6 Month Old Implants. I Want Them Out!

I have been hating my implants for a couple of...

I have been hating my implants for a couple of months now. They are about 6 months old, 450cc silicone , under the muscle and I'm terrified of what I'll look like when they are removed. I had zero breast tissue to begin with and writing this makes me even more terrified of the look and feel of my breasts afterward. If it makes a difference, I have had three children and my stomach regained it's former self months after delivery. I actually don't regret the augmentation, it has really opened my eyes as to what's important in life and I no longer am trying to be my former 21 year old self. I am married now, I'm a mother and I want to focus all my love and attention to my husband and children....not to my looks. I don't know how posting on this site works yet, but I would really, really appreciate kind words of encouragement. This is a fragile time for me and I'm seeking advice and encouragement. :) Will update soon.

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You've come to the right place! We are here for you. I haven't had implants, but it's been a slow, and sometimes painful, process of self acceptance that my breasts will never be remotely symmetrical since breastfeeding my kiddos. I guess as long as I'm okay with it and my husband doesn't mind, what does it matter. I'm glad you've come to this place in your life. Sometimes it does take something drastic to make you realize what's important. Please do keep us updated on your process! If you don't find a supportive explant doctor on your first consult, keep looking. They are out there.
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I am the same way, practically zero natural tissue. I have 4 kids . Just follow your heart. I had mine removed a couple months ago and I had 550cc, I was so scared of how I would look and feel like. But I couldn't be happier with my little bitties. They feel so soft and hugging my children closer to my heart feels even better :) I hope you are doing well. Soft hugs
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It has taken me 3 years to get up the courage to visit having my implants removed. I was so worried about what I would look like. Then I finally realized for me I wanted to be my old self because I loved who I was, I was just unhappy with my life. It's funny how when your life is happy and you accept yourself as beautiful, you realize you don't need implants and plastic surgery. You are a beautiful woman inside and out. I haven't had my implants removed yet, (planned for this summer), but I am so looking forward to being me again without the bags that the world thinks I need to be beautiful! I believe you have your head and heart in the right place. You're going to do great!
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So scared

Ok girls, I'm freaking out. I am worrying myself sick. I keep thinking that after I get them removed, there will still be silicone in my body. I've only had them for about seven months, but what if the shell started "sweating" silicone immediately. What if the capsule shrivels and feels like breast cancer down the road? I'm trying to stay positive but I am so damn mad at myself for doing this. I know things cant be undone but I am growing so paranoid and anxious each passing day. I am getting panic attacks almost daily from the worry. I can only talk to my husband about it so much before he starts to get sick of the worry. I don't blame him. My consult is in one week. I don't want to wait any longer. I just keep thinking about the long term repercussions of this stupid mistake. I cry every day :(

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“The true measure of success is how many times you can bounce back from failure.” -Stephen Richards
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Thank you for your posts. They couldn't have come at a better time. I've decided to be optimistic and *try* to be patient. This quote really lifted my spirits! Sending hugs your way!
Thank you. I'm so happy that it helped.

Consultation tomorrow

My consultation is tomorrow. I'm going to ask him about capsule removal, if that is necessary. I hope he doesn't scare me into second guessing my decision, whether intentional or not. I want to hear the truth, but I also wouldn't mind a little sugar coating to ease the pain. I'm not as emotional about my decision anymore. Although I do get down about it, I have been trying to keep my mind off of what is happening as best I can and I have been trying to see the silver lining in this situation. I have so much to be thankful for and boobs are such a small worry in the scheme of things. That sounds better on paper, but try telling my mind that when it is 1:00 am and I'm still wide awake with a million worries in my head :/ Wish me luck!

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Just a word to the wise, from my experience and from what I have read, almost all PS's suggest replacing the implants. Call it "car sales men" tactic or basically what they consider "beautiful", intentional or no, be prepared that this may happen. They way I look at it is that you can always get implants later. I personally would like to wait and see what mine look like after surgery. For some folks that isn't an option. I just want you to know that odds are they are going to look great. Your skin is still young and you haven't had them in for very long. Try not to let someone else scare you into making a decision that you don't want. If you read some of the other reviews on here some of these ladies are on their 3rd surgery. Some have went in to have them removed and were talked into getting smaller ones or new ones and they still came back, years later, to have them removed. Ultimately, you are the one that has to live with your body. Not your PS, not me, not any boyfriend or husband, but you. Do what's best for you. Good luck!
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Thank you so much. I am in the waiting room right now and I'm so nervous. I'm also so embarrassed. I'm also second guessing my decision. I'm a bundle of emotions right now and I just feel like this is a bad dream :(
Thinking of you, plentyful! (((Hugs)))

Consultation complete

Had my consultation. My doctor was so great! He didn't try to talk me into or out of anything. He advised me to wait for a little while to make sure this is what I really want. I felt a little confused going in there, I was second guessing my decision to explant and I guess my indecisiveness showed. I felt a little better about having implants after speaking with him but after a couple hours of being home, the anxiousness of having these things in my body showed its ugly head again. He mentioned briefly during the examination that he could do an internal lift. We didn't go into much detail and so I am researching a little bit about that. Anybody have any opinions or experience with an internal lift? I was still unsure but I spoke with my husband tonight who made it very apparent that if I chose to remove them, he is behind me 100 percent. I just don't think I can live with these things. I just want to feel like myself again. Small boobs and all. The only person who sees me naked is my husband, but I'll be so afraid to be seen in a swimsuit when I have this done :/ Any feedback would be greatly appreciated!

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I had my implants 25 years and enjoyed them for the first fifteen. Then i desperately wanted to remove them as i do believe they could be dangerous, and also because if you look at all the pretty actresses, many have small breasts.I couldn't find pretty bras to fit me, they got in the way...and i started to realize that little natural breasts are so much more elegant. I can wear almost anything now and not look 'vulgar' besides implants are so so obvious and the women all look as though they came off a conveyor belt!! Hope you are happy with whichever decision you decide to make... xx
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Hope your doing well, I can relate to your stressing in what is best to do. I think we are definitely too hard on ourselves, I've gone back and forth between those getting implants and those taking them out and pictures of both sides and honestly when I look at others pictures for the most part I think they look both ways in swim suits etc, the looks are different from before and afters but both good. Its odd though I don't like the way I look in a swimsuit now w implants and I remember didn't like how I looked before implants but now when I look back at picts I think I looked good than compared to now, than I wonder if after removal if I will look back to picts of my larger breasts and miss them, I hope not! Anyways I guess what I'm trying to say is that most likely to everyone else you look good either way so do what you think is best and take comfort in knowing that to everyone who matters you are beautiful either way you choose
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I went through all of the emotions you have described. How are you feeling today?
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To lift or not to lift....

So, I got a quote for my procedure. My conflict now is do I get the internal lift that he is suggesting? There are so many great results from women who didn't have any sort of lift. On one hand I feel like I should just do the explant and wait a year to see how my boobs heal. But on the other hand, I do not want to go in a year later for yet another surgery. If my results are O.K. I will always be thinking, how much better would I look if I had gone with the lift.....or, if my results are not too great, I will be kicking myself thinking the lift was the answer :/ Can anybody give me advice regarding an internal lift? Does anybody wish they had gotten one? Does anybody regret getting one? Is anybody planning one in the future? Thanks for your help, ladies! This site is the best!

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Hi, just came in for a sneak peek at your review and oh-my-stars do it! You sound very much like me pre-explant. If you weren't saggy before and aren't saggy now I'd leave well enough alone and not do the lift. You can always go back and get one later but, honestly, mine were fine. I think less is more when you're trying to navigate around this emotional roller coaster.
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If it's not too much more money to do the internal lift I would do that. Maybe ask him what it entails? I don't think it could make them look worse afterwards and at least with the internal lift there's no additional scarring involved. I wanted to get mine removed under local anesthesia but my dr said he will have to do it under general and close up the pocket. I wonder if this is an internal lift or smthng different? I can't really get a clear answer on what an internal lift is, I guess something about rearranging tissue on the inside. Depends on what you're comfortable with I guess.
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Thank you, girls! Yes I do have little breast tissue and my breasts, both before and now, didn't sag. My only fear is the size of my implants. They are 450cc and I don't know what happened to my tissue when he squeezed these things in. Do you think that makes a difference? I was a 34A but wearing the wrong band size, I was probably more of a 32B, but all the tissue settled under my nipples after breast feeding. I wish I would have given myself more time to bounce back from nursing. I really don't want to go with another doctor because he is the one that put them in and money, while it shouldn't be a factor, is. Also, I do feel comfortable with him, but I agree, I really hope he's not trying to get more bang for his buck. You never know, I guess. :/
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Pre op today

I had my pre op today and I am feeling very confident in my decision to explant. I decided to do the internal lift. So in less than two weeks I will be implant freeeeee! 99% of me will not miss them. Then there's that damn 1% that's vain as hell :D I'm hoping for the best but expecting the worst. If any of you have any advice to give me, I would appreciate it. Wish me luck!

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Good luck! This is so exciting! I'm not on the other side so I don't have any words of wisdom about that in particular. However, I do know that Arnica (sp?) is a topical, natural pain remedy that can be used for pain and I see a lot of ladies on here that use that. I've used it for other things so I know it works pretty well. You can find it at almost any health food store. Also, some people report that they have a hard time washing their hair so maybe invest in some baby powder or dry shampoo to stave off the oilies. Again, good luck!
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Also, here is some info on foods that promote healing, maybe you may also want to plan out and buy/prepare a 5-7day meal plan. I usually cook and freeze a lot of my foods: http://www.livestrong.com/article/326116-foods-that-promote-healing-after-surgery/

Second thoughts??!?

I started second guessing myself today. I have been putting off paying the remainder of my surgery fee. Tomorrow is the last day I can pay the rest. If I don't, I lose my deposit, but I also keep mah boobs. I started second guessing myself after seeing some pre BA pics as I was looking at old family pictures last night. I literally have NOTHING. And they are supposed to be smaller after the explant. I feel like I am worrying myself out of having nice boobs (in clothing) for nothing. Talk some sense into me, ladies :(

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Hey girl! -- goodluck in removal if that's what you decide. It's honestly the BEST decision I ever made!! And even I, right up until the day of surgery was seconding guessing myself and wanting to just "keep them"... so stupid. I had a similar cc range as you, and I was also in my early 20s upon removal. My guess is you will look very close, if not exactly the same after removal. And my advice is DO NOT remove your capsule, DO NOT get an internal lift. Those things greatly effect your outcome, and the LESS the PS does in removing your implants the better. Do not worry about our capsule, your body will recycle and get rid of that scar tissue on its own! And it's soo small and paper thin, especially considering how short a time you've had your implants, that it shouldn't be a factor in anything. --- I totally understand how difficult the decision to go back is, but I promise you, it feels awesome to feel like yourself in your own body again. And in so many ways for me now almost a year later, it's like the whole thing never happened, and it was all just a really bad dream! So you can go back, will all the lessons you've learned and truly appreciate what it's like to just be yourself, in your own body :)
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Google beautiful flat chested models or actresses. What is wrong with their bodies? Absolutely nothing. It's all about attitude and how your carry yourself that makes one beautiful. Beauty is on the inside. How many times has a gorgeous person opened up their mouth and turned them too hideous to be around? A LOT. Anyway, I hope you stay strong but ultimately you are the one who has to live with your body, not me. And I think the sooner you get them out the better results you will have. I think you should ask yourself, how much joy have they brought you so far? Can you imagine feeling this way for years to come or do you think you could get used to them? Do what ever is going to give you the most peace and stick with it. Listen to yourself. Be true to yourself. Good luck!
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Thank you so much, Natural_me. I have decided to go through with the explant. I was reading another story on here where the poster was also going back and forth on deciding. She said that she was in love with the fantasy of implants. I thought that was such a great way to put it. I'm in love with the fantasy of implants but I hate the reality of implants. My surgery is the day after tomorrow. Wish me luck!!

Tomorrow is the day

So nervous. This all feels so surreal. Wish me luck!

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GOOD LUCK TODAY!
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You are going to be just fine...and when you wake up from the surgery you will be back to your beautiful natural self...shall be sending a little prayer your way :) ((soft hugzz))
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done diddity done done

I'm at home nestled in a warm, comfy blanket. I am so glad I did this! wasn't nervous about the explant, I was nervous about the lift and still thought I should reconsider. So I did. I just explanted with no lift. If I need one six months down the road, I will do it, but I wanted to see what my au naturel look would be. I wanted one less worry. I just want to forget about mah boobs. One reassurance was the nurse, as she was putting me in my post op bra said my skin looked really good so that gives me hope! I feel fantastic! Like I finally woke up from a bad dream. It's indescribable. I was less nervous and had less second thoughts taking them out as I did putting them in. I was put under so I didn't feel a thing until i woke up and could feel him stitching me up! So that sucked! Other than that, i can breathe, i can cross my arms without boobs in the way lol. And in this bra under my hoodie, i don't look much different than before i had this done lol! On a scale of one to ten, pain wise, I am probably a two. Maybe a one and a half. I am so tempted to peek but I haven't. I have lightly felt them and they feel pretty much the same (keep in mind I have no breast tissue lol) but I do feel some extra skin to the outer sides of them. If that doesn't constrict, I can always use it to push them together and get more cleavage! :-D my doctor was amazing and caring and professional even after I changed my mind last minute about the lift. It was literally right before I was about to go in. He didn't try to talk me into it and there was no vibe liked "you're gonna be ugly, lady" he was way cool with it. Well, I'm very tired so I'm going to rest. Thank you to EVERYBODY for their support! It has been said before but I'm going to be a broken record, this site was my life boat as I felt I was drowning in uncertainty and depression. Thank you to everyone who has given advice, supported me and shared their stories, especially ones with pictures. I am going to post some as soon as I feel better. This was the best decision I could have made....not getting the implants, but removing them!

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Congrats! I just removed mine and I am extremely happy. I do wish that I did it sooner as it never really sat well with me after I got it done and I am really excited to be back on the other side. You are smart to have acted much sooner than I did. Happy healing and thanks for sharing your story.
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Hey girl! Your soo welcome! I'm soo happy that your over the hump now, and can being to feel normal & live a happy boob-worry free life!! :) Take it easy, and remember to keep being kind to yourself. You deserve it! Also, I'm sure you will be pleasantly surprised by just how great you look after all is settled and healed. The body knows how things are suppose to be, and it's pretty cool how everything finds it's way back. xxx
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First post op

I had my first post op appointment today. My PS was very pleased with my result so far. I think he was a little apprehensive about my ability to bounce back after such large implants with very very little tissue. But he said things are looking great. He wants to see me in three weeks. He didn't mention the need for a lift later on, but I guess we'll give it more time. So far I am very happy with my results. My boobs look almost exactly like my pre BA look. They are just a little more soft. They feel like a baby's butt lol! I hope they firm up sooner than later. He also told me to wear a snug sports bra. But I feel I should be wrapping myself in an Ace bandage.....so I am. Not very tight, but tight enough to wear I feel supported and compressed a little. Shouldn't hurt, right? I know, I know, I'm going to call and ask tomorrow. I always forget to ask these things when I am there. I was a little embarrassed today and dreading the response. I was feeling so good, I didn't want any slightly negative response to break my bubble. But, like always, he was so awesome and made me feel good! How long did you ladies use compression and did you feel like it helped speed things up or tighten things up a little better?

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Just seeing this post on here & I think you did an amazing job explaining the emotional rollercoaster that this event can be. I'm so happy you outcome is what you wanted & hope to hear an update from you soon!!
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That is such great news! You need to post an update though. What did he say about the ace bandage?
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You are so fortunate that you only had your implants for a short time - nice job on deciding to explant- Congrats!!!
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