Gain Control of My Faith While Building My Self-Esteem - Baltimore, Maryland

I am a 35 year old woman, who has always had large...

I am a 35 year old woman, who has always had large breast as a teen. I can recall of a time in which my dad told my mom that he thought I might have to get a "deduction" lol. I think with in the last two years, I have been very uncomfortable with having large breast. I have had pains in back, rashes, thought of having to buy bras that cost over $50 dollars.

Over the years I think I have noticed the issues that come along with having large breast, but I always contributed to some other ailment. I am very nervous about having a breast reduction however I am going to gain control over my faith to get me through it. I am very nervous of being put to sleep and having surgery. I want to do it because I think it will help my self-esteem. I realize that my body image for me is not where I would like it to be. My bras size is a 34 h, if I measure under my rib cage I am a 32 and when I measure around my breast I am a 43. It is such a big difference. I am very busty at the top but a size 10 on the bottom. My dream is to buy a bra right off the shelf at target, walmart, etc.

I also dream of wearing a button down shirt that doesn't have a pucker in sight. The dreadful idea of wearing a swimsuit that fits all the way around. Since deciding to do this big step, I have noticed that I am far more pain in my back and I have noticed that I have poor posture, bra strap grooves hurt and burn, and I have two permanant scars on the sides of my breast from the underwire digging in my skin. I have been having the hardest time to have blouses or shirts to fit me the way that makes me feel confident. Over the past few months I have been able to stock my closet with lots of pants but no shirts to match the bottom.

On November 28, I went for my consultation, I wasnt nervous at all. I didnt have many question because this website has provided me with lots of information. I got a call to schedule my appt for Jan 9, but I got very nervous and chickened out. My sister and mom stated that I should just get it done and over with. I was a little worried about timing since I work at a public school. I decided to just schedule it and take the time off and not wait for any school breaks. I called back for the Jan 9th date, but it was taken. My big date for gaining my self esteem back is Feb.13. Throughout this whole ordeal that I must have faith. sot that's why I am going to gain control over my faith and building my self esteem for my the new born "TWINS". I am posting some before pictures.

Hello ladies. I am scheduled again to have breast...

Hello ladies. I am scheduled again to have breast reduction on June 4. Pleas pray for me that I go and just do it. The do.tor tht I am using now has do e over 400 breast reductions. She was recommended by a lady from church. I cant wait to have smaller boobs. The ironic thing is that my back has been in more than I ever had lately. I am posting new before pictures

Four more days to the big reduction. I am getting...

Four more days to the big reduction. I am getting a little nervous, I am truly trying to stay positive that this is the best decision. I am just ready to get it done. I a will do my best to have faith and stay focus. I picked up button ip pjs,baby wipes, breast pads, Vaseline. I want to pick up an extra surgical bra. What is recommended? How long does the average procedure take? Is it okay to have a few jitters.

Having the worst dreams ever about this surgery. I...

Having the worst dreams ever about this surgery. I think my anxiety is setting in and I am allowing it to get me crazy. It this normal. I am realty looking to my faith to get thru this. I can't wait for the survey to be over. My other anxiety is I don't like staying in hospitals. I have to get my self together feeling a bit of emotional. :(

One minute I am feeling good the next minute I'm...

One minute I am feeling good the next minute I'm going scared. I am just a bit nervous. I am going to do before shots and pat them. Praying for a quick and safe surgery and recovery with no complications. Ladies thanks for your encouraging words b

I am getting ready to go to bed and try to get a...

I am getting ready to go to bed and try to get a goodnight sleep. I will update as soon as I can :)

Hello ladies. I did it. I have to give total...

Hello ladies. I did it. I have to give total praise to my lord and savior Jesus Chris. Surgery was better than thought it would be. The recovery just hurts. I will post pics and more. Do says I am a c cup lol.

The day of surgery went a little late, I was...

The day of surgery went a little late, I was supposed to be ther at 6 am however my phone was out of wack never got the message. I wake up at around 6:38 called the hospital to realize that I was supposed to be there at 6. I told them I would be on my way, I got there around 745. The traffic was horrible. I got there and thought about backing out, doc talked to me and it calmed me a little. I was so afraid that I would not wake up. I remember getting Valium and then they wheeled me to the OR. The anesthesiologist told me to breathe and then I remember waking up instantly to out only bra. I woke up instantly from the anesthesia. I was in pain they gave me meds. I saw my mom and daughters and that was priceless. I am still on pain meds, I am taking over the counter Tylenol to scared to take the oxycotin. The worst pain is underneath my boobs where they cut. Other than that its been okay. I was a little emotional yesterday when was able to wear a dress to my daughters graduation. I'm so excited to have hd this done. The worst pArt is sleeping. Hopefully that will get better soon. This Website is so awesome, I have had lots of encouraging words from people who I dont even know this is great. Back to ps on Tuesday, hopefully all is well.

What do I do about it itching?

What do I do about it itching?
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