6 weeks post op

This is not Instagram I took real pics. I didn't pop my hips out or curve my back unnaturally for the pics so that my butt looked way bigger than it is...I'm just saying

Try again

I can't remember if I already posted about waking up sobbing at Daisys dreaming vividly of things I had "buried" my father my ex etc. I firmly believe we do store our feeling in our fat and when Duran lipo'd me dry those buried feelings became unburied. I think about this periodically. It's fascinating to me that it happened to me. I'm posting pic in black evenings dress..,took yesterday...I'm very conscious of my fat arms which are very out of proportion now to rest of my body... I have been stared at my whole life because I'm six feet tall and have red hair so my motto pre surgery was if their going to stare I'm going to give them something to stare at....well It is extremely uncomfortable because it's a long different stare now when I go out wearing clothes that are form fitting. Men n women both. I'm working on trying to appreciate it. My whole life I just wanted to blend in n dissapear. When I was young I wanted to b short blonde and little. Lol. I have learned tho to appreciate my uniqueness! I'll b back for sure at six months but maybe sooner. I'm always thinking of things I want to share...the best part is of course the confidence boost and the second best part is omg dressing/shopping. I couldn't wear dresses without a butt bra and/or a jacket to cover up the messed up shape. See my before pic from the back in the green n white dress and tell me the gym could've fixed that!! I go back n forth on round two thoughts...the recovery for me anyway was so long. The Aqua/teal pants show how I still have imperfections cellulite etc. what I did get is a great silhouette and decent projection.