June 11 - the BIG day!

Hi everyone. I am so thankful to have found this site. I just found out (last week) that my insurance has approved my BR! I am so ecstatic! At the same time, the more I think about what is about to happen, the more nervous I get. I have anxiety and feel like I am going to be sick. Tomorrow morning is my pre-op appt. I am reading everyone's posts so I can have a list of questions ready for the doctor. Although I know I will be much happier when this is all over, I am having a hard time with my decision. My emotions are starting to get the best of me. I have 4 year old twin daughters......how am I going to explain to them that I cannot hold and cuddle with them every second of the day. Thankfully my mom will be able to help me for 10 days after my BR......but is that enought time? I'm going to keep reading everyone's posts.....I am happy to know I certainly am not the only one with mixed emotions. BTW....I am a 38 I - praying for a C when all is said and done.