Should I Remove Implants? Is There a Good Affordable Solution and Some Way to Feel Ok About my Body After?

  • 2bnatural
  • 9 months ago

I need some feedback please. And I am using this as a sounding board too. I hope someone will listen and offer some good advice. I know I ramble on a bit here. But maybe someone can relate. First let me say that I am sad that our culture makes us think we need to do this, put plastic in our bodies to try to try to look like some "ideal woman". I have looked through virtually every photo on this sight and have seen such variety in women's breasts and wonder where we came up with the idea we all have to have big round breasts? At such great cost! Physically, emotionally, financially, spiritually, mentally etc. I have seen before pictures of women who have very attractive natural breasts that put giant implants in, why? And women who maybe have non ideal looking breasts that have surgery that just makes them look "different" and some that look radically better according to our modern "ideal". I've seen women who have had implants taken out and some look better, some worse. Many scars. I'm sad that I wasn't happy with who I was. And afraid to be who I am without them. I'm sad that men treat us different with and without them. So I'm wondering if I should have them removed now, or just wait till they break or??? I'm pretty sure the answer is yes, at least eventually, but I was so very flat before! I didn't even feel they were the cute kind of little breasts. Nearly ironing board flat and one was even smaller than the other. I don't really want to have new implants because of finances and potential problems again. Good chance of hardening again or who knows what else, and it would be a very frivolous expense that I can't really justify . I have had them in for almost 23 years. Silicone surrounded by water. I don't know much more than that about them. I think under the muscle. One has pretty bad hardening, looks much bigger than the other probably because of this, and they just look fake for a woman as small and at my age. I'm afraid I will be really depressed to have such small breasts again. It would be a pretty radical difference. My mammo Dr says they will eventually break and I should have them out. Should I wait till then? They also have that feeling of being something "stuck on" me at this point. The hardest one is a little painful, tightness under my armpit. I have shoulder pain and wonder if I would feel more "free"? On the other hand, my friends say I look good in clothes. I never felt that way back when I didn't have them. Sometimes I feel silly with these big bulbous things sticking out of my tops though. But of course the men seem to like it, even if they are the first to notice they are fake. At my age I finally realize I'm not in need of that kind of attention. But I do want to feel attractive still. And on the other hand, my boyfriend pretty much completely ignores them, probably because they are hard and not very touchable. We have been together for 6 years and he is not the kind that is easy to talk about this stuff. We have never talked about it! But if I do this I will have to. So be it. Maybe he would prefer my soft little tiny breasts? My ex-husband never paid my little soft ones any mind either. But as soon as I had implants in I had men falling all over themselves. I felt more confident and beautiful at times.  What a mind fuck! And now a heart & soul fuck! I have an appointment for a consultation with my same doctor from 23 years ago in a couple weeks. I met with him a couple years ago for a consult. I also met with 2 other doctors. No one gave me an answer I felt good about so at the time I dropped it. They all said they could take them out and I'd probably be very flat and maybe saggy. All told me they would be happy to put new ones in for $4000 - $11,000. But a good chance of hardening again. I don't think I could see myself justifying the money, time, and all that goes with doing that again. Even a little shame. I wonder if by chance since I was in my 20's at the time and now in my 50's maybe, just maybe there is more of my own breast there now? Is there some magic thing my doctor can do very inexpensively, safely and all that will make my breasts pretty enough, make me look good in clothes, make me not feel like a little boy, make me attractive to my man and to myself,  if not big and round like supposedly we are supposed to be? I am amazed that there isn't a category of surgeons who have seen the need to help those of us in this predicament and who have taken on specializing in helping bridge the gap between cosmetic surgical solutions and natural healthy solutions to make us feel like beautiful women with beautiful natural breasts. I know that's a tall order. But it would be wonderful. In my search I hoped that someone, maybe a woman PS would be different. It just felt like they were in the business of pumping out more plastic women with plastic breasts. Even my general doctor who is a woman and my mammo doctor who is a woman kind of avoid the subject. Maybe they don't want to offer advice? I don't mean to be critical, I believe they all feel they are doing good. And for women who really need it I believe they are. Like cancer survivors maybe. I felt kind of deformed myself. I'm sure we all do. But a lot of us aren't! But I'm afraid if I get them out I will feel that way again.  

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Your story sounds so much like mine, at age 28, and after 4 children, my breasts were about to jump off the face of the earth! I have had very hard, very painful capsules removed 4 times now, the right one is so hard and painful right now, I know something will have to be done soon. I am 54 yrs now, and thinking of a possible solution. At this age, and like a lot of women my age, I have gained some belly fat...wonderful...grrrr. But, I'm wondering if maybe I could get these damn implants removed, have my belly fat lipo sucked, and the fat injected into my breast??? Idk for sure if this would work, but I'm about to ask one of the d.r's here on the site if this could. Also, I paid for saline implants and when I had capsules removed one time, that dr. told me I have pure silicone!! That really ticks me off bcs I was adamant about not having silicone. Biggest problem for me is the money, don't know when or how I will ever be able to come up with that much money again!!! Good luck to you, hopefully this will give you something to think about.
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Im a 60 year old single gal with 35 yr old leaking silicone implants. Surgery date April 3rd. The dr says I don't need a lift,my nipples are in the right place. He does recommend replacement of implants which I DO NOT want ! He said my breasts will look like pancakes.... nice. m kind of freaking out. Don't mind at all the small breasts but having fears of looking like the old lady in the movie Something about Mary. Most pictures on this site look good. Any positive feedback???
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Personally I would never put implants in again! I'd rather be flat and saggy! But that rarely happens. You don't have any photos, but I'm sure you will be happier in the long run just being you, whatever that is. Please see my blog. There is a beautiful photo of a bunch of women of all shapes and sizes. They are all beautiful. That's the reality, not Barbie, especially at our age. It's better to love your self than to keep trying to be some unrealistic and plastic false illusion. Several doctors tried to talk me into replacement. But I was afraid the CC would happen again, or rupture or have to replace again down the road. What kind of life is that! I have spent too much time and money on this illusion already. I am so happy I explanted!!! That's my two cents :) best wishes to you xo
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Agree! I am 5 weeks post-op today and love it! It was an emotional roller-coaster for a while there but now I am feeling fabulous. I must say I love the Handful Bra. It provides me with a nice shape and is supportive enough for running. They are rather spendy but I plan to buy several more. Good luck to you and keep us posted!
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Have you had your surgery yet?
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yes, last wed March 12th. Really glad I finally did it. Wish I'd done it sooner, wish I'd never gotten implants!
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yes, so glad. Things went reasonably well, but I should not have waited so long. You can read the rest of my story and photos on my blog. Best wishes to you. Keep us posted :)
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I was very small to begin with and wish I still had my "before" photo. I think I decided that was history and tossed it. I think i only had one naked picture of myself prior. It's weird to not have it now, all I have is my memory, and I remember feeling very, very very small, flat chested and sort of deformed. Now I wonder if I would feel that way? I am also concerned about what I will look like after. So many women look so great after! But will I be ok? Will I be even more "deformed"? I have heard from several surgeons that I went to for consult that I will just be very flat as though implants are the "natural" thing to have and I will regret it if I don't replace them. But they are not. So I am getting anxious to get them out. I have become more appreciative of my body as I get older, with all of it's flaws. Again, I concur with many women on this site, so thankful to have this community of support! Implants are not what make us whole or beautiful or anything else. Whichever of us goes first, I hope we will be an encouragement to the other. It's ok to have small breasts!
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I can relate to what you're going through. I'm calling today to get scheduled for removal the end of Jan. I had to run on a treadmill for my PT yesterday so he could film my running stride. I forgot to wear a sports bra! All I could think about was bouncing boobs. It was awful. I'm ready to move forward. We'll be fine!
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haha! Mine don't bounce! they are so hard, I thought that was cool at first, thought I didn't have to wear a bra, but now it's just weird!
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I used to like it but not for long. I' m more self conscious now than before I had augmentation.
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How was your consult?? Did you like the doctor?
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I'm kind of in the same boat. I really don't want mine anymore... they look too large. I'm constantly covering them up and squishing them down. I'm in my 50's also and mine are 23 years old. I have a consultation tomorrow for explant with a doc in my town but don't have high hopes for his expertise in removal. My big dilemma is whether to have a capsulectomy. I have saline but there is such a controversy about whether a capsulectomy is necessary. I just don't know and don't know how to decide. There are so many variables. I will probably be pretty flat afterward also. There are always inserts and VS bras and I have no qualms about using those types of enhancement. At least at the end of the day they can be taken off. You still have a wonderful shape and will look lighter without the boobage. That's what most of the ladies say. I will keep an eye out for future posts by you and who knows, maybe we will be going through the explant ride at around the same time and can support each other! Be sure to look at a LOT of pictures and read a lot. I find small breasted women beautiful and athletic looking. I am also looking forward to wearing little spaghetti strap summer tops! Let us all know what you decide.
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The more I read others experiences I'm surprised! I thought getting them out was a piece of cake! It almost sounds as intense as getting them in. I was picturing you go in, a little anesthesia, pop them out and have a little scar and a little pain and varying surprise at how they look and feel. But back to normal life (except trying to find bras that make you feel a little pretty) in pretty short time. Maybe not so!?
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Thanks for your post on RealSelf! I can really sense your difficulty with this decision. If it makes you feel any better, there are some GREAT bras out there now, whether you just want a cute look in bras for smaller breasts or you want to pad them up for special occasions.

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Thanks, it helps to get feedback and be in the conversation. It's really weird to look at my own picture. To see those "fake" things that don't really look that much better than my real ones probably did all those years ago and having dialog puts things more and more in perspective :)
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I can so relate. Thank goodness for this forum! I have a consult this Friday. I am nervous to remove them, nervous to keep them. I've had mine almost 9 years. I was lying on my stomach today doing some exercises and it felt awful! I can't stand that odd feeling and never got used to it. I find I hide mine as well. It's like they just don't work for me anymore. I'm thinner than when I first got them and I'm so self-conscious when I run and work out. I'm afraid it will be noticeable when they're out. I'm going to need find some good padded sports bras for the transition. I wish I had never done this.
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