Hi everyone! I am a mommy of 4 beautiful children (22,13,4,1). 5'5 135lbs and I am a 34 saggy A :( During breastfeeding I was a nice 34DD or D which I loved! Each time I prayed against it but each time they deflated seemingly more and more. I have had 4 c-sections and breastfed 3 of the 4 of them for approximately 2 years each!
Every since my first I always knew I wanted to get them fixed because they were shot after the very fist pregnancy. My tummy on the other hand was "ok" after 1 I still returned to a 24 inch waist and I felt good about it. Then I had the second one and with each one my tummy just got a little more "different." So I have now decided that the time is right! The time is NOW!
I was considering only getting my boobs done because I have been thinking about that for years. I still have my consult papers from an appointment I went to back in 1995! I just didn't have the cash then. Recently, now that I am finished having kids, I have been thinking about getting a tummy tuck...mainly because since I have had 4 c-sections my tummy kind of hangs over where I was cut at. So no matter how tiny I get, I still have my automatic fat roll. That's the name I coined it. So when I wear fitted dresses you see a tiny roll and that irritates me because I work hard on my body. I workout 4-5 times per week and I want to be fit. Not to mention that I have had saggy boobs for 22 years since my first daughter was born. And I always feel self conscious on the rare occasions that I do say "forget it" and wear a bikini.
There are some things that I want to do that I was never able to do. 1. Wear a bra top with my workout pants 2. Go braless just for one day! 3. Feel good in a bikini! 4. Wear a bra without padding!!! These things may sound silly for some, but others know exactly what I mean! I have never had this privilege because I started my family at a very young age. And I just want to do it. For once I want to feel good in my tops. My body isnt proportioned because I am a saggy A cup and my hips is a 38 so I always feel like I dont look as good as I could so I figure why not! I am done having kids so DO IT!!!
I have been searching around for the "right" plastic surgeon for me. I have been on soo many consultations that I have lost count but I think its 5 and I went to see one twice. She may be the one I just feel like I need another opinion from a more experienced doctor. I think its been hard because I am getting soo many services at once. NOw if it was just a BA and L then I could find a good breast surgeon but seeing as though I am looking into doing all of this together I need to be sure to choose carefully. I'd like to have my surgery done early February but the longer I wait the further out I am going to have to push it out : ( This process is getting to be soo frustrating because I want it done NOW!!! WHile I have the money, the time off, the decision made and before I have a chance to get scared and talk myself out of it. I have been through those bouts of feeling guilty and saying this is a lot of money to spend on myself when I have a family yada yada yada! Also I was freaking out about being put to sleep for 5 plus hours, etc.
I heard of valium after the procedure but heck I feel like I need one now just to make it through to surgery! I was soo upset today I got emotional. On Real Self I just found 2 new and final doctors to consult with and after that I am done. However, I can't get in to see them for a month! With one of them it was the day I picked for my surgery! : ( Sometimes I wonder if I should just go with the lady I have and just call it quits! I feel confident in her breast job but not so much in my TT. Plus I think she may not hear me asking for D's she said she will get it as close as she could. But I want D's! Well I do feel ok with her TT, but I feel like I can have more confidence. Plus I had a bad experience with a lady doctor so I usually go for a man (no periods, no hormonal imbalances). I have my days so they are entitled to theirs too right? Then I hear people say you will KNOW when you meet your doctor you will get a feeling. I haven't got that feeling yet although I do like this lady!
I get excited after I talk to every doctor especially when they tell me how great I will look after. I think I am just excited about the results and having the actual procedure done not so much the doctors I've seen. I am still dealing with the fact that I will be put under (using propofol what MJ died from- improper use though but still) and the fact that I will be sleep for 5 or more hours! That's almost a whole nights sleep for me. So I am working through that part but I want it so bad I will be ok.
I almost can go without the TT but I just feel like it will be super awesome. I just want to be ready for bikini season! After 22 years I will finally get to wear an un-padded bra. Just thinking about the after makes me soo excited. That's why I just want to get there! I am not looking forward to the recovery and just wonder if its worth all the trouble seeing as though I am not "that bad" whatever "that" is! I am hoping to get pain pump on bothmy boobs and my tummy to keep me comfortable. What will I tell my family? I really dont want anybody to know. I have only told a couple of my CLOSE friends and my sister as I am a very private person anyway. My husband is ok with it because he knows how bad I want it, but he is not excited by a long shot. He is really doing it for me. I bet you he will LOVE the result so I cant wait to post that once its done. I look forward to posting pic's. But first I look forward to finding my surgeon and locking in my date.
I am not sure if I should wait for these other two surgeons. One is Raleigh Durham area and I am in Charlotte so that's a 3 hours drive just for a consult AND he charges for his consults too. They ave a 3 step process for out of towners so I start step one tomorrow. Step 2 and 3 wont be until Feb as well. The other consult I am waiting on is on Feb 13th, he charges AND its about a 45 minute to an hour drive from my house. This female PS is very close to my house so that's a big plus. Ok so this is why i am thinking of just going with her. But I am just windering about "that feelng" that yu are supposed to get when you meet the one! This is really weighing heavily on me. I am soo excited about surgery and want to learn as much as I can so I have been stalking these forums all day everyday. Its the first thing I do when I wake up and teh last think I do before I go to sleep. It's really taking over my life and I spend most all waking moments doing some research or on a forum reading!
Boy I will be glad when this is over. I am beginning to think the more you see the more confused you get. I have gotten quotes from 10k-20k. From over the muscle to under, from smooth to textured, from a full to a mini, benelli to full anchor, from all stretch marks will be gone to not quite all of them. Man I have been told so many different things my head is spinning! Once iI get my date I will be soooooooo happy it will be a big relief. Ok I will update again once I speak to the next surgeon or before if more comes up before then. This is my booby journey and I plan to post everything here from searching for a doc to perform my surgery to post op pictures. I hope to read this one day when this is all over and I can look down at my boobies and my belly and say it was ALL worth it!