Round 2 Breast Augmentation: from bad to worse and now on to #3
- updated 6 months ago
11 years ago, when I was 18, I had saline breast...
- 8 Jan 2013
11 years ago, when I was 18, I had saline breast implants placed under the muscle, taking me from a small a to a full c. Over the past few months, I began to notice some funny changes in my breasts and I thought one was slowly deflating, but it turned out that I was actually developing cc on the other side, so it made the breast that was normal look deflated by comparison. In any case, I had the revision done by a different doctor--(I moved from the West Coast to the East Coast)--about 3 weeks ago.
I was amazed at how easy the second surgery was and I was really pleased with how much better I felt, at first, but now, three weeks out, I am getting really worried. My breasts are hugely different sizes and I worried that I already developing CC on the side that had it before. Meanwhile, the breast that my doctor thinks looks normal looks very small and funny to me, but that could be because of what I am used to my breast being like. I thought I was going a tiny bit smaller and my doctor said that my new implants are only about a tablespoon smaller than my old ones, but at the moment, I just don't know what to think. I will upload photos and I welcome people to let me know their thoughts--(please be kind).
My doctor said I'm fine to ski this coming week,...
- 10 Jan 2013
It has been exactly one month and two days since...
- 13 Jan 2013
I am now just about 6 weeks post-op and I feel...
- 27 Jan 2013
I am also concerned about the placement of the incisions, because they don't actually appear to be below the natural fold of my breasts and I think I may be developing a bit of a double-bubble situation. All around, I feel like a bit of a hot mess. My husband says my breasts look good and he thinks they look more natural than they did before, but I know he's not looking as critically as I am, which is probably a blessing.
I am now rethinking sticking with saline, I have all sorts of questions I wish I had asked my doctor prior to surgery---(mainly having to do with his experience)---and I kind of wish I could just have a complete do-over. Ugh. Not at all how I was hoping to be feeling.
I just wanted to add that the pain subsided while...
- 28 Jan 2013
My doctor never got back to me while I was away, so I just had to use my best judgment. The temperature on the mountain was unusually cold and the cold was actually more painful than anything---I felt like my breasts turned into ice blocks at one point.
If I could do it again, I would not have skied so soon after surgery, but I really don't think I damaged my breasts by skiing.
I was unhappy with the way my breasts looked prior to the trip and I'm unhappy with the way they look now, but I think my issues are not ski-related.
What's really getting to me is the feeling that my doctor does not care. He has never called to check-up on me---not once. I always have to call him and he makes me feel like a crazy paranoid lunatic and is quite flippant and glib about my concerns. I am due to go in for a check-up and I am dreading it, because I feel like he is just going to deny all of the problems I can clearly see with my own eyes. I would love to get some honest feedback about the way my breasts look right now. Am I freaking out for no reason? Would you be happy with these results? I really want to know what you think---try not to be too brutal, but please do be honest. Thank you in advance.
My breasts have gone from bad to worse. I think...
- 12 Feb 2013
I wish my PO had thought to actually examine my breasts, to see if one had truly begun to deflate, prior to telling me that I definitely needed surgery. It's crazy to me that he had to open me up to realize he was wrong and that both my implants were totally in tact. Whatever was wrong with the one I was worried about, is much, much worse now--I am basically experiencing a worse version of what prompted me to have this revision in the first place. I am so unhappy with my breasts now and I just want to get them fixed and move on with my life. I have not had babies yet and I had not wanted to have my breasts redone, prior to getting pregnant, but my PO really insisted that a deflated implant needed to be removed and replaced right away. So crazy that it had not deflated---(but I knew a "slow-leaking" saline implant sounded unusual and I should have trusted my gut). Now I have two sets of incisions and crazy breasts that I can push all the way up to my collar bone when I massage them. My PO "opened up" the area between my breasts, because he said doing so would allow me to have more cleavage, but I don't think he did much else to the pockets, before placing my new implants and because they are smaller than my old ones, they have way too much room to move around and they are clearly not the same size. My incisions don't seem to be in the right place and they also don't match. I am 31 and I would love to begin to think about getting pregnant, but with my breasts the way they are right now, I cannot even imagine it. I feel like I have to get my breasts under control, before I can even begin to think about pregnancy, but I am terrified that every time I operate on my breasts, I am further reducing my chances of being able to breast feed successfully. Also, I realize I may hate my breasts after pregnancy, but at this point, I am stuck. I also feel like my surgeon over-disected the pockets, because I now have incredibly visible rippling and it looks like any natural breast tissue I had to begin with is long gone. The breast I thought I had deflated prior to this surgery is now both small and rock hard and it's becoming increasingly painful, despite the fact that I am massaging, sleeping in a slightly elevated position on my back, trying not to pick-up heavy things etc. I'm so over this and I don't want to give the surgeon who put me in this position another chance, because I only have one body and he's already screwed it up enough. I'm really feeling gloomy about all of this. I emailed and called my PO yesterday, just because I feel like he at least owes me an explanation, but he has yet to get back to me. What kind of a surgeon forces his patients to track him down after he operates on them? Such an icky feeling. :( I think I need to stop worrying about hurting his feelings and just list him by name here, so that other people don't find themselves in bad situations.
Update: I finally got my plastic surgeon on the...
- 17 Feb 2013
I think his words and my photos speak for themselves.
There have been some changes, but none for the...
- 20 Feb 2013
I am so sick of my breasts being like this! I have...
- 3 Apr 2013
I have been reluctant to put my doctor's name on...
- 8 Apr 2013
I should have trusted my gut. This doctor might not be the worst person to go to for lots of other things, but a breast expert, he is not. He is relatively inexperienced--(20-30 breast surgeries a year was what he told me at our last meeting)--and he not at all detail-oriented. I realized once I already had my top back on, in our last meeting, that he had not even seen my crazy looking incisions and at that point, I did not want to get undressed again to show him. However, it really said something to me that he had not thought to look at my incisions. He took my word for it when I told him that another surgeon measured my breasts and thought the smaller one was also wider, which interested me more than it interested Dr. D, who barely examined my breasts. After meeting with other doctors, I noticed that Dr. D was the only one who did not ask me if I wanted a woman in the room during the exam, but he was also the only doctor who looked and did not really touch. My mother was present at my last appointment and he seemed so rattled by both of us, I thought he might pass out or cry. I think Dr D trades on the reputation of his partner, but she also has fines and although their med spa has won awards and is said to be a favorite in the area, I would be reluctant to go back to this office for anything. Also, although the women at the front desk are totally friendly, Dr. D's assistant/admitting nurse is anything but. Don't ignore your instincts! I learned my lesson the hard way and I am paying the price. I've said this before and I'll say it again---I took good plastic surgery for granted, because it was all I knew. I had no idea how bad it could be, until I had this surgery. This is what a bad boob job looks like and feels like and now I'm out $8000 and am probably going to need to spend twice that, just to get back to feeling comfortable in my own skin. This doctor has been fined for negligence and it's clear why. Looking at my chart, I realized that he was more interested in pleasing my mother than he was in making me happy---and it's my body! I never cared what anyone else thought, but he wrote on my chart that he made my breasts a little smaller, so that "I could say they were smaller"---which is not something I ever asked him for! I just wanted my breasts to look the way they did for the first ten years after my last surgery and now, they are far worse than they were at the point that I began to really worry about my breasts. Asymmetry was never an issue before, but it definitely is now and I have ugly new scars and mismatched implants and it became pretty clear in my last meeting with my surgeon that he could not tell my left breast from my right. He got them mixed-up and became red-faced and even more defensive and even less coherent. Remember, a doctor who gets C's in med school is still called Doctor. I am ashamed that I let myself get bullied into surgery by someone as unprofessional and unimpressive as this doctor.
Missing my old implants- terrible round 2
- 5 Jun 2013
My mother suggested this PO and he is Yale-affiliated and shares a practice-(esana med spa)- with a well-respected female surgeon.