Gain Control of My Faith While Building My Self-Esteem - Baltimore, Maryland

I am a 35 year old woman, who has always had large...

I am a 35 year old woman, who has always had large breast as a teen. I can recall of a time in which my dad told my mom that he thought I might have to get a "deduction" lol. I think with in the last two years, I have been very uncomfortable with having large breast. I have had pains in back, rashes, thought of having to buy bras that cost over $50 dollars.

Over the years I think I have noticed the issues that come along with having large breast, but I always contributed to some other ailment. I am very nervous about having a breast reduction however I am going to gain control over my faith to get me through it. I am very nervous of being put to sleep and having surgery. I want to do it because I think it will help my self-esteem. I realize that my body image for me is not where I would like it to be. My bras size is a 34 h, if I measure under my rib cage I am a 32 and when I measure around my breast I am a 43. It is such a big difference. I am very busty at the top but a size 10 on the bottom. My dream is to buy a bra right off the shelf at target, walmart, etc.

I also dream of wearing a button down shirt that doesn't have a pucker in sight. The dreadful idea of wearing a swimsuit that fits all the way around. Since deciding to do this big step, I have noticed that I am far more pain in my back and I have noticed that I have poor posture, bra strap grooves hurt and burn, and I have two permanant scars on the sides of my breast from the underwire digging in my skin. I have been having the hardest time to have blouses or shirts to fit me the way that makes me feel confident. Over the past few months I have been able to stock my closet with lots of pants but no shirts to match the bottom.

On November 28, I went for my consultation, I wasnt nervous at all. I didnt have many question because this website has provided me with lots of information. I got a call to schedule my appt for Jan 9, but I got very nervous and chickened out. My sister and mom stated that I should just get it done and over with. I was a little worried about timing since I work at a public school. I decided to just schedule it and take the time off and not wait for any school breaks. I called back for the Jan 9th date, but it was taken. My big date for gaining my self esteem back is Feb.13. Throughout this whole ordeal that I must have faith. sot that's why I am going to gain control over my faith and building my self esteem for my the new born "TWINS". I am posting some before pictures.

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New date for surgery June 4.
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When is your new surgery date Princess?? Hope you are feeling better.
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Sorry to hear about your set back hopefully it won't be too long until your op is rescheduled.
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Hello ladies. I am scheduled again to have breast...

Hello ladies. I am scheduled again to have breast reduction on June 4. Pleas pray for me that I go and just do it. The do.tor tht I am using now has do e over 400 breast reductions. She was recommended by a lady from church. I cant wait to have smaller boobs. The ironic thing is that my back has been in more than I ever had lately. I am posting new before pictures

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That would be perfect! You're going to love bra shopping. Skinny straps are great!!
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Good luck Princss!! that's a whole lot of weight on your little frame. You're going to do great. Can't wait to see the after. How much is the surgeon thinking will be removed? What cup size do you want to be?
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Not sure how much surgeon will take off, I would like to be a 34 c or a low 34 d.

Four more days to the big reduction. I am getting...

Four more days to the big reduction. I am getting a little nervous, I am truly trying to stay positive that this is the best decision. I am just ready to get it done. I a will do my best to have faith and stay focus. I picked up button ip pjs,baby wipes, breast pads, Vaseline. I want to pick up an extra surgical bra. What is recommended? How long does the average procedure take? Is it okay to have a few jitters.

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Thanks faythfull Texas an sandrina. I read my daily bread book this morning and wow it was centered on having faith. I was so motivated that I wrote the word faith on an index card and placed it on my desk so that it was a reminder. I have three days to the big reduction. I can't wait to say I am part of the itty bitty titty committe. Lol
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Princessp I am the fifth!! All the nerves are normal but you can do it!! Just think if the pain free days you will have and your self esteem will sky rocket!! I agree with Sandrina! Lean in our father who already has you in His hands. He is carrying you through this!! He will keep and care for you!! Faith!!! You can do thia and it will be amazing!!! Prayers for you!! Faith!! He has tou in the palm of His hand!!
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Thanks so much for your encouraging words...I am going to do my best. What size are you before and after BR?
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Having the worst dreams ever about this surgery. I...

Having the worst dreams ever about this surgery. I think my anxiety is setting in and I am allowing it to get me crazy. It this normal. I am realty looking to my faith to get thru this. I can't wait for the survey to be over. My other anxiety is I don't like staying in hospitals. I have to get my self together feeling a bit of emotional. :(

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Princessp, you got this girl. I just had my Br on May 25. two days after school got out here. I work for the school system also. Summer is the perfect time for this. Return as a new you. I was a 40H and I just baught my first post op soft cup bra today and it is a "D" cup. WOW. I am extreamly happy.I am 32 years old and for the first time in my life I feel average busted. :O) I adore my new boobies. I like the freedom I feel and the comfort is priceless. I was freaked out (read my profile :O) ) about the anasthesia but it all was great. Really to be honest the anxiety before the surgery was the worst part for me. I laugh at it now but I was certin I would not wake up. Other than feeling rope burn under my breasts I felt perfectly fine. I actually cried for a second when I got to see my hubby but not because of pain or anything, but just because I was just SOOO glad to see him again. I actually told all the nurses that treated me pre-op :O) that the most important thing was for them to keep me alive :O) They all smiled and assured me that I was perfectly safe. I must have made a good impression because they mailed me a very nice get well card :O) that they had all sighned. too funny. you are not alone in this. you can do this. all it takes is you being brave enough to walk in there. Tell them you are freaking out when you get there and they will give you something to relax you. That is all you will remember and next thing you know you will be done !
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One minute I am feeling good the next minute I'm...

One minute I am feeling good the next minute I'm going scared. I am just a bit nervous. I am going to do before shots and pat them. Praying for a quick and safe surgery and recovery with no complications. Ladies thanks for your encouraging words b

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I am getting ready to go to bed and try to get a...

I am getting ready to go to bed and try to get a goodnight sleep. I will update as soon as I can :)

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hi we all have faith in you i also have big breast my surgery date is Nov 9th a little time for know but i know it will be here sooner then you know it i am hoping and praying they will call me sooner but goodluck i hope you went and did it so you can feel better girlie godbless go check out my page too godbless and please stay in touch
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Prayers and good vibes your way!!!
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Good Luck tomorrow princessp, will be praying for you:)
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Hello ladies. I did it. I have to give total...

Hello ladies. I did it. I have to give total praise to my lord and savior Jesus Chris. Surgery was better than thought it would be. The recovery just hurts. I will post pics and more. Do says I am a c cup lol.

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Congratulations, Princess! I can't wait to see the new you :-) I bet you feel so much better!
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omg congrats i cant wait for a new me.... oh please post pics soon god bless...
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Congratulations!! Wishing you a very speedy recovery :)
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The day of surgery went a little late, I was...

The day of surgery went a little late, I was supposed to be ther at 6 am however my phone was out of wack never got the message. I wake up at around 6:38 called the hospital to realize that I was supposed to be there at 6. I told them I would be on my way, I got there around 745. The traffic was horrible. I got there and thought about backing out, doc talked to me and it calmed me a little. I was so afraid that I would not wake up. I remember getting Valium and then they wheeled me to the OR. The anesthesiologist told me to breathe and then I remember waking up instantly to out only bra. I woke up instantly from the anesthesia. I was in pain they gave me meds. I saw my mom and daughters and that was priceless. I am still on pain meds, I am taking over the counter Tylenol to scared to take the oxycotin. The worst pain is underneath my boobs where they cut. Other than that its been okay. I was a little emotional yesterday when was able to wear a dress to my daughters graduation. I'm so excited to have hd this done. The worst pArt is sleeping. Hopefully that will get better soon. This Website is so awesome, I have had lots of encouraging words from people who I dont even know this is great. Back to ps on Tuesday, hopefully all is well.

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What do I do about it itching?

What do I do about it itching?

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Hey! Just dropping in to check on you! I hope all is going well ;)
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You can try Benadryl for the itching...but remember that it could make you sleepy, so be careful, especially if you are taking narcotic pain relievers as well.
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WooHoo! So happy everything went well for you! Rest and enjoy the freedom you now have!
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