Hello everybody,first of all sorry for my english, but I'm not native... I live in spain.As many of you here I got a tattoo 3 weeks ago and already hate it. It's not my first tattoo, I have another one on my back that I absolutely love, although when it was finished was not exactly what I expected, but I do really really like it. I think it represents me also in its "imperfect" parts. Before getting it, I had been thinking about the style and the place (some japanese cherry flowers on the shoulder) for three years before deciding me, but the next time was not like that... unfortunatly, as probably many of you experiences, getting a tattoo causes some addiction (at least to some of us). So that I decided to get another one really impulsively. I went to a new tattoo parlor they opened a couple of months ago in my neighborhood just to "check out" what kind of tattoos they were doing (I always loved tattoos a lot... now I realize that probably more on others than on me) and I decided I needed to feel the needles in my skin again. The day I went to the appointment... I made big mistakes letting the guy doing practically whatever he wanted but I was completely unaware at that moment. First of all, I made it on my forearm... stupid... I'm looking constantly at it... everybody can see it... will that affect me some day in some jobs? what will people think of me?Second... I let the tattoo artist to choose the colors and the size. When he put the stencil, I didn't realize it was SOOO big... now I have an enormous swallow and a rose that looks really big on my forearm. Too many colors, too many orange (I hate orange! Why the hell didn't I tell him I didn't want any orange detail!)... The first week was ok, while it was healing... I was somehow happy and also thinking that I just needed some time to get used to it... but then... one day I was paying something in a store... giving the money to the lady at the cash register, and I completely fall in pices..I felt so bad when she looked at my arm and I realized that I had a new enormous tattoo on my arm... I think it all started there.The next days it started to get worse and worse. I started thinking 24 hours a day about the tattoo, was waking up in the middle of the night, I started having problems in choosing clothes that could fit because of the thousand of colors in the tattooo. I started feeling anxiety and the next week (until today) I just wanted to stay at home without eating, searching in the web infos about tattoo removal, picosure etc etc... I think I read all the reviews posted in realself and many others. Finally, I've understood that there's something else wrong in me that led me to get that tattoo without reasoning on the decision and I decided that first of all I need some psychological therapy. I went today to the first session and it is already helping me. At least, for the first time in one week, I was able to eat normally and wasn't thinking about the tattoo... at least while cooking! Big progress compared to the last days.The therapists says I will go through a long process, not only because of accepting or not the tattoo but because of what lies back in my head, but yes... of course there are reasons behind my stupid decision, so I need to discover them and treat that before deciding what to do with the tattoo. I already have and appointment in a clinic having picosure and other laseres (there's a lot of red in my tattoo so probably picosure won't be enough), but I don't think I will start the tattoo removal process already. It would just let me fall in a new obsession, it's a long process and no 100% results at the moment so that maybe I just need to gain confidence in me and stop being so negative.That's why I'm posting this... I know many people everywhere in the world are experiencing the same... stop thinking for a second "why" did you decide to get a tattoo and why are you so unhappy. Therapy could be a good option to all of us.