6 Month Old Implants. I Want Them Out!

I have been hating my implants for a couple of...

I have been hating my implants for a couple of months now. They are about 6 months old, 450cc silicone , under the muscle and I'm terrified of what I'll look like when they are removed. I had zero breast tissue to begin with and writing this makes me even more terrified of the look and feel of my breasts afterward. If it makes a difference, I have had three children and my stomach regained it's former self months after delivery. I actually don't regret the augmentation, it has really opened my eyes as to what's important in life and I no longer am trying to be my former 21 year old self. I am married now, I'm a mother and I want to focus all my love and attention to my husband and children....not to my looks. I don't know how posting on this site works yet, but I would really, really appreciate kind words of encouragement. This is a fragile time for me and I'm seeking advice and encouragement. :) Will update soon.

So scared

Ok girls, I'm freaking out. I am worrying myself sick. I keep thinking that after I get them removed, there will still be silicone in my body. I've only had them for about seven months, but what if the shell started "sweating" silicone immediately. What if the capsule shrivels and feels like breast cancer down the road? I'm trying to stay positive but I am so damn mad at myself for doing this. I know things cant be undone but I am growing so paranoid and anxious each passing day. I am getting panic attacks almost daily from the worry. I can only talk to my husband about it so much before he starts to get sick of the worry. I don't blame him. My consult is in one week. I don't want to wait any longer. I just keep thinking about the long term repercussions of this stupid mistake. I cry every day :(

Consultation tomorrow

My consultation is tomorrow. I'm going to ask him about capsule removal, if that is necessary. I hope he doesn't scare me into second guessing my decision, whether intentional or not. I want to hear the truth, but I also wouldn't mind a little sugar coating to ease the pain. I'm not as emotional about my decision anymore. Although I do get down about it, I have been trying to keep my mind off of what is happening as best I can and I have been trying to see the silver lining in this situation. I have so much to be thankful for and boobs are such a small worry in the scheme of things. That sounds better on paper, but try telling my mind that when it is 1:00 am and I'm still wide awake with a million worries in my head :/ Wish me luck!

Consultation complete

Had my consultation. My doctor was so great! He didn't try to talk me into or out of anything. He advised me to wait for a little while to make sure this is what I really want. I felt a little confused going in there, I was second guessing my decision to explant and I guess my indecisiveness showed. I felt a little better about having implants after speaking with him but after a couple hours of being home, the anxiousness of having these things in my body showed its ugly head again. He mentioned briefly during the examination that he could do an internal lift. We didn't go into much detail and so I am researching a little bit about that. Anybody have any opinions or experience with an internal lift? I was still unsure but I spoke with my husband tonight who made it very apparent that if I chose to remove them, he is behind me 100 percent. I just don't think I can live with these things. I just want to feel like myself again. Small boobs and all. The only person who sees me naked is my husband, but I'll be so afraid to be seen in a swimsuit when I have this done :/ Any feedback would be greatly appreciated!

To lift or not to lift....

So, I got a quote for my procedure. My conflict now is do I get the internal lift that he is suggesting? There are so many great results from women who didn't have any sort of lift. On one hand I feel like I should just do the explant and wait a year to see how my boobs heal. But on the other hand, I do not want to go in a year later for yet another surgery. If my results are O.K. I will always be thinking, how much better would I look if I had gone with the lift.....or, if my results are not too great, I will be kicking myself thinking the lift was the answer :/ Can anybody give me advice regarding an internal lift? Does anybody wish they had gotten one? Does anybody regret getting one? Is anybody planning one in the future? Thanks for your help, ladies! This site is the best!

Pre op today

I had my pre op today and I am feeling very confident in my decision to explant. I decided to do the internal lift. So in less than two weeks I will be implant freeeeee! 99% of me will not miss them. Then there's that damn 1% that's vain as hell :D I'm hoping for the best but expecting the worst. If any of you have any advice to give me, I would appreciate it. Wish me luck!

Second thoughts??!?

I started second guessing myself today. I have been putting off paying the remainder of my surgery fee. Tomorrow is the last day I can pay the rest. If I don't, I lose my deposit, but I also keep mah boobs. I started second guessing myself after seeing some pre BA pics as I was looking at old family pictures last night. I literally have NOTHING. And they are supposed to be smaller after the explant. I feel like I am worrying myself out of having nice boobs (in clothing) for nothing. Talk some sense into me, ladies :(

Tomorrow is the day

So nervous. This all feels so surreal. Wish me luck!

done diddity done done

I'm at home nestled in a warm, comfy blanket. I am so glad I did this! wasn't nervous about the explant, I was nervous about the lift and still thought I should reconsider. So I did. I just explanted with no lift. If I need one six months down the road, I will do it, but I wanted to see what my au naturel look would be. I wanted one less worry. I just want to forget about mah boobs. One reassurance was the nurse, as she was putting me in my post op bra said my skin looked really good so that gives me hope! I feel fantastic! Like I finally woke up from a bad dream. It's indescribable. I was less nervous and had less second thoughts taking them out as I did putting them in. I was put under so I didn't feel a thing until i woke up and could feel him stitching me up! So that sucked! Other than that, i can breathe, i can cross my arms without boobs in the way lol. And in this bra under my hoodie, i don't look much different than before i had this done lol! On a scale of one to ten, pain wise, I am probably a two. Maybe a one and a half. I am so tempted to peek but I haven't. I have lightly felt them and they feel pretty much the same (keep in mind I have no breast tissue lol) but I do feel some extra skin to the outer sides of them. If that doesn't constrict, I can always use it to push them together and get more cleavage! :-D my doctor was amazing and caring and professional even after I changed my mind last minute about the lift. It was literally right before I was about to go in. He didn't try to talk me into it and there was no vibe liked "you're gonna be ugly, lady" he was way cool with it. Well, I'm very tired so I'm going to rest. Thank you to EVERYBODY for their support! It has been said before but I'm going to be a broken record, this site was my life boat as I felt I was drowning in uncertainty and depression. Thank you to everyone who has given advice, supported me and shared their stories, especially ones with pictures. I am going to post some as soon as I feel better. This was the best decision I could have made....not getting the implants, but removing them!

First post op

I had my first post op appointment today. My PS was very pleased with my result so far. I think he was a little apprehensive about my ability to bounce back after such large implants with very very little tissue. But he said things are looking great. He wants to see me in three weeks. He didn't mention the need for a lift later on, but I guess we'll give it more time. So far I am very happy with my results. My boobs look almost exactly like my pre BA look. They are just a little more soft. They feel like a baby's butt lol! I hope they firm up sooner than later. He also told me to wear a snug sports bra. But I feel I should be wrapping myself in an Ace bandage.....so I am. Not very tight, but tight enough to wear I feel supported and compressed a little. Shouldn't hurt, right? I know, I know, I'm going to call and ask tomorrow. I always forget to ask these things when I am there. I was a little embarrassed today and dreading the response. I was feeling so good, I didn't want any slightly negative response to break my bubble. But, like always, he was so awesome and made me feel good! How long did you ladies use compression and did you feel like it helped speed things up or tighten things up a little better?
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Congratulations on being natural again! I wore a marena Compressionbra (amazon .com) for three months, though my doctor told me six weeks was fine....and it felt great. I love my breasts now and they are still fluffing. It's been a little over a year. So happy to have them small and perky again!!
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Thank you so much! It feels great to be natural again! And thank you for the bra suggestion. I ordered one because I feel a lot better to have some compression. I'm looking forward to my breasts fluffing. Even if they don't, I'm just happy to have them back again! :-D
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Woot! Woot! Time to celebrate! Congrats on getting your life back.
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Lol thank you! I really do feel like I'm back to my old self. And I appreciate myself a lot more!
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Congrats! I just removed mine and I am extremely happy. I do wish that I did it sooner as it never really sat well with me after I got it done and I am really excited to be back on the other side. You are smart to have acted much sooner than I did. Happy healing and thanks for sharing your story.
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Hey girl! Your soo welcome! I'm soo happy that your over the hump now, and can being to feel normal & live a happy boob-worry free life!! :) Take it easy, and remember to keep being kind to yourself. You deserve it! Also, I'm sure you will be pleasantly surprised by just how great you look after all is settled and healed. The body knows how things are suppose to be, and it's pretty cool how everything finds it's way back. xxx
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Celebration time! I'm so happy you are finally on the other side! Yay!
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GOOD LUCK TODAY!
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Thank you so much! Your friendship has helped me to feel like I wasn't alone and made this process so much easier.
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That really means a lot to me. Thank you so much!
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You are so welcome :-)
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You are going to be just fine...and when you wake up from the surgery you will be back to your beautiful natural self...shall be sending a little prayer your way :) ((soft hugzz))
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Thank you for your friendship and your encouragement. You are definitely an inspiration to me!
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Hey girl! -- goodluck in removal if that's what you decide. It's honestly the BEST decision I ever made!! And even I, right up until the day of surgery was seconding guessing myself and wanting to just "keep them"... so stupid. I had a similar cc range as you, and I was also in my early 20s upon removal. My guess is you will look very close, if not exactly the same after removal. And my advice is DO NOT remove your capsule, DO NOT get an internal lift. Those things greatly effect your outcome, and the LESS the PS does in removing your implants the better. Do not worry about our capsule, your body will recycle and get rid of that scar tissue on its own! And it's soo small and paper thin, especially considering how short a time you've had your implants, that it shouldn't be a factor in anything. --- I totally understand how difficult the decision to go back is, but I promise you, it feels awesome to feel like yourself in your own body again. And in so many ways for me now almost a year later, it's like the whole thing never happened, and it was all just a really bad dream! So you can go back, will all the lessons you've learned and truly appreciate what it's like to just be yourself, in your own body :)
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Your response came in just when I needed it most. Especially the part about not getting a lift. I opted to go just for the explant. I'm going to give things time before deciding on a lift. Your story has been such an inspiration and when I was second guessing myself, the part of your story that stuck out the most to me was when you said you liked the fantasy of implants. That sealed the deal for me. No more second thoughts! Thank you so much for your story, it seems like all the writings I read that you were going through, I was going through. Thanks again!
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Feelings, not writings, lol!
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Google beautiful flat chested models or actresses. What is wrong with their bodies? Absolutely nothing. It's all about attitude and how your carry yourself that makes one beautiful. Beauty is on the inside. How many times has a gorgeous person opened up their mouth and turned them too hideous to be around? A LOT. Anyway, I hope you stay strong but ultimately you are the one who has to live with your body, not me. And I think the sooner you get them out the better results you will have. I think you should ask yourself, how much joy have they brought you so far? Can you imagine feeling this way for years to come or do you think you could get used to them? Do what ever is going to give you the most peace and stick with it. Listen to yourself. Be true to yourself. Good luck!
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Thank you so much, Natural_me. I have decided to go through with the explant. I was reading another story on here where the poster was also going back and forth on deciding. She said that she was in love with the fantasy of implants. I thought that was such a great way to put it. I'm in love with the fantasy of implants but I hate the reality of implants. My surgery is the day after tomorrow. Wish me luck!!
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You got this girl!
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IWhen i had implants back in the eighties...they were 'Koool' not everyone had them. Now i think they look disgusting. Small perky boobs which you are going to have are much much more youthful and prettier. You can wear clothes. I shall never forget the time i was with a man in a very intimate situation and much much chemistry. When i told him i had implants he lost all desire and was turned off. Do you really even want to consider having foreign lumps remain in your body? You are going to be healthier and more feminine and soft without those awful bags!!
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Thank you. I've been really thinking about it and you know what? They're boobs. That's it. I am a very slender girl. Slender girls usually have little breast tissue. I am tired of feeling fake. I just want to be worry free me again. Life is too short to worry about boobs. Especially expensive silicone boobs! You look so great, I am really hoping to look as good as you. But, if I don't, they're just boobs!
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Good luck! This is so exciting! I'm not on the other side so I don't have any words of wisdom about that in particular. However, I do know that Arnica (sp?) is a topical, natural pain remedy that can be used for pain and I see a lot of ladies on here that use that. I've used it for other things so I know it works pretty well. You can find it at almost any health food store. Also, some people report that they have a hard time washing their hair so maybe invest in some baby powder or dry shampoo to stave off the oilies. Again, good luck!
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Also, here is some info on foods that promote healing, maybe you may also want to plan out and buy/prepare a 5-7day meal plan. I usually cook and freeze a lot of my foods: http://www.livestrong.com/article/326116-foods-that-promote-healing-after-surgery/
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Thank you so much for this article. I just updated my story and I am feeling second thoughts about explant. I wonder if this is normal :/
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