Depressed and Scared After CC Revision. Not Sure What to Do. Advice Welcome. -Brisbane, AU

Hi girls, I'd really love some advice from anyone...

Hi girls, I'd really love some advice from anyone who went through an explant. I've hated having implants for a long time now, but didn't really think having them out was an option. After seeing you all and reading your stories, I'm dreaming of doing it too. I just don't know what they're going to look like if I do.

Over the years, I've experienced some upsetting negative comments about my "fake breasts", which made me feel very embarrassed and ashamed. I wish I wasn't a sensitive person and didn't care what people said, but I am. Sadly, it's the reason I got implants to begin with. My mother and friends would tease me about my "little boobs". They made me feel like I was somehow defective and "less than". I was 24 years old when I had the initial surgery and am now 42.

I had CC in both breasts for many years but was too scared to fix them. Finally I got up the courage to have the revision (5 weeks ago), but it didn't go as I planned. I went into surgery thinking they'd be teardrops, only 10% bigger and that the incision would be underneath. Unfortunately, I woke to find they're round, 20% bigger and PS went through the areola again. What makes this even more upsetting is that he'd always planned to do it this way, he just didn't tell me. When questioned about them being round he just said that "he knew he could make them look teardrop anyway. What?? I feel so stupid for trusting someone completely with my body. To make matters worse, they're now moderate profile, so the extra width makes them look double the size they were.

I can't stop crying, as I'm unsure what to do next. I want them out before the bigger implants stretch the breast tissue any more that they already have, but I can't make a decision about what to do next. I wouldn't have a clue what size they'd be or how saggy explanted. I'm posting some pics of what they look like now. I've also taken a few of me pinching the tissue around the implant to show how much is my own breast. I'm wondering if any of you ladies can tell me if you had a similar amount of tissue and what size they ended up being after explant. I've read that implants can thin the tissue out and am scared there's nothing left under these big bazookas.

Today I'm pretty hung up on what size I am...

Today I'm pretty hung up on what size I am underneath these things. Yesterday I saw a PS about explanting (still only 6 weeks post CC revision). After pinching my skin and having a feel around, she said I'd only be an A cup and I'd be very unhappy with what they'd look like explanted. When I was 24 years old my original PS told me I was a B cup, but after looking at some old photos I don't know. I'm going to see if he has a pic of my real breasts before putting in my first implants. I have a vague memory of one being taken and me cringing lol but that was 18 years ago, so I can't be sure if it really happened. I posted some old preimplant pics with clothes on (don't have naked photos... I was a good girl haha). What do you ladies think? Big A or small B??

Can't understand how they could only be As now,...

Can't understand how they could only be As now, considering the extra 18 pounds I've gained over the years. Worried the implants and capsular contracture thinned out what little breast tissue I had. Hope that's not the case :-(

Forgot to mention that I haven't had any children...

Forgot to mention that I haven't had any children and didn't breast feed (I had two miscarriages both around 4 1/2 months).

Sorry, girls, just realised that ten preimplant...

Sorry, girls, just realised that ten preimplant photos was probably a tad obsessive. After 18 years, I'd almost forgotten what they looked like. Up 'til now I've resisted the urge to get a Facebook page, because it always seemed so time consuming. But it looks like I got me a "Faceboob" one instead. How the hell did that happen? My boobs are definitely all in your face here, that's for sure ;-)
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Wow... Your body was unbelievably perfect, what a knock out natural beauty! I have stopped myself from making a pre-implant montage because it would depress me too deeply, but I am currently making a post-explant montage and so excited and happy for my future now that I got them out :D Thanks for posting all your pics, it was so relatable and brought back a flood of memories for me as I was 23 yr old with 12-15% body fat and very active in fitness when I put implants in. Your pictures of your pre-implant body express what a lot of us went through who implant when we are very young and fit. We think there is something wrong with us having small boobs but of course we have small boobs because we also had washboard abs and low body fat and were so young! Many of us got into implants this same way. Some of these girls are getting their implants out right away and bouncing back to almost identical to pre implants. For us who have had implants longer it is a big leap to consider explant after many life changes. As someone who made the jump, I tell you honestly it's not that bad. Deciding/obsessing/finding a surgeon/waiting for surgery all suck. Once the implants and the weight, hardness, etc come out it gets better every day!
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Oh - by the way, your body is still pretty perfect! It's just you never needed the implants to begin with. :(( You look like you are still very fit and petite.
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Hi there! I just explanted April 4th and I couldn't be happier! I am 46 now, I only had my implants for a bit over 5 years. My skin does not seem to have stretched too much. From what I've seen on this site, women who have explanted have had fabulous results. Our bodies are resilient. My PS said not to even consider a lift until 6 months after because it can take that long for the skin to 'snap back.' He said I probably won't even need a lift, a lot of women don't. All I can tell you is go with your instinct. I feel much better knowing I don't have any foreign parts inside my body any longer and it's such a relief. You will probably find that most PS will try to talk you out of explanting by telling you that you'll be unhappy, blah blah blah! It's YOUR body, do what is best for YOU! Good luck to you and whatever you decide.
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Hi SR1207, congrats, they look great. Your final result should be fantastic. You definitely made the right decision. Thanks for the advice :-) X
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Hey Sovran, I think I have a bit of a Faceboob, too! :-) Also not on Facebook and never, EVER took a pic of my boobs before joining this site! I see you are planning on waiting things out and hoping that the CC won't return. I know how hard it can be to go through with explant even when it's what you really want- especially when you aren't having any problems with them. Nothing was wrong with my implants, so I could have kept them until things did go awry, but planning a pregnancy and fearing their increasing magnitude (not to mention my hatred of them!) was what scared me enough to do it. You have to make the right choice for yourself, and if that means keeping the boobs for a while longer, that's what you should do. Explant isn't for sissies or wafflers. :-) It's quite an emotional experience and you have to be ready to accept the outcome, which at best is smaller boobs, and at worst something you feel you can't accept. Most of us have been pretty pleased with what we've ended up with, and there is definitely something to be said for the peace of mind you gain from not having future issues and ops to fix them. If you do decide at some point to ditch the bags, we'll be here for you! xxx
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Very Well Said Nervous Girlie!!! So Right On!!!
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Thanks NervousGirlie. If I get CC again, which would probably be in the next few months, then the decision to explant will be an easy one. I refuse to do any more revisions. I wouldn't say there's nothing wrong with them now. They have rippling, they're too big, I can feel the implant through my skin in some areas... real attractive... one is lower than the other etc but I am a big fat sissy and put up with grade three CC for more than ten years (lol who does that?), so there can be no doubt that my hatred for something doesn't outway my cowardness. I absolutely loath the damn things and the restrictions I put on myself because of them. I went away with hubby and some of his colleagues and their wives for a weekend. While the boys were playing golf the girls sat by the pool. They were in their bikinis and letting it all hang out. Some were overweight and while they didn't like their bodies they were still comfortable enough to sit there half naked, which I have a great deal of respect for and I envy their "dont give a rat's what others think" attitude. Still, I didn't feel confident joining them and was worryied that someone would ask me if my boobs were fake and then tell everyone (which has happened to me in the past). So pathetic, I know. I need to grow some balls in my pants not on my chest lol anyway, if I did an explant no one would see what they looked like underneath the clothes, they would just see nice natural boobies (with a pushup bra, of course haha), so this horrible selfconscious attitude I cant seem to shake about my fakeness would improve dramatically. having said all that, I'm scared as hell and will continue to procrastinate a bit longer. Thanks for your support. Just reading your stories has been very enlightening. I'm completely in awe of everyone's bravery X
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Well, then I guess I would have to say I had issues with mine, too. They were too big, looked saggy, one had fallen out from under the muscle and was just hanging in my skin, and I had rippling on the sides that was very visible when I bent over! I think living with CC for many years is actually very common. Plenty of women on here have said as much. I wouldn't say you are a coward- I hope my saying explant isn't for sissies didn't make you feel I was implying you are one! I was pretty darn scared before my op, and I had almost hoped I would get a spontaneous deflation so I would have absolutely no option to back out. I was terrified I might be making a huge mistake and would be so depressed I'd need to put them back in and be chained to those things for a lifetime. You are not pathetic! You sound like such a sweet, sensitive, fun person and my heart aches because I can see the hurt and anxiety your situation is causing. Explant is a difficult thing for so many of us, and it's such a mixed bag- you never know what you are going to end up with or how you are going to feel when it's over. It's definitely not the right choice for everyone and some people just aren't ready. I was very self-conscious of my size with implants and now I am proud of my little, saggy boobies! I am sure when you are ready to make the leap, you will find happiness in your little, squishy boobies, too. Wait as long as you feel is necessary. I hope your boobs stay soft and CC-free, and that if/when you finally do 'go natural,' that I will see your post about how relieved and in love with your natural self you are. :-) xxx
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Haha no, I knew what you meant, I always think I'm a sissy la la when it comes to this stuff ;-))
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Sweet Sovran, your story got me choked up for you... I hope you don't feel alone. You are a beautiful girl... I don't even need to see your face. You have to make the decision to explant because you want to, but it sounds like you are leaning in that direction. Like you, I was worried I'd have nothing left - I am 15 days post explant and actually have breast tissue where prior to my BA I didn't have as much. I am amazed how our bodies are able to heal so wonderfully and you look like you really take care of yourself - healthy and fit... So helpful. I can tell you that I haven't regretted my decision and I am very sensitive like you. I think you would look terrific saying goodbye to them. Best wishes to you while you do your soul searching... :)
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Thank you, BittyBella, you look great and still a good size. Nice and even, too. How you guys got up the courage to do it is beyond me right now. I'm almost hoping mine get CC again so I don't have a choice but to explant. I was 24 in 1994 when I first got boobies, too. That's definitely encouraging, because yours look great for having had them so long X
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Congrats for finding this website-you are "home" :) I explanted a little over a week ago. I am definitely much smaller than I was (implanted 15 yrs ago, post 2 pregnancies w/BF), but it is all me. I can't wait to get past the 2-week jog bra w/ace bandage wrap point, but still need some emotional healing time. There are lots of bras, bathing suits, etc. out there now to help us w/our curves-I might not have gone down this path if they were as easily accessible (and good) back then. You probably do have one extra tissue to your breasts, but it is going to take time to retract & sort itself out. Good luck & keep us posted!
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I know, if only padded wonderbras were around back then, I would have been in heaven and may not have done this to myself. I remember having a big padded bra that looked like something my grandma would wear. The first and only time I wore it out, my friends had a field day telling everyone (including my new boyfriend). I was sooo mortified. These days no one would even bat an eyelid about some padding, I guess i was ahead of my time lol definitely missed an opportunity to invent something more wearer-friendly. Oh well :-)
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Hi Sovran reading your posts you sound not sure about which way to go. Going for numerous surgery is a very slippery slope and costly. You never know what the outcome will be and can be so dissapointed with the end result. If you explant and thats it well you are all YOU again (a new chapter) and nothing else can go wrong--it can take soime adjusting to your size again but like i said before good bras and nice swim wear make all the difference. I have just bought a voda swim bra from the USA cost me 72€ but supposed to make you look a bit bigger--i am sure it will be more comfotable than the cheap one i just bought--so excited about it arriving. Now i can really try on loads of bras--before there was a limited choice. I really dont mean to sound biased. But yep i am all for explant--i really dont get how anyone would want to put their bodies through all this torture--maybe if i had had the right implants to begin with and no cc i would feel completely different. Please dont take offense to my waffle --but please think very carefully about the choice you make. I feel you are being pulled in 2 different directions and am concerned your surgeon will talk you into more unnecessary surgery as many of them do--they dont like to explant. Everyone is individual and we will all will respect your descion. take care xxx
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Hi, Reed69. Don't worry, I'm not offended ;-) I've wanted to be implant free almost as soon as I got the damn things. I'm always worried that people will define me as superficial solely on the fact that I have implants. I did this to myself in an attempt to cure my insecurities, not to be the most beautiful woman on the planet. But all I did was create more insecurities. Funny thing is, I'm less likely to wear a bikini now because of the fear of people knowing I'm fake than I was when I had smaller boobs. If only i'd known how crippling it would be!! At this point, I'm only certain of one thing. If CC returns, I wont be doing any more revisions. Been there, done that. At the moment, the plan is to explant and do a lift later on if I get a contracture again, which apparently is a high probability, but it depends on who you talk to. It's all very confusing, as even the "experts" can't agree. I've definitely had enough. But I'm worried of being too hasty and getting rid of them, if they don't have any signs of CC. I could end up so depressed that it would be very destructive to my life and family. I know how my head operates and if I jump the gun I'd be full of regrets. Better to be 100% sure, so I don't beat myself up later on. My biggest concern is having had CC for so long maybe it would increase my chances of explant deformities. I don't know enough about the consequences, yet. Or why one person gets tethering and deformities and another doesn't. A crystal ball would be handy right now. I noticed you are in Alicante. My family immigrated to Australia from Almeria (before i was born). Spain is a beautiful country. I'd give anything for an authentic paella like the one my abuelito used to make ;-))
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You are so right, take your time--you dont want to have any regrets--just pick our brains form time to time xxx Yeh if only we had a crystal ball! It is so weird how some people sail through explant and others have some probs--but all seem to be corrected--just takes time. A few women here had CC for some time--i had mild CC for a year or two--just put up with it as it wasnt too bad. (on my right side). Those with CC seem to of explanted without real probs--- Are you half Spanish or something then????? My cousin lives in Mojaca which is next door to Almeria. We are 4 hour drive from Almeria--small world eh? Have you been to Spain?? if in the future ---pay us a visit ! LOL! xxx
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Yes, my mum's Spanish. We stayed in Spain for a few months when I was 10 years old, but I haven't been back since. Someday maybe ;-) X
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wow you looked fab without those implants. Hindsight eh??? So sorry to hear you had miscarriages--i have had 2 and 3 ectopics--loads of other problems re fertility--that's another chapter--but it has made me stronger! On a positive note your breasts should bounce back if you didnt have babies hanging of them LOL. I really dont think having CC thins them out. I had cc on right side--caps nit removed--my PS said it wasn't necessary--just had it scored whatever that meant. To be honest i just wanted mine out and that was it. I have no regrets with my PS or leaving the caps in. I think you will be a small B--and with a great push up bra a C cup! LOL. this is the worst part for you waiting in the wings--we are all here for you xxx
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Do you still have capsular contracture? Your breasts look very nice. You can do alift at the same time but to,will be very unhappy within explanat. Maybe a downsize to 300ccs and a internal bra maybe? To prevent scaring?
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Hi Ariana, no contracture now. I had it for over ten years and was too scard to fix it, but just had CC revision 6 weeks ago. I read one of your stories about your BA gone wrong. I really feel for you. Hope you've been able to get it redone and are happy now X
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I have had them redone. Very happy with them. Married now so I Gusse they did the trick!!! If you don't have a capsule contracture why not keep your boobies the way they are the look amazing!
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Glad to hear you're happy with them now. I met my husband with CC and he reckons he didn't even know they were fake until I told him, and he definitely got up close and personal. Maybe he was just very drunk haha but that's love for you :-)) I'm starting to think I shouldn't do anything more until I know whether the capsular contracture will return or not. I think it's usually 3 months after revision that it raises its ugly head. I wont keep going through revision after revision, though. Enough's enough.
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Oh I see. That's like me with my symmastia. But I was willing to do a million revisions. My Husband didnt know I had implants ether. I When I had saline implants I thought they felts to hard, than I met a girl who didn't have implants and hers, felt the same.. Now I got gel and there sooo soft, no they just,feel just as,soft as real breasts.
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Anyways I'm going to prey on this. There is medcine that can soften capsular contracture. If you notice the signs let him know ASAP and ask for Singulair. Girls have taken it and they said the hardness went away!
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Hi again, ok I just read your new post. I can send you a pick of me pre implants I am built very similar to you and I was a AAcup I had 380cc's for 23 years. I'm now 50 and my breast are a full Bcup now. I had the lift as well, but you have much more natural breast than me. If I were in your shoes I would not get anything else put in. I would buy a very good compression bra and were it all the time after your explant and give your skin a chance to tighten and give your breast the chance to fill in and fluff. Your body is very beautiful and you are toned like me. You have lots of muscle which will help as well. I'll see if I can scan a bathing suit photo of me pre boobs so you can see how flat I was. Your going to laugh. Smile and be Happy your well on your way. ;)
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