Ok Ladies, This is getting serious. Any inputs/insights appreciated! Now that my sx date is 2 weeks away I'm starting to freak. Hear goes. I've had my implants for 5 years. Though i've not had any problems with them positively, I never really liked them. I feel that I look fat and bad in clothes and shirts don't fit right but that they look good with no clothes on but that's it. Always uncomfortable. I feel fake and embarrassed for cutting up and disfiguring my body (put in through areola and now they are misshapen and numb). I got them for the wrong reason, thinking it would fix my marriage, never wanting them before that. Needless to say it didn't fix the marriage and am preparing for separation now. Anyway, Now that my explant date is getting closer I am starting to have doubts. I am wondering if any of you feel or have felt the same way and if you went through with it even with the doubts (I had doubts when I got them in!). I'm just wondering if I should wait until I am absolutely sure or if it is just jitters. I'm worried about them being cut up and more messed up (though I know they need to come out eventually no matter what). I'm having all of the physical symptoms of fatigue, memory, sleep, fogginess that many of you are having. Though I am not sure that they are caused by the implants. I don't want to think that will all clear up and be disappointed because these symptoms may be related to a lot of other things going on in my life. I have depression and anxiety and life issues which I am working so hard on (could be the cause of these problems) which is why I don't want to put all my eggs in one basket that these symptoms would clear up with an explant. If I knew that to be the case I would have no doubts whatsoever. I am the type of person that is never really sure of decisions (working on that too) so I don't know if I will ever be SURE. I don't want to think the grass is greener then be disappointed. I want them out to be myself (and not be ashamed), to be physically comfortable, to jog and exercise more comfortably, to look skinnier and to develop more spiritually. I feel these fake things in my body (for purely aesthetic reasons) are ridiculous. When looking through pics on this site of before and after, I always think the after is way more physically attractive. Well, I'm realizing this is very long-winded and I kind of sound like a nut-case and maybe no one will even read through this though I hope you do. I do know this my and only my decision, but I would still like your input so...to get to the point, please reply if you have had doubts or were positively sure, went through with it anyway and how you feel about it etc. Thank you so much. I need to positively make a decision. Getting scared. Wondering if I should wait till my life is more settled. If you have read through this thank you.