! I'm even willing to pay for it. Lol. I'm seriously considering going to the DR. I'm terrified to go alone though. I HAVE TO HAVE THIS SURGERY! This body is making me miserable. Have any of you gone abroad recently? How was it? Is anyone planning to go abroad? #I NeedHEEEEEEEELP
DEFINITELY GOING TO THE DOMINICAN REPUBLIC
There's just no way around it. My dilemma now is figuring out if if I am going to be a #YilyDoll or #DuranDoll. The both do such amazing work.
Disregard my last post. I'm DEFINITELY going to be a #YilyDoll
I had been trying to narrow down my options and so far Duran and Yily were my Top 2. I had already been corresponding with Dr. Yily and has just been waiting to hear back from Dr. Duran before I made my decision. I messaged them again earlier today and Dr. Yily again is the only one to respond. So based on all the other info that I have gathered and the fact that she replies promptly responds and answers off of my questions has sold me. I am SUPER EXCITED!! I hope she can get me in during Spring Break in March. If not I will have to wait until May.
Making Some Progress
Well, I had to re-think this whole thing. I attempted to go get my Passport today only to find out that they only see people by appt. and all of the appts are booked through February. That clearly is not going to work considering my anticipated day of surgery is in March. It's no big deal though. I called Dr. Yily's office and discussed it with them instead of trying to correspond by email. My new date for sx is May 13, 2014. I was told that I need to arrive before 4pm the day before to have my lab work completed. I'm going to apply for my Passport next week, no need to rush now. Hopefully, I will be able to pay off my procedures next week also. I reeeeeeally need someone to travel with. Hopefully I can find someone on here to Buddy with.
Since I came across this site, I find myself on here during all of my free time. Thanks, to all that share there knowledge and experience. The 2 of us are laying here (my Tummy and I) LMAO, try to decide if I should post my pics up. We decided to go on ahead. Maybe somewhere down the line someone would need some help or encouragement along the way. This whole idea of planning and having surgery is beginning to become a emotional and Spiritual battle.
Well, here are my pics. I am 5'-3" and 216 lbs. I have 4 kids my youngest, the twins are 9 and the only way I will ever get pregnant again is by Devine Intervention. Lol! My body has definitely seen better days. When I was younger with a body... I didn't realize I had one. Then I had kids, all 3 years apart; and now I have no body. Smh! I've tried 100 different ways to get in shape. Even when I lose weight, the skin is still there. At this point my body is a constant nightmare to me. I appear to be really self confident to others but the truth is... I AM MISERABLE! Soon this will not be an issue. Because I'm going to leave all of this extra skin and fat in a completely different country. Lol!
I don't mind being "Plus Sized". I just want to be shapely. These girls are a lot like what I "WISH" to achieve.
I think I may share just a little too much personal on here but right now I am EXTREMELY UPSET and I need to vent.
I was told today that I may not be able to obtain a Passport due to my background. In 2000 I was convicted of an International Drug Trafficking Crime. Specifically "Importation". Although I served my time, completed my probation and have been without incident since then, I still may not be able to travel outside of the country. Uuuuuugh! I know it was my choice to go to prison but DAMN... I served my time. That bad decision will never be behind me. Jobs, housing and education are nearly impossible for me to obtain. And now... here we go again. Another thing that I can't do. I have to figure this out ASAP!
One thing about me... I am not just going to sit down and accept someone telling me "No". Today while researching I decided to dig deeper into my passport dilemma. I read that it may be possible to fly with just a Birth Certificate and ID provided I purchased a 10$ Tourist Card once I entered the country. I couldn't find a real source to verify this information so I emailed the ones that I thought could provide accurate information. I've sent messages to The Dominican Consulate, TSA, Customs, The US Probation Office etc. Hopefully I'll get some good news.
JUST NOT FEELING IT.
I had been nervous about traveling abroad for such a major procedure, but after over a year of research I am over the nervousness, and now full of excitement. I had been planning on having my sx with Dr. Yili. Her work is amazing. I had been corresponding by email for months and just recently got a response that included a quote. As far as I was concerned " All Systems Were A Go!". I had messaged her again asking for confirmation of my sx date and asked for the payment info so I could pay the deposit. I never got a response. I called the office several times and each time they attempted to transfer me, they hung up. I have yet to hear from anyone. I know she answers all inquires personally, but it just doesn't work for me. In total after plane ticket, hotel etc. I will be spending over $6000.00 and for that I require a little more personal attention. I have researched several Dr.'s there including Duran. But one particular Dr. stands out to me... Dr. Robles. Her work is also amazing but what also stands out to me is her bedside manner with her patients and the attentiveness that she and her staff provide pre & post op. Her assistant replies in a timely fashion, she's sweet and knowledgeable. I was a little upset that I couldn't get all the procedures done in one visit but I truly appreciate her making my health and safety a priority. With that being said... Bye Bye #YilyDolls... I'm now #TeamRobles! I applied for my Passport today and will be making my payment next week. Shit just got real! ???
Oh HELL No!
Now I completely understand why these Dr's can respond in a timely manner. Yili and Duran are doing 6-7 surgeries a day!! Robles 5-6... WTF? Have any of you heard similar stories. I got the info from a nurse at Cipla.
It has begun... Round #1
So tomorrow I start start my 14- Day Cleanse. Followed by 2 1/2 months of Juicing and Protein Diet. I want to shed a few pounds before my sx.
Preventive Nutrition Advanced Complete Body Cleansing. (14 Day Program) (No Fasting)
Garcinia Cambodia Chews to suppress my appetite once cleanse is complete.
Raspberry Ketone to boost my Metabolism.
What Supplements are you taking?
I am so happy to be counting down. Juicing has been lots of fun. My kids have even joined in. I know that my sx is still a little ways away but hey... getting an early start can't hurt anything. ???? I decided not to do the cleanse. I had been advised not to since I was Juicing. I went to Walgreens tonight and got some common Pre-Op Vitamins. I still plan on ordering the Make Me Heal Supplements, but I'll just take these for now. I definitely don't need any issues about my blood count or hemo. I'm still waiting on my Passport, as soon as I get it... I'm packing my bag!
I forgot to add the pics...
My Valentines Day Gift To Myself
When I checked my phone this a.m. I was surprised to see a Happy Valentines Day message from Dr. Almonte's assistant Leslie. The message was somewhat unexpected considering the heavy work load she has. I thought it to be a very kind gesture. As you know I had really been debating between Almonte and Robles; however, I have made my decision. I have chosen Dr. Almonte. I really like how Leslie responds to my every question and even sends lil messages like the one she sent today. I paid my deposit today and my date is officially set for May 13, 2014. Yeeeeea Meeeeee!
I had no idea of how this whole surgery abroad thing went down. I entered this situation completely blind. I came here in search for guidance and instead received some truth... but more rumors than anything. Ladies, do your own research and also know that even though we are flocking to these Countries by the busloads, they are still competing for your business. I originally scheduled my sx with Yili and after so many bad reviews I changed my and we went with Almonte. To keep this short because my phone is really tripping today... If the negative opinions comes from someone who hasn't had sx... ignore it. If it comes from someone who has had sx but has no pictures of them self anywhere on here... ignore them too. Lastly, if someone abroad gives you information about the Dr. you chose, make sure that it's not just a tactic to get your $. With that being said. I have 2 deposits paid.i should've never changed my plan from the beginning
Someone Died After Surgery
This was just put up on Facebook. Dear God...
Guess Who's Got A Passport!!!
Holy Sh*t! I got my passport in the mail today. I am so EXCITED! If you have been following my journey then you understand why I am so excited right now. Lol! Sh*t just got real Ladies!
I totally forgot to upload the picture.
I have my plane ticket. I still can't believe that this is happening. I more excited with each day that passes. Getting this surgery is all that I think about here lately. I find myself even daydreaming about how I'm going to look post-op. Sometimes I go too far and think about everything that could possibly go wrong... even about death. I had a dream the other night that I had taken the infamous "blue pill" lol... I have to get those negative things out of my mind. I have ordered most of my pre-op items. Just waiting on a few more things from Amazon. I can't wait to see the improved image of myself.
Yes, I know my trip is still 74 days away, but my excitement won't let me rest. I've been gathering the things that I need. Not sure if I have it all. Hell, I don't know if I can transfer with all of this stuff. Lmao! If you all have any suggestions, please let me know.
My list of things so far that I have received/ordered.
Pee Cup (lol)
Aquaphor (skin cream)
Scar Away Surgical Strips
Boppy Pillow (not in picture)
Lipo Foam (not in picture)
Surgery Items List For Dominican Republic
I have put together a list comprised of the most common things that I've noticed others to put in their lists.
Pee Cup (lol)
Aquaphor (skin cream)
Scar Away Surgical Strips
T Shirts (Men's Tank Top)
Boppy Pillow (BBL Patients)
Arnica Cream (included in the VitaMedica Kit) but the kit can be too expensive for some. It can be purchased separately)
I Found An Awesome Recovery House
I've been searching and wrecking my brain trying to find a RH. The prices some of these places charge is nuts! I finally found "Gianna Colombo" her rate is the best! And it also includes massages. I haven't found any others that include massages. All of her reviews are A+. I decided to pay in full just to secure my spot and make sure I didn't spend it. Lol.
Been Gone For A While... 44 Days and Counting
Uhhh, where shall I begin? I have all of my surgery items, plane ticket, RH paid and Passport. All systems are on "GO"! I have gained so much knowledge in these few months. I have been researching for about 2 years but once I really got serious about it and dedicated more time to it... I uncovered many unturned stones. I found a really nice lady on FB that sent me my deposit back for Almonte. Just goes to show that their still are good people out here in the world. Shit is weird though, every night I dream about surgery... for the most they are pretty good dreams. But once I changed to Yily... nothing but nightmares. That shit was freaking me out. Not one night passed that I didn't have a bad dream with her in it. I have had a couple of people message me saying that they felt like I was cool enough to talk to without me being offended, they advised me not to go to Yily. Crazy thing is... they don't know each other but their stories were consistent. Yooooooo, that creeped me out. I don't know why but 3 is a good number for me, when I received the same message from a thrid person I was like screw this... I politely sent the deposit back to Almonte. And im not changing again. I also ran into some really sweet Dolls right from my home town on FB that just left the DR. They went to Almonte and they look ASS-MAZING! Almontes' TT scar is hairline thin. And they ABSOLUTELY LOVE Lesley, Almonte and Gianna. Lots more of Almonte's work surfacing also... she's giving out FATTIES! Another GREAT thing about Almonte is that she has a Bank of America account so it was no problem getting my deposit to her and i'm also going to pay for my sx before I go... there's no way im traveling with that much money on me. I quit smoking... man... that was not easy at all. I have a new found respect for a crack head. If cigarettes were that hard.... man... SMH!
Do you want my May 12th date with Yily?
Are any of you ladies interested in taking my May 12th date with Yily and sending me my money back? I sent her $350.00. We can contact her office together to make the transaction.
Dr. Contreras is bad news.
How are these ladies finding his info? He's not even licensed in the DR. Omgoodness y'all, if y'all could see some of the pics I've seen and read their stories, you'd cry. Please y'all, do not pick a PS because of their price.
Well, it's almost that time. I'm going to end all of my supplements and start taking my Vita Medica Kit today along with my Iron & Hemo Tea. I'll be paying the last $550.00 to Dr. Almonte this week. I'm so glad she has a Bank of America account. My RH is paid for. All I have is one small bag to pack and I'm done!
10 Days and Counting
Please forgive me for not updating regularly. School has been taking front seat. Well... it's almost time. I'm SUPER EXCITED. Strangely no fear.... I'm confident that everything will be just fine. I thought I would have gotten the pre-surgery jitters by now, but I haven't. I only have 1 little small bag to pack. My other one has been packed sitting in the corner for a while now. Lol. In preparation of my big day I made some changes to my Vitamin regimen. I stopped all of my other supplements and started the Vita Medica Kit that I had purchased. I also take 325mg of Iron a day. Today I started taking Arnica and Bromalien. And when I get to the 7 day mark I'm going to begin with the Hemoglobin Tea 2 times a day. My cycle just went off so I'm not due to deal with that until the 18th, 6 days after my surgery. TYJEEEEZUS! Tomorrow I'm going to copy my Passport, DL, SS Card and Birth Certificate just in case any funny business goes down, I'm not stuck in the DR. Lol
If it can go wrong... It probably will.
I am 7 days away from my trip to the DR. And everything, and I mean EVERYTHING is going wrong in my world. But please know this... I'm going to resolve the things that I can and on May 11th... I'm outta this b*tch! Ah, haahaaaaaa! Nothing and no one is getting in the way of me fulfilling my dream. My homegirl said it could be a sign for me not to go. My reply is simple... God knows me and he knows I don't do so well with subtle signs. If it isn't meant for me to go... he'll stop me. Besides... what if it Satan making this stuff happen because he doesn't want me to be happy? Or better yet... what if it was going to happen regardless? Either way... I'm blowing this Taco Stand on Mother's Day morning!
I received a message from Yily's assistant tonight saying basically she couldn't respond to my other messages. What kind of mess is that? So when I have my sx and something goes wrong... who should I call then. The last message I sent to her was March 3... today is May 4... #B*tchPlease! You won't play with my life like that.
I leave for the DR in exactly 5 days. I have contracted a cold. I would strongly recommend those planning for sx to stock up on Orange juice, Vitamin C, or Airborne to prevent situations like this. I was told no fever or cough, so I'm good... so far. I also made the fatal mistake of loaning $550.00 to a relative... NEVER AGAIN! Now with days before my sx, I'm sitting here scrambling to come up with the money to cover my sx when it should already be paid. I guess you can say that I am loyal to a fault. Smmfh... I consider myself to be a pretty resourceful person but time is definitely not on my side. Too be continued...
Well y'all... As time approaches I can only wonder of I'm doing the right thing. Am I being selfish to have sx knowing that I have children... I'm starting to doubt myself now. I'm excited 1 minute, nervous the next. I just need to rest, I'm going to drive myself nuts. I'm going to turn in early tonight.
Thank God For RealSelf
I've been having so many mixed emotions about leaving. I took the time today to read my posts here on RS and now I remember exactly why this was so important to me. In 18 hours and 33 minutes I will be at the airport embarking on my journey. I'm going to spend the day dotting my I's and crossing my T's.
Today Is THE Day
12 May 2014
Day of treatment
Up early making fashion statements! #WorkIt Lol. Ready for surgery this morning.
Miracles By Fatima Almonte
I'm in pain but I definitely want to keep you all posted...
Confession: I have been crying since this morning. So many mixed emotions. But mostly tears of joy. I am so happy to be surrounded by caring person. My nurse is CICEP was very sweet. But Gianna Colombo and her staff have been the absolute best. I felt so helpless today. I was in so much pain I didn't want to eat. Gianna spoon fed me like a baby, wiping my chin in between servings. She got down on her hands and knees and held the urinal between my legs until I was able to produce urine. One of her nurses appropriately named "Comfort", rubs my forehead with a damp cloth and assures me that I am ok in Spanish when I am sad or in pain. And Gianna's husband refuses to allow me to lift a finger. He says if I need help 300 times. to not move... call them 300 times to do it for me. I can't imagine being anywhere else. I am thankful.
Everything is cool
I haven't really been feeling like posting. Focused on healing. But I don't want to leave y'all hanging. So here are my before and after pics. Dr. Almonte and her team are AMAZING!
My Review of Gianna Colombo
My OFFICIAL review of Gianna Colombo: When I arrived at the airport Gianna and Nelson (her husband) were standing there waiting. They actually spotted me before I seen them. She greeted me with big hugs and smiles. Nelson grabbed my luggage and refused to allow me to lift a finger from that point on. Our first stop was the CICEP, where I was to stay overall because my sx was early the next day and I had to have my labs done. I got my blood work done but had to wait until later to have the others done. So Gianna took me sightseeing and to her house for dinner. The house is immaculate. There is a cook and Licensed Nurse (sometimes 2 nurses) there 24 hours. Omg... the food was delish! I showered, took a nap and went back to the hospital. They were kinda giving me a hard time about completing my labs but Gianna stayed right by my side and made sure everything got done and that I was cleared for sx. If she hadn't have been there, my sx would have been delayed. The next day, when I opened my eyes after sx... Gianna and Nelson were right there. Lol! They are so on point. They next day I went to Gianna's. I was in so much pain. But Gianna and her staff waited on me hand and foot. They often anticipated my requests and fulfilled them immediately. I was spoon fed the first 2 days... I was in so much pain. My walking to the bathroom was always assisted. They even held my pee cup between my legs because I couldn't. Just my luck my cycle came on early and they even attended to that, because I simply could not. They did everything without turning their nose at me. I was so embarrassed, i cried like a baby. I was told in "tranquila"... I assume I was being told to calm down. They wiped my tears and stroked my hair each time assuring me that it was ok. I knew I was in good hands... I received 3 meals a day and meds on a schedule. Even though I don't speak much Spanish and they don't speak much English... we understood each other just fine. As I got better my natural joking personality emerged and they days got better. We launched and joked each day... New girl came and we immediately bonded. Gianna even cooked us dinner one night... which was bomb.com by the way. I was crazy reading other people on FB complain about where they were while I was chill'n and livi'n it up at Gianna's. My massages were the bittersweet highlight of each night. Gianna is also a licensed Esthetician, so I got some Micro Dermabrasion... OMG! The filth that came off of my face was insane. But ooooooh... it's clearly a difference in the appearance of my skin. Yooooo... what else can I say man... Gianna Colombo is the BEST. She does it from her heart. Not to mention she and her staff are licensed. I wouldn't entrust myself to anyone else in such a vulnerable state. PS... don't let nobody lie to ya... she has super cold A/C in every room. Lol
Gianna, thank you so much for everything. I really couldn't have done it without you.
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Married To My Drain
Omgoodness! I had sx on the 12th... I was told I can remove my drain when I am producing less than 50 cc's in 24 hours. I am producing 300 cc's every 12 hours. At this rate I'm NEVER going to get rid of this thing. The fact that I have a open line to my insides is really freaking my out. I am vulnerable to too many infections like this. I need this drain gone like yesterday.
My drain was clogged.
I went to the ER... Ewwwww! All is well now.
The 4th of July!
My drain is still acting up. Please ask your Dr for another reservoir to take home with you. They get clogged really easily. I ordered one from Amazon for about 30$... I hope it gets here soon. My nerve endings have started to reconnect. It feels like a fireworks display. At any time I feel these sensations that little bursts electricity on my back, stomach and sides. Sometimes they are really mild and faint. Other times it feels as though someone is zapping me with a taser. Lol! Sometimes it makes me yell out in pain for split second. It's kind of fascinating know that my body is mending itself. I'm a regular ole Humpty Dumpty.... being put back together. Lol.
Uhhhh, I really haven't taken any more pictures. I live in this damned Faja. It's so hard to get in and out of it. I plan on taking more once I can remove my drain. Here's one I took Thursday.
A future #Doll wanted more pics... Here ya go boo. I'm still extremely swollen.
Vinegar... My new BEST friend
Y'all ain't gonna believe this shit!
My love for food and cooking just saved the day.
My drain has been clogging at the top. I have tried to flush it several ways. I was frustrated tonight... I tried everything. I even blew into it. Smmfh! And suddenly... A light bulb moment... What cuts fat in food? !!!VINEGAR!!!! So I filled it up and the fat began to melt. I can't believe this shit. My drain looks brand new and is working much better. I still have some slight blockage but it's waaaaay better than it was. Tomorrow I will let it soak longer and get rid of the problem for good.
I am absolutely miserable today. My left leg in my faja is completely torn. My drain is still acting up. I have a low fever. These water pills got me pissing a river. My body has filled up with fluid again in places where the fluid was gone. Uuuugh! Lesley provided me with a PS in my area I can contact tomorrow to be drained.
Today is not good at all. But I'm hiiiiigh as a kite right now so, it doesn't matter. Lmao!
Got my goodies in the mail today. My scar is just about healed. Just a little more scab to fall off. Then I am going to begin my scar therapy.
Screw this drain.
It's been clogged for days. Still putting out fluid, but clogged. I managed to get the clot out and afterwards I noticed that I wasn't draining anything at all. Smmfh! I waited 6 hours, still nothing. I said if in the next 24 hours I'm still a draining, I'm getting rid of the drain. I was cleaning my incision and drain site and decided to wiggle my cord to see if I could coax out some fluid. I don't know what happened but when I pulled it, something (yes, something) kept pulling it out. And before I knew it I had almost 3 feet of drain dangling from my hand. 22 Days of misery... finally over!
The journey for some doesn't end with sx. It's just beginning. I'm now doing Scar Therapy. I take Collagen 2 times a day. I wear the strips for 12 hours and use the other 12 hours. I think I may add Vitamin E Capsules to my list to massage my scar with. I thought I bought the wrong strips until today. I cut them in half so my 3 month supply is now a 6 month supply. Yeeeeea! These can be ordered on Amazon.com or Makemeheal.com
Dr. Almonte is soft spoken a drop dead gorgeous! She came into my room early in the morning to mark me up cheerful wearing a warm smile... talking as though we were not strangers. She marked me up and asked me what I wanted. I told her an hourglass and to make my booty round because it is square and I wanted a flat tummy and no fat rolls on my back. She smiled and continued to mark on me as we talked. She has a thick accent but I was able to understand her clearly. She hugged and kissed me and told me she would see me shortly. And off to surgery I went. I took a shower, took the blue pill and off to sx I went. These people don't play...lol. That place is buzzing with precise movement by day. I was wheeled to the doors of the operating room nervous as a hell. I was taken into this primitive room, nothing like you'd see in the US. No machines, no beeping sounds of some technical equipment... nothing like that. I was sat on a stretcher and two women speaking Spanish work together like a well oil machine to gather the surgical tools that my Dr. would be using. I was shaking like a leaf. To the point where the entire bed rattled. They both stopped to console me. The one on my left started to tie my arm up for my IV and I thought to myself. .. WHAT IN THE HELL AM I DOING?! I proceeded to hop down from the table but I was loopy from the blue pill. I was panicking. The stopped my fall to the floor and told me in the best way they could not to worry and sat me back on the bed. Tears began to pour. Maybe if I wasn't alone I wouldn't have felt like that. She attempted to start the IV again and the other lady rubbed my hair and sang to me in Spanish. By the time the needle went into my arm good... I was out. The next thing I remember was being put back in my bed in my room and them telling me how good I looked and everything went great.
Scar Finally Healed
Oooh, ain't she pretty?!
If you're traveling to the DR soon.
For the upcoming #Dolls traveling to the DR. You can purchase and print the required Tourist Card online instead of purchasing one in the DR. The lines are too long there. Here's the link... https://www.dgii.gov.do/Tturistaweb/
Me vs The Faja... Guess Who Won...
I did damnit! Ahahahaaaaaa! It took me 30 1/2 damn days but I did it! And guess what my smart ass did.... I forgot to put on my damn tank top. FML! I also popped 2 hooks but I expected to have some casualties. Lmao! I won!!
This They Don't Tell You About Sx
I can clearly remember because pre-op and having 1000 questions about traveling to the DR, sx and post op care. Some of my questions were answered through sx but there are some or vital pieces of information that were left out. So every time I think of some of these overlooked pieces of info, I will come back and share it. Here's the 1st one...
Your faja is a crotchless compression garment. By day 2 or 3, some of us experience vaginal swelling because gravity forces everything down... Some swell like melons. Mine even turned purple. I even noticed slight swelling in my stage 2 garment.
Things They Don't Tell You About Sx
Your cycle can come on following your sx, even if you just had your cycle. Mine did.
THINGS THEY DON'T TELL YOU ABOUT SX
Your Dr. can prescribe a powder that heals cuts insanely fast in the DR. Just ask for it. I don't know the name of it but many girls use it.
THINGS THEY DON'T TELL YOU ABOUT SX
While in the DR most will wear their Faja stuffed with Maxi pads or Lipo Foam. I personally bought both, but preferred Pads. When leaving the Dominican Republic DO NOT ATTEMPT TO PASS THROUGH CUSTOMS WITH YOUR GARMENT STUFFED WITH PADS OR LIPO FOAM. You will be detained and strip searched to make sure you're not smuggling anything.
Updated Photos 37 Days Post Op.
Still Swollen. Excuse my crease on my hip... #WorkInProgress
Coming together nicely...
Dats a whole lotta rump!
58 Days Post Op
No garment. Still Swollen.
29 Jul 2014
2 months post
Soooo excited about Round 2! Deposit paid & date confirmed. Breast Lift & Vagnioplasty. May 12, 2015... my 1 year Anniversary of my 1st sx.
A Message For Username "Rebuilt"
19 Aug 2014
3 months post
Don't you ever!
21 Aug 2014
3 months post
Let's talk about #DatAss!
I have always been a larger person. Most will describe as thick. In my younger years when I had a shape, i didn't realize that I had one and after kids... it was no longer existent. Now, soon to be 36, I have the body of my dreams and I still find myself uncomfortable. Maybe even more so than I was before. I'm not used to so much attention. People literally stop and stare at me. Some say things out loud. Scream things out of their car windows... uugh... I will never get used to this. I didn't do this to look good in the eyes of others. I did this for me so their remarks are very unwanted. If you haven't had surgery, get ready. Cause this shit is #Real. I guess I see why people stare cause I stare at me damn self Lol... Ok... thanks for listening to me vent.