Sugery Scheduled for October 24th!

  • jake19
  • h
  • 3 years ago

My Surgery  is scheduled for October 24th and I feel as if my days have gotten slower and my nights longer. Words can’t even describe how excited I am. I have always been self conscious about my nose since I broke it a few years ago. I use to have a perfect nose, I was confident and happy with my looks. Now I’m the only one in my family with a dorsal hump and the family finds it funny to joke around with me which over time has just made me feel worse.  I don’t have a huge hump but it’s large enough that it bothers me.  My nose has been controlling my life for a long time now, anywhere I go anything I do I’m only ever thinking about it. Its small things like sitting on a bus when you know someone can see your profile or waiting in line even sitting at the dinner table with your family. The only time I stop thinking about it is when I’m by myself watching a show or something like that. It’s sad but its my reality and I struggle with it everyday. I’ve been acting for about 2 years now and it’s a huge passion of mine. I find when ever I see an audition tape or watch myself in my projects I can’t concentrate on anything but my nose.  I feel like my nose sometimes can affect my performance because when they shoot me from the side I feel extremely uncomfortable. Anyways I know all stories on Real Self are similar so I’m going to stop with why I’m having my surgery. My fear is obviously getting something worse then I started off with, I don’t know If this is normal but I’ve been having horrible dreams. For example last night I had a dream that a woke up during surgery and my surgeon was on Google looking up how to do the surgery LOL. It is sorta funny when I think about it but that just shows how much I’m actually stressing out about it. I’ve wanted this surgeon to operate on me for 2 years now, I’ve done the research and he’s double board certified and not only that but he is kind and is realistic. He answered all my questions honestly. The only issue I have with him is that I e-mailed him a couple weeks ago and he has yet to get back to me is it normal for surgeons to take a while to respond? I will be posting before and after pictures after my surgery and will let you guys know how I feel during the days leading up to surgery! Thanks guys, Jake