Rhinoplasty Revision- Dr. Darrow in Boston

Doctor brushed off my concerns afewwksago. even though at 6 wks swelling should be down, I stillhave the big bump and the nose is more slanted to the left than it was before I went in. I can only hope he will offer to fix it while I do my breasts at 6mo post-op. I am hiding my face from the world right now. For $6500, I should feel the opposite.

I went in and did my best not to break down crying or insult Dr. Darrow at all because I really like him and feel like he must have done the best he could have, and also I've had a very emotional recovery and may be hyper-analyzing my results. However, when I put two mirrors together and see myself from a new angle, I see a very obvious slant or deviation of my nose. I had to show him.

As for my Miss piggy nostril: He said my nostril concern was not a big deal/difference from the orignal, and looking at the before/after pictures in his office, I figure it may just be the inner redness that is making it appear more prominent in pictures.

About it being upturned: He said I had the desirable 100-105 degree slant upward to my nose, and that sometimes in healing open rhinoplasty the tip is likely to turn up if the scar tissue retracts the bottom at all. He also reminded me to wait, that it is very early to assess.
As for the big bump: he told me to continue pressing on it while I watch tv and see if it can push the fluid and swelling down, compressing it.

As for the obvious slant which you will see in my upcoming before/after photos from the office: he told me that although he straightened it out, the "nose has a memory" and it inherently turned it crooked as it's been healing. Sooo... I just have to deal with how it is healing? Shucks.... I wish there were something I could do now. But all there is left to do is be accepting of the changes my face and body will continue to experience for the next half-year, a time in which I also plan to get a breast revision and hopefully a BBL. But if I need to invest in a whole new revision of my nose... ugh.

I can't say I'm totally unhappy with the results. I am pleased about a couple things with the surgery, just that the tip has been corrected, and getting the cartilage graft out of the tip of my nose seems to have helped with the intense itching feeling I've had since getting the first operation. I literally always feel like my nose is itchy.... but I noticed it hasn't been as bad since the revision.
Also, my breathing is definitely better since more cartilage was taken from my septum, and I think that may be reducing the migraines I've had for a few years.

I know the cosmetic result is going to take A LOT of patience but I just pray that I can get used to the worse parts over time and accept what it is, as I had to the first time around. If I still feel terrible about how I look in 6 months, I will beg Dr. Darrow to revise it slightly- just try to point it forward for me- while I go under for the breast revision. I know it's risky taking the same doctor who just gave me so-so results, but I have to trust what he's saying and have the patience to allow the nose to settle more. I do believe that after 2 weeks I am looking at permanent results, as I could tell before my nose even came unwrapped that it had been disfigured the first time around... but I will wait. I have seen the bump slightly decrease in the past couple days and my nose doesn't seem to look as slanted upward... but I don't even know how to trust my eyes at this point.

To sum up, this procedure is way more intense and complicated than I had ever assumed getting into it. I would recommend it only to those who have large issues and to leave minor things alone, because you never know if in fixing those issues, you'll give yourself twice as many new things to be upset about.

Dr. Darrow is still respected by me and did make me feel a little better about what I'm dealing with. I don't mean to discredit him at all and do want to believe that what he's saying is true, that the compression on my bump will mold it down, and that the slant to my nose was not caused by him but because my stupid nose just wants to look in a different direction than the rest of my face. It just wants to be ugly, is all. Not his fault.... ugh.

Today I am visiting Dr. Darrow.
I am very depressed and nervous about seeing any friends of mine.
The nose is dramatically crooked, there's a big hard bump at the top that was meant to fill a dent but may have been overcompensated, which only makes my nose look more crooked....
While we corrected the notch that exposed my nostril on the right side, my left side nostril looks flared all the way open and is VERY annoying just to feel the wind blow inside of. There's a reason nostrils exist, just like lips and eye lashes, it keeps out junk from blowing into your sensitive mucous membranes. I am just waiting for the upcoming day when a friend or a child takes their pointer finger and pokes me in this open hole. When I see my side profile in pictures I feel like it's a gaping cavity in the side of my face.
Looking straight on in the mirror, my nose seems okay. It's when I move or take 2 mirrors to get a better look that I notice the crookedness, the nostrils, the bump all working together to say HEY, I'VE HAD PLASTIC SURGERY.
This puts a major deterrent in my strong desire to get more enhancements in my figure, such as upgrading my implants to a bigger size and/or getting the Brazilian buttlift.
If from the moment someone looks at my face, it looks like I've had work done, and done poorly, they'll look over the rest of me and I just feel like anything they see that they like, they will discredit.
I had one hope with this revision: to not come out looking like Miss Piggy. My hopes have been destroyed.
This has been an emotional week for me otherwise, involving family disputes, physical assault, a near hospitalization and cops all making my healing an absolute nightmare. I hate half of my family and have been anticipating getting this work corrected so that I can leave looking normal and never look back to this [RS bleep] hole of a family again. My mother and brother suffer from bipolar disorder and make my life a living hell. I have refused to get a job since moving back here because I've had no plans to settle down here. But, supposedly, the best doctors are here and I have my health insurance here so it makes it difficult to leave. just a catch22 when the reason I need that health insurance is the intense [RS bleep] I go through that stresses my body out so much that I've had an ongoing migraine for 3 years now with no improvement. I just want to get my surgeries over with and hit the road with my dog, keep driving til it feels warm again.

I just don't want to look jagged and I pray that Dr. Darrow will see how much this revision meant to me, and not charge me to fix the problems that should have never come up in this surgery. I mean why fix a problem in one side only to give the same issue on the other side? Why fix a dent with a giant hard bump?

I am very upset. I will update after the appointment this afternoon to see if he will, with the help and grace of God, decide that he would not like his work represented this way.

I had really hoped I could have a picture taken of me this year and not have to work to hide my botched results. I used to perform my music and looking back, I think it was my first botched nose job that made me insecure enough to not want to get infront of people, not want to be on camera, and those are major issues when concerning my life goals. I've lost a decade to those insecurities already, insecurities I didn't even possess before my first surgery. I also wanted to do this for a future-lover that I haven't seen in a few years but who wants me to move down and be with him. He's such a good man and we've waited so long. I adore him and wanted to give him the best version of me, physically and mentally. Now I can give neither. My first surgeon was adamant that he had made an improvement and would not entertain corrected the obvious assymetry he had created. I pray to God that Darrow will be more compassionate. I appreciate any support anyone might want to share. This is a very trying time for me.