I am reading an overwhelmingly positive account of most reductions and I'm not sure where my story fits in. I wear a 36C (full C), and am 5'4 and 135 lbs. Commentary on my size has ranged from constant junior high school remarks that "your [RS bleep] are too big", to most recently "they're a nice size, nothing insane". Either way, I feel like they have always weighed me down mentally. I cannot say I have back or chest pain, just some discomfort with PMS when they get even larger. My whole life, I've wanted to become an A CUP. My biggest problem is that I am now 25 and have spent the majority of my life struggling with an eating disorder/disordered eating habits-since I was 8. In the past couple of years, while not diagnosed, I am fairly certain I have Body Dysmorphic Disorder. I often avoid going out and social situations because of the size of my breasts and I'm so terrified people are going to be looking at me making comments. Finding clothing I like is nearly impossible. I wear a lot of baggy shirts and scarves.I have spent days going from store to store in the quest to find clothing that flatters me. I often get severe anxiety when I have to leave my apartment because I'm so afraid that someone is going to make a comment about my breasts. I do have a lot of paranoia. I realize a lot of this may sound batshit crazy and this is why I'm wondering if I'm an appropriate candidate for a reduction. While I've not yet dealt with physical issues from being a large size, I definitely have problems that go beyond garden-variety self-esteem conflicts. I don't have unrealistic expectations-for example, I don't think getting a reduction will make life perfect. I just don't know if I am the best candidate for a reduction at this point because of BDD. The thought of going under anesthesia has always scared me. But whenever I've looked at other alternatives to a reduction, I'm told to diet and exercise. I've been doing that my entire life, sometimes to the extreme. And even when I've lost a few it's never upstairs. I guess I'm just posting here because there are not a lot of resources that I've seen for patients who are dealing with mental health issues regarding their appearance and I don't know how to go about making an appropriate decision. Thanks for reading.