I'm getting silicone implants tomorrow morning (size 300) under the muscle, moderate profile. This will be my first surgery ever. I'm 32 and haven't even had my wisdom teeth taken out. (It's not a necessity, so I'd rather not bc I'm TERRIFIED of getting anesthesia or having surgery). There was a comment on here about someone feeling like the stress and recovery period of surgery that is meant to make you healthier feels more acceptable----I'd have to agree that that is how I'm feeling right now since it's elective. i know I'll be very happy in the end bc this is what I want. I am barely a size A and am so tired of wearing super padded bras, taking them off after work and feeling deflated----almost like Robin Williams in Mrs. Doubtfire when he changes out of his woman suit. Also, I can't wait for my bra drawer to close properly, without bouncing open bc of all the padding that's stuffed inside. point of my comment is that I'm SUPER nervous. I know it's normal, but I also have generalized anxiety disorder and am prone to panic attacks. I fear that I'll have a freak out when i get there and as they are administering the anesthesia. All of the worst possible scenarios have been swimming in my head. I always fear the worst. I know it's so irrational, but i've had panic attacks and passed out at the eye doctor's, dentist's, general doctor's and allergist's offices :-/ I'm surprised I'm still allowed in.Not only am I afraid of the anesthesia and actual surgery, I'm frightened by the recovery and pain. I don't know if I should expect to be in unbearable pain, or if I can watch netflix on the couch and feel some pain. THAT i'd be ok with! argh. I just need some reassurance I think and some coddling haha. I really hope it's not as bad as I'm envisioning. I had my pre-op last night and since then I've been so high strung and even a little nauseous. humph:-/thoughts? inspiration? advice? i'll take anything! Also, a little bummed i wont be able to run or go to the beach for a month....but it's a price i'm willing to pay. thanks for reading!