48 Yrs Old 2 Kids, 5'6 and 210lb 40H Prob Bigger - Baltimore, MD

Sorry I haven't updated its been a rough month. On the 4th I had a mini stroke...A TIA, which is very mild and can last from 15 min to 24hrs. Thank GOD mine only lasted about 8-10 hrs. No side effects by the time I was released from the hospital. As my big brother Tim sd now that I'm not living in such a stressful household my bp actually dropped to low. So no longer on hypertension mess and it's been text book perfect! Then the following wk I had a death in my family. Ok so now let's talk about my br..... truthfully I'm really depressed. My left breast is so pretty and other than scabs on my nipple is healing right on track. Now my right breast well not so good. The fng took and I think my R nipple attempted to actually raise today, boy was I shocked! But my breast is infected and has a hole in it at the T part. It started out as a scab that fell off on a tues, then I had my f/u with PS that Thurs. He immediately put me on antibiotics and gave me cleaning and wound care instructions. Well by the wknd it was the size of a quarter, today its even larger. Blood and puss constantly flows from it and it hurts so bad! I mean worse than after surgery!! So I saw my pain management Dr., who I truly love and cherish, and he sd it may need debridement. I see my PS on Thurs but I have made it very clear that at my appt we need a definitive treatment plan. My blood count has dropped dangerously low and depending on what it is Thurs will determine if transfusion is needed. At times I think the anxiety is just making it seem worse than it is....but I'm scared. I can't even take pics cause I just can't stand to see it. If anyone has had a similar situation I would really appreciate any info you can give. I would really appreciate your support right now! I don't want to scare or put doubt in anyone who is waiting for or considering BR. As my Dr. told me today that my PS did an excellent job and they [lefty] is the perfect size for my body. He has been an anesthesiologist for over 35 yrs and has seen/worked with hundreds of Dr's and he is really impressed. I will try and have my son take a few pic's of them, righty is covered with huge abdominal pads cause I am bleeding through the reg sterile gauze pads within minutes literally. I am gonna be positive...just hard at times. Thanks for all of your support you ladies are the best! I found some pics of b4 "b4 hole". Funny thing is since we just moved we had no Internet or strong enough cell signal, cable guy used my phone took take pic of password and I think I flashed him these pics!!! LLS

I made it to the other side!! WOW I don't know how to express my feelings. I guess surreal. Surgery started a lil late b/c they couldn't get iv started so I had to go in w/o any meds. I cried like a baby til they gave me laughing gas. Which by the way doesn't make you laugh I just didn't care lol. So they put some motown on and last memory was giving thumbs up to the beat of the music. Truthfully my back hurts more than my breast! It hasn't even been 12 hrs so I realize there is more to come but I just feel like it's time to nurse (breastfeed). So here are pictures when I was in recovery and after markings. I chose to be a D cup just my choice....do what is gonna make you happy. Once he told me that wouldn't hinder my pain relief I went for it! 7 lbs total removed!

I had the wknd from hell. I already told you that I'm moving but I've been staying with my brother and his wife. Well b/c I demanded my valuable jewelry be returned to me his wife called the police to "put me out". Of course they didn't since I've been here longer than 30 days but I did get my jewelry. In the middle of the night she burst in my room being very confrontational...another visit from police. I was hurt and upset but my bestie that I just reconnected with reminded me to not allow her to still my joy or peace BUT most of all not to let her raise my pressure and stop me from being able to have surgery. So I'm almost done packing, I fig that will keep me occupied while waiting for 11am to get here lol. My new adjustable bed was just delivered and my son sent me pic of my room painted! I'm sure I will post again before surgery but I told my kids to take lots of pics especially before, after markings, and after surgery. If you pray please pray for me and if not please keep me in your thoughts. Thank each and everyone of you for all of the support you've given me, it is greatly appreciated.