Surgery Date Set, Approved for Loan Yesterday - Comstock Park, MI

I thought I would update, I'm about 5 + months post mommy makeover. Even tho I had a few bumps in the road, overall I couldn't be happier. I find myself knit picking, and today I looked at my pre surgery photos and was completely amazed, I forgot how much I have changed. I remember looking at my body just the day after surgery and feeling so happy, I'm almost mad at myself for complaining. I had full tummy tuck, lipo on flanks and lower back, exchanged my 375cc silicone under muscle implants for 550cc silicone under muscle, plus a full breast lift and capsule repair. Here are some before and after photos! Feel free to ask any questions! (I went to Dr.Cullen in Grand Rapids, MI)

I'm shaking and in tears, this is really happeneing! Reality is really starting to kick in tho. Even tho my body is anything but good, I'm still feeling like "what if you hate it" even tho I can't bare to look at myself let alone wear a bathing suit or be in the nude. Are these natural feelings? I was originally planning just a tummy tuck and lipo, but after having a consultation with the plastic surgeon who did my first Breast Aug in 2012, he made me feel much better, and offered a great deal for an implant exchange and full lift along with my full tt and lipo. My fears with the tt is the fact that I don't have a whole Lot of loose skin, and I have a really short torso, I'm scared of having that "boxy" short look. And how high up the scare will be, he assured me that my tt scar will actually be as low as my csection scar, which is completely different from the first doctor I had a consultation with a few weeks ago. Also the belly button, one thing I am confident in are the way him and his practice makes patients "new" belly buttons. Second is my Breast surgeries, I got 350cc my first time but after breastfeeding my second baby They aged about 50 years :-(, my implants also "fall to the side" if that makes sense. When I lay down they go all the way to the side, (my doctor told me he will fix that and the ever growing gap between my breasts. Now with this im scared that he will make them "look fake" or the nipples being so perfectly straight forward that you can tell. I paid in full yesterday and all these things are running threw my mind, I would love feed back! Was it what you expected? Is there anything specific I should mention? How was healing? Any problems with your nipples(one of my biggest fears, Is the skin dying) I also has suffered from anxiety on and off, after my first Breast aug, I felt so mad and dissapointed, even tho I loved them! I actually yelled at my nurses! This time I'm going to 500-550 cc from 350. Any and all feedback or advice will be greatly appreciated!