Nervous, Excited, and All of the Above - Chicago, IL

Updated 9/4/2012 Hello all! My name is April...

Updated 9/4/2012

Hello all! My name is April and I am a 23 y/o, 5”11, and 160 lbs. I went for my consultation on 7/5/2012 in downtown Chicago. A close girlfriend recommended my doctor to me who also had a breast augmentation done. She is of similar built and raved about the entire experience. When I went for my own appointment with my mom the office was very clean and relaxing, the assistants and nurses made me feel very comfortable (many had procedures done by the Doctor also), and the Doctor took his time with me and made sure that every one of my questions were answered.

I decided to go ahead and schedule the procedure because this is something that I always wanted to do. I am a very tall, slightly broad shouldered girl and having smaller breasts always affected my personal self-esteem. I felt that I would look better in clothes and overall with slightly larger breasts. While I am slender, I am not stick think and being on the flat chested side always felt like I was missing something. After years of wearing padded bras and tank tops through puberty I finally realized that I was not going to see any changes after I hit 22 or so. I am a middle sized A cup now and I am going to what I hope is a full C (370CC). I choose to go with gel silicone implants because there is less of a chance of wrinkling or rupture. They feel real and hold their shape quite well. The most important thing that I hope to achieve from surgery is a natural look. I made that very clear when I saw the doctor during the consultation.

The consultation was very informative and gave me the confidence and self-assurance to book the appointment within two months. The Doctor was able to use a program called Vectra that allowed him to take a real life picture of my breasts and then manipulate the image using a computer to show me different sizes and profiles. Seeing how my breasts will look more or less gave me a very good depiction of what to expect and also allowed the Doctor and myself to be on the same page regarding how I wanted my end result to look. We also tried on the actual implant underneath my clothes, he was able to examine the current dimensions and specification of my breasts (thankfully I have really good symmetry) and went over some of the general specifics of surgery. I booked my surgery for 9/14/2012 and while I am excited I am definitely very nervous.

Updated 9/5/2012

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With just about nine days to go the reality of what I am doing is setting in. I am worried about the results of surgery, what if they don’t look good, what if I lose sensitivity, what if I am making a mistake. For smaller breasts, mine look good but like I said I always wanted something more. I am nervous about changing my body forever. I started reading other people’s stories and blogs of their experiences and all of the positive feedback is making me feel at ease. My main fear is going too big and the results not looking natural, which is really important to me. I have a couple pictures saved of how I would like to look after surgery and reminding me by looking at those is actually very helpful. While my boyfriend is supportive he is a bit skeptical also. He is worried about hurting me and how I will feel after surgery. Luckily, I have a desk job Monday thru Friday so the surgery is scheduled for Friday morning and I hope to be back at work by Tuesday or Wednesday if the healing process goes well. I waitress on the weekends but when I start to feel better they told me that I could hostess as opposed to serving which will definitely alleviate some stress on my body.

My pre-appointment is scheduled for this Saturday at 9 a.m. I also think knowing more about what I need to do before, during, and after will help me relax and know what to expect. At the consultation the Doctor and I decided on under the muscle and under the breast incision. The Doctor explained that going thru the armpit might affect symmetry and thru the nipple might affect sensitivity. While the breast crease might scar a bit more than other areas, I am a pretty good healer and I hope for minimal scaring.

Updated 9/10/2012 As the day of surgery gets...

Updated 9/10/2012
As the day of surgery gets closer my emotions range from calm and confident to freaking out and nervous. I have a lot of questions and thankfully my doctor and my girlfriend are there for me to have them answered. My pre appointment was 9/8/2012 and everything went really well. The nurse made me feel like I was in good hands and went over everything that I needed to be aware of and make preparations for. I was also able to try my implants on again inside a bra to reassure myself that the size I picked was exactly what I wanted.

I had a few glasses of wine Sunday night but I decided not to drink anything until well after my surgery. The nurse told me not to drink alcohol within 48 hours but I have been drinking tons of water. I am trying to eat a lot of chicken this week and fruits and veggies. I know I will want some “comfort food” after surgery but I am going to try and keep that as infrequent as possible so that I can heal quickly.

So surgery is Friday morning at 6:30 a.m., at least that is the time that they told me to be there. I am glad it is so early so that I don’t have to spend the day waiting around and I can be home early in the afternoon also. My mom and my boyfriend will be taking care of me over the weekend. My mom agreed to spend Friday night and anytime I need her over the weekend. I have some things on the DVR to watch but I am looking forward to doing a lot of sleeping also. My post op appointment is scheduled for Saturday at 11:00 a.m. and they will take the bandages off me and put me into my sports bra.
I have been obsessively looking at YouTube video blogs and written blogs on other sites. My boyfriend tells me that I am crazy but I like to be well informed. The worrying of whether I picked the right size is starting to come through also. I don’t want to be bigger than a D (I told my doctor C) but I don’t want to be smaller than a C. My doctor seems very educated and comfortable with breast augmentation so I know I am in good hands.

Updated 9/11/2012 It’s hard to believe that I...

Updated 9/11/2012
It’s hard to believe that I will only have my current boobs for two more days after today. I am definitely excited to throw out all my bras but the nervousness is still there. I have had people tell me that recovery is easy and others tell me that it is the worst thing imaginable. Hopefully I am somewhere in the middle.

I started taking the Arnica tablets this morning which are supposed to help reduce bruising, swelling, and overall pain. I have to take five tablets three times a day until the day of my surgery. I also picked up my other prescriptions which are Vicodin, Keflax, and Celebrex. While reading other people’s accounts of their experiences the differences in recovery are all over the place. Some doctors say to use ice and others say no ice and only heat. I have read blogs where the doctor says to go braless after the surgery while my doctor says I need to be in a sports bra for six weeks. My doctor only wants to see me one day after surgery and then the next follow up visit will not be until six weeks after. So many differences!!!

I told my boyfriend that I want the whole house cleaned from top to bottom this weekend. He looked at me like I was crazy ? Laundry, bathrooms, and kitchens are not things that I want to worry about when I am recovering. I have a few friends that are bringing me meals that I can freeze and reheat. I also am looking at getting a reclining sofa set today instead of a very uncomfortable sectional that I have. My old couch was like a dream and I had to give it away due to space issues. I also have a tempurpedic bed but I can imagine getting in and out of that might be a bit hard.

I have been looking for zip up sports bras at department stores and I am not having much luck. Any recommendations?

Hello all! My surgery was yesterday and I still...

Hello all! My surgery was yesterday and I still can't believe everything that has happened in the past 24 hours. It still doesn't feel real and even though I know there is something additional on my chest I still feel like I have my small boobs. We arrived to the surgery center yesterday morning at 6:30 a.m. I was checked in and they took my vitals. I didn't see the doctor until 9 a.m. which was a little frustrating but my family was able to sit with me and keep me calm. I guess the gal that was supposed to go into surgery before me didn't take one of the morning pills that she had to and that presented some complications. Anyways before I knew it the doctor came in to draw on me and then I received anesthesia from another doctor.

I woke up and I felt so much pressure on my chest. I was moaning slightly and the nurse came in and said that she was going to find my boyfriend and my mom. My boyfriend came in and like the little baby I am I kept saying "where's momma?" lol. As I was waking up the pressure increased but not to the point where I was in pain, just extreme discomfort. The nurse gave me a little something extra in my IV for pain but she was a bit pushy which I didn't like. I don't think it was a nurse associated directly with my doctor just the outpatient center. I went to the bathroom (with the help of my mom) and proceeded to get dressed and then the nurse put me in a wheel chair and brought me down to the car. I was coherent on the way home and not nauseous at all (thankfully!) and I sat on the recliner the rest of the day watching movies. I didn't sleep much but I dozed once or twice.

Sleeping last night was very difficult. I have a tempurpedic bed and it was a little harder to get in and out of the bed, so much so that I debated sleeping on the recliner. But I ended up falling asleep and sleeping off and on for about 6 hours. Overall it was mostly discomfort and no major pain. But I have been taking my meds like I am supposed to and not doing too much.

I had my post surgery appointment with my Doctor...

I had my post surgery appointment with my Doctor this afternoon. I was able to find a bunch of zip up sports bras at WalMart and an Under Armour sports bra at Dick's. We took the bandages off and I have to admit everything was a little overwhelming. To see them for the first time can be kind of shocking and upsetting. My girlfriend told me that she almost had buyers remorse the first couple of days after her Doctor took her bandages off. I was prepared for mine so I don't think it was too bad.

Something else that I forgot to mention is that I have a bit of a concave breastbone. So, my chest sinks in a bit in between my breasts. I was worried about the symmetry of my breasts but everything looks good so far. My Doctor gave me instructions on how to massage them and even slightly adjust the implant if I notice them sinking in due to my breastbone.

Overall no overwhelming pain today, just discomfort and some stiffness in the morning. I had two almost-going-to-puke moments but fortunately I was able to keep everything down because I think that vomiting might be the hardest thing in the world.

I am going to post pictures sometime tonight or tomorrow morning. For myself I am going to take pictures every to show my progression and to make sure that they are staying even with massages.

Day two after surgery and I am doing well. I was...

Day two after surgery and I am doing well. I was a bit stiffer this morning waking up but I slept a whole night without waking up. My mom helped me shower and I definitely feel better after that. I got a bit cold last night and the slight shaking made my chest muscles hurt, so I would recommend that everyone stay warm immediately following surgery. I still feel sore today but I am started to get used to the new boobs. I changed my sports bra to a Danskin Walmart one which ironically is much more comfortable than the Under Armour.

I have decreased the amount of time I am putting ice on my chest too. I slept a lot today but anything I do too much or try and push myself harder than I should I get a headache and slightly nauseous. I am worried about starting massages just because they are still so firm and hard to the touch. However, I know I need to because of my sunken chest. If I don't they could fall in more than I would like them too. I also feel like I should spend some time with my breasts not in a sports bra. I feel like the bra is pushing them together and creating a tight feeling because it has been on 24/7/

Overall I am happy, it feel natural to have the sized chest that I do now even though its a little bigger than it will be eventually. I will update more tomorrow and Tuesday, posting new pictures now!
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Aren't showers magical adastra?? I remember the first 2-3 weeks after my BA how much I enjoyed them.....so soothing.  hope you start to feel better soon & have a very speedy recovery! Take Care :)
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Welcome to the other side. I hope your recovery goes smoothly and you are in awe of your results.
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Hope all went well!!! Please keep us informed
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Adastra, was your surgery today? Hopefully you've already gotten all the supplies you need, but if you're still looking for zip-front bra recommendations, I lived in Danskin brand ones from Walmart after my surgery. They're nothing fancy, but they're cheap, functional, and easy to find. Anyway, I hope you're doing well and that you have an easy recovery. Looking forward to your updates. :)
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Adastra, good luck with your surgery. I know it's easy for me to say but try not to worry. I inherited from my father the ability to not worry about something until or if it happens. I think that was a lot of why my recovery has been a piece of cake. I'm listening to my PS and certainly not overdoing it too. I am one of those who is not to wear any bra for 6 to 8 weeks, no strap, and no massage. I did purchase some bandeau tops on Ebay just for extra protection because I had read so many women complain about nipple sensitivity. I have to say, I haven't experienced that but my nipples are hard more than not and I like having something extra on.

Please keep us informed on your recovery!
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Good luck on your surgery, I wish I hadn't worried about it so much, piece of cake!
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My recovery was truly amazing! I took no pain killers and was out to dinner the same evening after my surgery! My PS offered "Rapid Recovery", not many doctors do. I had no bruising and was able to lift my arms above my head right after surgery. I think all doctors should learn this technique so women who have BA's do not have to suffer.  research this procedure on google to learn more;-)
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GOOD POINTY CHRISTINE!! Yep, not everyone looses nipple sensation. But there is a risk. I hope yours turn out amazing and you will be100 % thrilled with the outcome :))
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Hi, I'm not much of a blogger but I will offer you my 2 cents. You have made a conscious well thought out decision to have BA. DO NOT let your fears get in the way of what you have dreamed of for many years. Remove all the "what ifs" from your mind and go have it done ... period. No offense to this wonderful and very informative site, when your a week away from surgery, take a break from Real Self. I will help relax your mind.
By the way, I'm very close to your height and weight and I had my BA yesterday morning. I have the new Sientra Shaped HP textured 550cc over the muscle I was a small A and now sitting here with no pain with a large C small D. Ge it done girl!
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PS ... Everyone is different, just because someone has had loss of nipple sensation is does not mean you will. Good luck to you!
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Thanks! I am going to try and take your advice. I am an over-planner and hard core researcher when it comes to anything: cars, vacations, even restaurants. I guess it is in my blood to over analyze :-)
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Hello april~ Congrats on booking your surgery! I am sure you are very nervous & excited too....I had my BA done 6 months ago and got silicone, mod + 304 cc's. Our stats are very similar- I am 5"10 145 and wanted a "natural" look also. My doctor provided the Vectra imaging also, such a wonderful feature to give patients a realistic picture of what they will look like post op! I currently fill out a full C/small D cup, most people do not even notice I had a BA unless wearing a tight blouse or bikini. You should be aware there is a GREAT risk for nipple sensitivity loss. My nipples pre-op were very,very sensitive and now they are quite numb. Very disappointing, but overall I am happy and have zero regrets.   The unsightly "mosquito bites"  are gone, I threw away all the padded bras and finally have sexxy curves...... So life is good! Lol Good luck on your journey:-)
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Thank you for commenting! How did you do during the first few days following recovery?
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It sounds like you've thought about this a lot! Just make sure you've communicated thoroughly with your surgeon what you want and don't want. Here's a great list of what to buy and prep before your surgery. Please keep us posted!

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