Feeling Trapped? (photo)

So, how are things going for you FunSize? Hoping that the New Year brings a clarity of thought and that you find a resolution to how you are feeling and what is the best path for you to take! :)

I'm really confused. Some say 450's on my tiny frame overstretched the breast envelope so I will have excess skin, others say I will be fine. One PS said that I should take out, let breast envelope recover then reimplant 9mos later!!!! Yikes. That's a long time w saggy skin and a third surgery. Plus I have a scarring condition. I've reviewed BWD and cc's and looks like either 285 HP's or 230 moderate profile. I'm of course leaning towards 230's! I have consult on 11th so I will let u know

Hi Tiki, thanks for finding me!!!! You couldn't have found me at a better time. I truly believe that women end up keeping implants and forgetting who they used to be. I hate jumping around and going nuts with implants. I'm so active and do things at a mile a minute that they physically stop me! I used to have so much freedom, but now I feel like a prisoner. They told me that for each 200cc's I'd go up one bra size, but I went up 4.5bra sizes with 450cc's. After I had them placed I felt like so someone stuffed my bra and I couldn't take them off. I hate that thy are too wide for my frame. I'm unsure that downsizing will ever make me happy. I'd like to see how they look first and implant later if necessary. All the websites say they are NOT lifetime devices. This may be my last chance to escape. I hope I don't need a lift. Can u tell me more about why you needed a lift.

Its funny that I did find you... Since I explanted, I thought I would just hop on and check out what was going on. I have been reading the forums for about 6 months now. I never felt comfortable sharing my story, but after reading about so many women that explanted and their journeys, both good and bad, I was able to come to my decision and feel good about it. Up until the 21st, I was still questioning, since my DH really wasn't thrilled I was going to go through with it. Funny, he was so supportive when I wanted augmentation, and he is the most supportive, kindest man I have ever known (he is my second husband and we have been married for only 2 1/2 years) so it was a bit dismaying that he wasn't really on board for this go round. He agreed with the PS saying I should just downsize, but really, after thinking it through (I mean 24/7 for the past year and a half) I just wasn't willing to compromise! I feel I did that in the beginning when I was augmented. I read the boards, found out that so many women were unhappy with the smaller size so they went back for bigger, that taller women eat up the cc's. I thought, geez, if all of this is true, I'd better go bigger than be unhappy, and I have always had a poor self image (coupled with an abusive 20 year marriage to a man with a personality disorder and felt so ugly and unattractive) so wanting to be sexier to my new husband and feel sexier about myself, the 550's seemed like just the ticket! I have learned so much about who I am and who I would like to be in the past year and a half on this journey. Oh, to do it all over again... Hindsight and all! Wish I had found this site back when I was researching (not just the sites with all the ladies with booby greed) When I woke up after augmentation I looked down and cried. I have regretted that decision every single day since. Fast forward to the 21st of Dec. DH still not on board, but supportive of whatever decision I wished to make. Kind of sad, but what did I expect? I did it more for him than me in the first place. Now I was doing this on my own, for me and me only... Think he felt a little left out and disappointed with himself that he would be more supportive if I had opted for just smaller implants, rather than complete explant. Not sure, but I do know that all in all, he still loves me whether I have big boobies or small boobies and I am proud of myself for sticking to what I wanted this time around, no matter what! First BA I also had a mastopexy. (lollipop lift) I was a saggy B (breastfed 2 children, 50 years old and had lost 45 lbs a year before so was REALLY saggy) and if I were to just get implants my nipples would have been hanging downward at the bottom of the implant. Since the BA and the large implants, my breasts had really stretched even after the lift. My areolas were the size of dollar coins and I was bottoming out (implants heading south down my ribcage. Guess this 50+ year old body just didn't want to tighten up since I had so much loose skin from my weight loss. Anyway, this go round I wanted smaller areolas and with my existing breast tissue (still the B I was before BA) PS said that if I insisted on no more implants he would have to do another mastopexy to lift the areola back to a perky position. So now I have perky B's, small, cute little areolas and I am ecstatic!! I like to stand in front of the mirror and check out how cute they are!! Yes, I even get a little giggly and I am only 5 days Post Op and they are still taped up and kinda flat looking!! DH has seen them only once when I was able to take off the bandage take a shower and put on the sports bra... I guess I will eventually have to start easing him into getting to like them. But, I can tell you, I feel so much more like myself and glad that I made the choice that I did. You sound much younger than I (?) and from your pics look in very athletic shape. From what I read younger skin will most likely retract and firm up much quicker than mine ever would since mine was saggy to begin with. I have read other stories here that many younger women opt for removal then wait and see how everything sorts itself out. I don't want to sound anti implant. And there really are many, many stories of women who absolutely LOVE their looks! This has been so much more of a self realization journey for me. I am now aware that I do things to please everyone and put me and my wants and needs second. Time for that to stop and for me to listen to ME first. As for the cc's. That is what I was told. I started a saggy B. Was told that 550's on my 6' frame would put me at a small D. I measured 36DDD before the 21st! Guess my body didn't eat up those cc's like I was told! Boy, am I long winded or what? I hope that you decide to make the decision that you are comfortable with. Please know that there are many of us out here that support you no matter what you decide. I don't think I could have come to my decision without the stories of the ladies here on real self. :)

I'm certain that I don't like looking like UniBoob when I zip up a sweater. I may just downsize to 225cc's so I can address the loose skin. Then I won't feel completely flat and I will still be a pretty B cup

Hi Fun Size. If you want them out, get them out!! You have to find a doctor who supports your decisions and understands your side! If they tell you to keep them in or to go smaller then they probably aren't the right surgeon to be going to!

Thanks for your support. I know for certain that what is happening is that my body has reached homeostasis. Although the trauma of surgery is over and my body has a accepted the implants, my brain knows it is all wrong. I don't like what I see in the mirror and they do get in my way. Ugh!!!! What to do? Explant and have sag or downsize as far as possible? I'm thinking that since I may not pop back and had slight sag when I bent over downsizing to 175-225 may be best.

It really is up to you what you want to do! :) Explore all the possibilities and make your decision based on ultimately what "FEELS" right. Personally, I did not want to simply downsize, even though it would have been what I wanted in the first place (a nice full C... not DDD), however, as I thought it all through, at my age, it just wasn't worth the money, recovery, replacement again down the road, etc. I just was so worried that my PS would be wrong in sizing again and I would be disappointed in myself for not doing what I wanted... So glad I listened to ME~ But that is ME... I wonder sometimes if I had gotten what I asked for in the first place, if I would have been happy...? Not sure... I would check out the boards for women who went small... using key words like 175-225 or athletic build, or downsize and see what comes up in the discussions. That is how I found this site, but there are quite a few out there with similar discussion boards. I hope that soon you find peace in your decision, whatever it may be!! :)