37 Y/o Wants Implants out After 15 Years. Just Want to Be Natural Me, but Terrified! - Cincinnati, OH

So our plan is to go in August 17th and the surgeon is going to just drain the saline from my implants. I'm interested to see how much is actually in them because I remember it being around 300 but this doc is saying they must be bigger than that. He's going to let me shrink up for 2-3 months and then see what I have left. I'm praying that I can just be OK with what's there. I'm feeling hopeful that I will have this time to get used to myself and can get my head straight. I REALLY don't want more implants but all 3 surgeons have said they think I will need small ones or I will be unhappy. I suppose that's their livelihood though... the fact that women feel the need to add something to themselves to feel whole and complete. I don't want to feel that way! I want to love and accept myself without an implant. Sending courage, love and support to all of you out there going through similar lessons :)

I met with a third surgeon and he suggests that I have my implants drained in the office and then see what I have left. I've been told by him and the previous surgeon that I really don't have much tissue there and they are afraid I will be disappointed if I don't have a small implant placed. But I don't want more implants! I'm really hoping that I can just get through this and be ok with just being me. I think I may go ahead and schedule the draining for in a few weeks and that way I can let my body do what its going to do and then go back in for a lift October/November. I keep looking at before/after pictures of implants and I like all the before pictures better! I want to be and look and feel natural. Small perky boobs are so sexy to me right now so I guess that's a good thing! How strange it will be to experience life as a small breasted woman after spending the last 15 years of my life being gawked at and defined by my large chest. Oh and that first yoga pose.... Can' wait to do a lunge and my thing not have to move my boob over! Lol. I can't thank everyone here enough for all of the support! Love to anyone reading this and going through a similar experience!!

I had my daughter when I was 17. I breastfed and lost a lot of breast tissue so was left with small saggy breasts. I never remember wearing a bra smaller than a 34C but I'm thinking I has so much skin that its what was filling up my bra rather than tissue. I worked really hard to get the money for implants and paid for it all by myself when I was 22. They were bigger than what I had thought ending up at 34DD. I loved them and they gave me so much confidence but they always seemed a little too big to me with being 5'9 and 140 lbs. Fast forward 15 years and here I am, deeply involved in an active yoga lifestyle, eating a vegan and organic all natural diet, wanting more freedom to move my body without these heavy boobs in my way. I want to be all natural, all me, and walk around topless without feeling like I have these fake saggy implants haunting me of my lifestyle choices of my 20's. I'm ready to move forward and inspire other women that its ok to just be you! BUT I'M SCARED TO PIECES! I'm not sure what I will end up with size wise and I'm not sure how to prepare myself. My surgeon says I can do whatever I want be he thinks "cosmetically" I'll look better with small implants in. But my heart screams no to that. I don't want to have to have another surgery in the future and don't want a foreign object in my body. He says he thinks I'll be a B cup without implants but he can't be sure. I'd be ok with that but am afraid it will be such a drastic change that I might freak out! And, how do I deal with all of the curious stares of "where'd her boobs go?" I've been on this site a lot lately and everyone seems so nice and supportive. I figured I'd reach out here and see if anyone has a similar story or some encouragement for my situation. Thanks so much, this website has been such a blessing!