“Gain Control of My Faith While Building My Self-Esteem - Baltimore, Maryland”

I am a 35 year old woman, who has always had large breast as a teen. I can recall of a time in which my dad told my mom that he thought I might have to get a "deduction" lol. I think with in the last two years, I have been very uncomfortable with having large breast. I have had pains in back, rashes, thought of having to buy bras that cost over $50 dollars.

Over the years I think I have noticed the issues that come along with having large breast, but I always contributed to some other ailment. I am very nervous about having a breast reduction however I am going to gain control over my faith to get me through it. I am very nervous of being put to sleep and having surgery. I want to do it because I think it will help my self-esteem. I realize that my body image for me is not where I would like it to be. My bras size is a 34 h, if I measure under my rib cage I am a 32 and when I measure around my breast I am a 43. It is such a big difference. I am very busty at the top but a size 10 on the bottom. My dream is to buy a bra right off the shelf at target, walmart, etc.

I also dream of wearing a button down shirt that doesn't have a pucker in sight. The dreadful idea of wearing a swimsuit that fits all the way around. Since deciding to do this big step, I have noticed that I am far more pain in my back and I have noticed that I have poor posture, bra strap grooves hurt and burn, and I have two permanant scars on the sides of my breast from the underwire digging in my skin. I have been having the hardest time to have blouses or shirts to fit me the way that makes me feel confident. Over the past few months I have been able to stock my closet with lots of pants but no shirts to match the bottom.

On November 28, I went for my consultation, I wasnt nervous at all. I didnt have many question because this website has provided me with lots of information. I got a call to schedule my appt for Jan 9, but I got very nervous and chickened out. My sister and mom stated that I should just get it done and over with. I was a little worried about timing since I work at a public school. I decided to just schedule it and take the time off and not wait for any school breaks. I called back for the Jan 9th date, but it was taken. My big date for gaining my self esteem back is Feb.13. Throughout this whole ordeal that I must have faith. sot that's why I am going to gain control over my faith and building my self esteem for my the new born "TWINS". I am posting some before pictures.